being obscure clearly.

Friday, February 29, 2008

peekchure heavy.

awesome friday, much?

thanks to my hardworking ass who tutored at 3 different places, i got the reward of having only 1 tuition job today. at 8 p.m. which meant a whole DAY to sleep in/ do other things.

as it were, i woke up at 3.30 p.m. cuz the nehneh called to tell me he was on his way! showered, got ready and off we went to west coast park. not before he told he had a very gross HOLE in his arm. pimple on arm + sea water = not good.

in any case the weather was brilliant. it wasn't very sunny like tuesday, but it was cloudy and breezy, making a picnic in a shadeless park rather comfy. i got my much- craved filet- o- fish and he got mushroom strudel. condiments- hoe that i am, we had mayo, chili, ketchup and bbq sauce as dips for our fries. whoopee! while eating, a ball rolled towards us from a group playing football quite a distance away. the ball was rolling towards us but it wasn't anywhere near either, so we didn't bother picking it up. besides the guy was already running towards it and it will suck for him if all that running goes to waste. in any case, i used my hand and attempted to stop a ball from a distance a.k.a. eye power. he appreciated it, though and said 'thanks!" friendly, much.

post- lunch, a bout of frisbeeing followed. frisbeeing is super fun! loves it. there's something about watching the spin and clasping it in your hands and seeing it spin in the air again that's so addictive. and not to mention, the leaping about sure feels good. its been a while, evidently.

and after all that mucking about, we just lied down on a mat for a bit staring at bits of green and cloudy skies. at the initial hints of raindrops, we made for macs where we shared a lemon tea and proceeded to devour our individual books. lovely.

re: the title, you've been forewarned.

tikar mengkuang amat penting...

kerana sedap buat baring.

macs picknick.

coupleism overload. sorreh.

crazy skirt overload. i love how much COLOUR there is in these shots.

that's me y'all. amazing fish head FO SHO.

awesome book.

mad jack dinner post- tuition. :)

i must apologize for the couple overload lately, it is afterall, midsem break. it is about the only time we can have quality time. he's not rushing off for lectures/ home and hence has all the time in the world to create a schedule around mine. HURHUR. so i've milked this week for all its worth, in case you can't tell.

obligatory grass- in- shot peekchure. last couple shot this week promise! hahaha.

alrighty then. i now await my cousin and his pregnant wife from port dickson, as well as my black pepper crabs from jb! yummy. two tuition tomorrow,then peejay peejot convention in bugis! woot woot. i will now rest my tablaesque tummy before stuffing it further. good days are made of these.

well then. see ya when i seeya!

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Why I Love Wednesdays.

i would like to make this a weekly thing but i doubt i am capable of any sort of regimented behavior so we shall see. as of today though;

being an absolute nyonya* by walking the short distance between the train station and my student's place merrily yielding my spancy new brolly (because seriously, it was HOT).
being ATTACKED by a very sudden, strong, gust of wind which FLIPPED said umbrella and threatened to blow it right out of my hand.
fighting the wind while laughing to self about inane ability to get into such bothersome situations.
waking up with achy thighs knowing its because of an AWESOME frisbee session with the boys.
realizing i've lost count of my number of coke- less days.
dinner post- tuition and pre- class with the nehneh. best 2 hours out of 24, hands down.

* a nyonya here is not in reference to the baba nyonya of the famed food and kebaya culture. rather i am referring to the scattering of old chinese aunties who walk around with umbrellas on bright sunny days because it is SO HOT.

also something to love about today/ wednesday;

fiza: i have come to the very traumatising conclusion that i have not seen or met an attractive or goodlooking guy who is not my boyfriend for a very VERY long time. this is a tragedy beyond compare.

suresh: hahaha. and what has sparked this search for an attractive, goodlooking guy? and are you just humoring me with the "not my boyfriend" bit?

fiza: its not a search as much as it is a realization. what's happened to all the hot guys? have you killed them all? okay wow i've just had the most amazing umbrella crisis one can have on a non- rainy day you won't believe it. more later.

brilliant text exchanges. totally makes my day.

in other news; cinnamon buns remain missing in action and this house believes that THAT IS TOTAL BULL. gimme my cinnamon sugary goodness NOW.

tomorrow is marathon tuition; 1.45- 3.45, 4.30- 6, 7.30- 9. godspeed.

beached whale.

if i wbeach was such fun that i am now dying dying dying. from exhaustion and overheating! if i were a turkey i'd be overcooked and really dry, not nice to eat at all. but i am not.

i do however, feel like having a CINNABUN! where am i to find a yumyum cinnabun! they used to have cinnarolls (?) or some cinnabon buns shop but the last one i knew of in causeway point has since closed... anyone knows where to get good cinnabuns? please don't say delifrance.

pictures when i'm not dog tired. got home at 7ish and knocked out in bed till 11 p.m. awesome, the beach. the water was EXCEPTIONALLY clear and i couldn't shut up about it. i know now that going at low tide is good, by the time you're done playing snap/ frisbee/ eating instand noodles/ fan choy/ chips, it is the advent of HIGH TIDE which brings in AWESOMELY CLEAR WATERS. at about 2ish/3, bubbles of brownish colour started appearing and we left. that's when the water gets dirty! i am so pleased with my oceanic observations. oh and i think coming to the beach the day after a huge rain helps? does rain/ storms help clear the beaches etc? like how the tsunami made the beaches really clean and pristine again. just a thought.

but we left the dirty waters but not sentosa! we moved over to the new water feature meant for kids (i guess). but it was breezy and sunny and the water fountains shooting about made for really good back massages. and head and neck and wherever else you please, just sit yourself by a shooting water spout. lovely. surrounded by ang moh kids made the entire experience even more surreal, feeling- feeling caribbean! HAHA.

tram ride to vivociteh for banquet. suresh had carrot cake and bandung while i... slept. haha seriously. i read a bit of my bryson, took out my spare tee and constructed a pillow out of it and i was out like a light. woke up to leave but suresh hadn't finish his carrot cake so i finished it. slurps!

then it was fre(n)sh for my much craved creme brulee! yummm. i am now contented. well for today. next is for me to get my cinnabuns! whoo!

walked around a bit but the pajamas and bedroom slippers at la senza made me sleepier so it was bus ride home for me. aimed straight for the bed, and i got a direct hit.

back to tuition and more tuition tomorrow but it was good to have this break. though it means a tuition for saturday but that's okay! my weekends aren't always as happening as the weekend of GDP anyway. hurr.

okay america's next top model rerun then law & order svu then back to bed.

awesomest tuesday evaaaaaaah.

Sunday, February 24, 2008

GrandDatePlan/ GDP.

i'm now back from the grand date plan, as its called by the nehneh. in fact its been a weekend of exceeding happiness. :)

saturday was town for a bit of old school days. more zara kids shopping for the nehneh (i'm sure there's paedophilic pun to be inserted there somewhere but i'll let it go for now) cuz he loves the polo tees so yeap. then kinokuniya where he very sweetly used his $20 voucher to get me a bill bryson. like i told him, "i'd never give my vouchers to anyone else!" which proves that i'm a selfish prick, yes, but it also shows how sweet it was of him to actually use them to get me a book.

toast for salmon sandwich then more walking about. i got boots for $30 at far east, joy! farhana! i got boots first! hurhur.

ended the night at coffee bean wheelock; carrot cake + raspberry esprit. mmm. i was craving for cake so that hit the spot.

scream 3 on channel 5. the first time i saw this i guessed the killer 5 minutes into the film, much to the boyfriend-at-that-time's annoyance.

in any case. sunday was tuition in the afternoon, followed by al ameen for late lunch with norm and nehneh. butter chicken and aloo goobi are the shezneh. was supposed to be followed up with island creamery as according to the GDP. unfortunately we've yet to learn how to eat naans without feeling stuffed like a doraemon after that. its all a learning curve, we'll get there someday.

then it was home for me to change up! just wanted to dress up for a change, teaching tuition 5 days a week means dressing very boringly 5 times a week. so any opportunity to dress up should be taken advantage of. as it were, i was the most dressed up person in the room (more on this later) but at least i was happy. so yay me.

date was actually a screening of paradise now at NUS UCC. as anticipated, it was a room of plastic chairs. but we were undeterred, and had a great time. movie was amazing. rather personal though. discussed it lightly post- movie but somehow i couldn't be sure what to feel.

then it was holland v! for desserts! whoopee! we went from coffee bean (carrot cake/ cheesecake?), to NYDC (mudpie?) to breko's (waffles?) before ending up at coffee club for fondue. YUMNESS. i had iced earl grey vanilla. tres delicious.

and because i can't be bothered to blog anymore, photos are here.

re: last pic. its like riding a bike la. some talents are just beyond time's great damage. i don't even need practice. *smirk.

so monday's near but so is tuesday and its beach day so happy happy day! goodness so much happiness in this post. i shall go now before i get blinded by my own shiiiiiiiingness. i hope the letter comes soon though, i'm so tired of waiting. and maroon 5 tickets will be bought soon; excitingableesque! ANYONE ELSE GOING PLS TELL ME. my first gig with the nehneh woot woot. things are slowly falling into place, slowly but surely, and all i need is for that piece of paper to come soon so that i can finalise my future plans once and for all.

i don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else. but you.

Friday, February 22, 2008

what distance?

** berak is malay for shit. to be specific, the ACT of shitting/ pooping.

far_in melb_ says:
alamak...stomachache
far_in melb_ says:
lol
far_in melb_ says:
after drinking water

fizusthemissus: i covet thee says:
hahaha you ah
fizusthemissus: i covet thee says:
go berak

far_in melb_ says:
berak already
far_in melb_ says:
i berak every day now
far_in melb_ says:
and it's the healthy berak...which means I hv enough fibre in my body
far_in melb_ says:
lol...which is gd!
far_in melb_ says:
like I can berak easily here...I don't constipate

fizusthemissus: i covet thee says:
...............................
fizusthemissus: i covet thee says:
too many b-words.

far_in melb_ says:
lol...what else is new
far_in melb_ says:
this is normal what
far_in melb_ says:
lol

fizusthemissus: i covet thee says:
fibrous shit.
fizusthemissus: i covet thee says:
seriously.

far_in melb_ says:
hahaha...good fibrous shit
far_in melb_ says:
lol

right. in other non- shit related news, i am happy, i watched juno which was LOVELEIH, swam and got exhausted, and had a lovely lunch of mee kuah and sugarcane lime. whoopee.

later/ tomorrow's friday (duh) which means two tuition but also means friday dinner at chua chu kang before second tuition. love! then its weekend where much excitingableesque plans behold. not to mention next tuesday which is tentative BEAAAAAACH day! yay yay hey hey i don't like your girlfriend!

i am looking for a new phone. suresh thinks its pointless for me to get a camera phone (3.2 mp above) cuz i have a 5 mp digicam BUT the convenience of a camera phone is gadzookiesly amazing! gadzooks! so why not right. and i don't want a walkman phone cuz... i have an ipoot (yes okay i get it same argument but zippit) and i don't listen to music as much as i enjoy taking pictures. so.

pointless arguments are the best ones to have. oh oh oh! on my walk home from the bus stop a chinese auntie tapped my shoulder and asked me if my curls were natural or permed. i specifically get chinese aunties cuz they have the salon perm that... gets un- permy after a while so i guess they wanna know a salon that does good perms. whoopsie. and moments like that makes it that much harder for me to 'snip it all off', as much as i want to for no other reason than to regale my own bravado.

i like quirky american suburban homes though i understand its probably not very realistic to expect the real ones to be like stars hollow, connecticut (gilmore girls); elmo, alaska (men in trees); dancing elk, minnesota (juno) and... i dunno. any other (imaginary) small quirky towns?

i think i'll fit right in. such a happy town! i'd kill to eat in luke's diner. and lorelai's inn! loves it. and is anyone else watching idol? MICHAEL JOHNS IS THE SWOONSOME. and of course david archuleta is the bee's knees. girls; i like asia'h (haha asiah is a warna sembilan empat perpuluhan dua DJ right?) and... syesha and carly. yeap.

In my opinion, the best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what have you, the right person will still think the sun shines out your ass. That's the kind of person that's worth sticking with.

i don't know if you felt this but when mac macguff said this in the movie, i had to resist all temptation to turn around and "look at you meaningfully in the eye" as they do in the movies because that is just too corny. but just to clarify, that's you. you're the kind of person worth sticking with, and fo' sho' the sun shines out of your ass.

As far as boyfriends go, Paulie Bleeker is totally boss. He is the cheese to my macaroni. - Juno.

:)

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

pretty awesome short film.

flaws aside i think its a pretty ace attempt by the kids... RP, i believe? ain't too sure. but yea, obviously, i like it. haaa.

and shah; i believe that blog won't be so informative! haha. nevertheless; click here. and when are you headed there? i might be in melb this june. :)

Sunday, February 17, 2008

hormones.are.evil.

as always, first day of periods meant cramps when i woke up that lasted throughout the day, subsiding to a dull ache towards night time but still there, omnipresent. even as i type. and because i am feeling oh so intelligent, i caught a bit of the pianist, managed to cry despite not watching the whole thing, watched three episodes of grey's anatomy (which trust me, has an impact on the finale of my night), read some things on someone's blog (again, affected the finale i am about to declare) and ended up typing a teary, emotional- basketcase type email to suresh.

its great to be me.

i think boyfriends are the best people to have when period- ing. once, i picked a fight with him over... nothing? yeah. and mid- rant i stopped. suresh had on his serious i- am- trying- to- understand- you- woman face, and just as he was about to reply i burst out laughing. like, "HAHAAHA. oh my god i'm sorry... HAHAAHA. oh god i don't know what's wrong with me i'm sorry really i'm not laughing at you!" and suresh, still with that face, nodded sagely. "never mind. laugh first."

there hasn't been much going on lately per se but i when i have the time to spare (such as today when i sat on the couch, immobilized), i start thinking of EVERYTHING and when you start thinking of everything, that's a lot to cover and you end up realizing a lot of things that needs attention/ solving/ something. and when you realize this all at one go its incredible unnerving and combined with the hormones usurping your brain cells you become a little cuckoo.

which is where i am now.

and i hate that it has come to this but it has. its the money. its all about the money. its all bout' the dum dum dadada dum. you saw that coming.

but it is. the woes in my head are 70% financially- related. which sucks but life sucks. and while i know this can be solved with a job, my job now is on hold as i await a letter that will seal the deal. and while there is tuition, it is evidently not enough to do all this life- changing things i have in mind. i should have taken triple science and become a surgeon.

this is one of the days where i feel useless and pathetic because i am not wonderful and brilliant like a lot of other people i know. but if everyone is wonderful and brilliant, then who's going to be the average missy who makes you feel awesome about being brilliant? yeap, precisely. that's me. that's my station in life. how 70s.

the cramps are going on as i type and i believe it is very influential over the content. i couldn't care less. i miss being honest.

sunday/ today might be slightly better, seeing as to how jamie oliver is now on my TV screen. hormones. really. you guys are truly BIZARRE.

i should stop reading about other people's lives and wondering why mine is mine and their's is their's. cuz i'm too old for this shit and its about time i move on from dysfunctionalities and start living the life of a normal human. at times like this i see the truth in all the psych- babble about your life now being affected by your past cuz i can literally join- the- dots between my current issues to incidents of the past.

its funny how history shapes you. how the stupidest thing that didn't seem important at that time could become the reason why you're such a screw- up. at 22 going on 23.

if this is what growing up is like then i hope i will learn to suck it up soon enough cuz if my email to suresh is anything to go by, monthly breakdowns are no fun to read.

Saturday, February 16, 2008

frankly, ya.

It's Aloha Friday, no work till Monday
Doo be doo, doo doo be, doo be doo
be doo be doo!
Okay
You know when you wanna get away, I mean one ting
about Friday
ma, da working work is ovah yeah
Frankly, ya, I feel good man

thai express lunch and breko dinner, both at holland v and with lovely company (suresh in the day with the addition of weilong, peiyong and jinhong at night). what's there not to love? blissful tuition sessions capped off with a seriously hilarious attempt at concocting a love poem for my sec 1 boy with the other sec 1 girl. for his literature class. i think we got this far...

Love is visiting grandma on weekends,
Love is playing with my friends
and working hand in hand.
Love is a mother who understands...

HAHAHA. he's 13 la okay. cannot say all the i love you till death do us part bit. i asked him if he had a girlfriend, "*shrugs* heh... aiya i don't know." !!! "ok then you don't. cuz trust me if you have, you will know." ahh.

and i know i promised suresh if better prospects (monetary and time- wise) come i'd drop some tuition assignments and namely, the one at the centre, cuz that's the newest one and hence there's been less attachment. UNfortunately, i am getting quite attached to the sec 1 kids. tsk. what is it with kids?! they amuse when they stick their head out of windows to wave at me, when they ask me am i going out with my boyfriend after tuition when i am a little too dressed up, when they laugh at my primary- school- level jokes.

RICHARD SIMMONS! IS! ON! ELLEN! TIS IS LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OH MY GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD. no that's not me that's what richard just said. oh richard. he's wearing a top attached with gifts and its for the audience... "so when i'm walking up the aisle... why don't you... touch me?" SEXAY. he's dancing and he's got the ENTIRE AUDIENCE DOING AEROBICS. HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA.

oh simmons. my friday was great and you just made it AWESOME. never say diet! whooh!

i should sleep if i plan on accompanying suresh to school for IFG. i doubt i'd even catch him play a single game but i think i'd run/ swim instead. i might go with the latter cuz its been madrad hot lately and a dip would totally hit the spot. now to find the darn swimsuit.

today i had a crisis in the form of 1x pimple and 1x no tops to wear. as many would know i cleaned out my room lately which resulted in the disposal/ general extraction of unworn clothes. so apparently i owned a lot of clothes that i DON'T wear, and few that i actually can. frustration of the highest order! so tomorrow i shall hunt zara kids for some BASIC tops at the very least. cuz that's all i need for tuition and i don't even have enough of those in enough colours/ prints. i know, brat.

i'm officially removing 27 dresses from my list for 2 reasons; i doubt i'd catch it on screen and i've heard too many "just catch it on DVD" reviews. so tata heigl! oh and 3rd reason!!! duhhh i can't stand izzie for being izzie, in grey's. callie is totally awesome and izzie is just a dumb blonde. HAHA. illogical reason to skip the movie, but maybe not. i am but a hormonal being.

on that note, i shall sleep/ watch episode 5/ spongebob squarepants. i can't decide. but first and foremost, i shall pee.

have a jolly holy weekend!

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

maybe there's a bit of me waiting for a bit of you baby.

rosti and mushrooms and carrots= love!

marche lunch, walk- about vivo and off to tuition. happy days! movie date tomorrow too, happy happy!

this is how i look, happy.

izzy is annoying. kepo- kepo je. GO CALLIE! my boyfriend obviously is not much of a grey's fan. and i'm not much help either.

suresh says:
hello!

fizusthemissus: the shortlist says:
hi!
fizusthemissus: the shortlist says:
greys anatomy today very sad!

suresh says:
oh okay
suresh says:
why?

fizusthemissus: the shortlist says:
christina lost her eyebrows
fizusthemissus: the shortlist says:
her mother in law took it.

suresh says:
WHAT?!

beatles got it right, all you need is love.

Monday, February 11, 2008

i want...

ahmad jais album (s). gimme some ahmad jais please! i think my only choice is to go geylang, so if any of your parents don't mind selling off their ahmad jais or any other pop yeh yeh albums for that matter, do let me know. i've lost all my cds. except for beatles, maroon 5 and a couple of 90s compilation albums. :(

okay time to poop. i had bubble tea after tom yam dinner. o_O.

Saturday, February 09, 2008

happy times!

i've been swinging between stopping and staying for quite some time now. a big part of me take pride in this blog, whenever i feel bored i read my archives and amuse myself with my stupidity of yesteryears. and it'll be great to have this blog follow me throughout the rest of my... life. okay not till i die but yea. no point writing a memoir/ autobiography cuz only i will read it and it takes too much effort. this way when i'm 50 i will always be able to re- read my past.

but at the same time the thought of being so easily google- able scares the shit out of me. and while i doubt i'm googled much, the possibility of being found via googling is horrible. when i first started blogging only... i alone read this? and now i think that's not very likely. which is good, but also makes me wary. so many people could be reading this and i honestly feel like i've lost all control over the readership and in many ways hence, content. i don't want to go on LJ and lock entries or wordpress and such but i want to stay here and i want to keep being able to stay here without worry. hate tags non- withstanding, its the silent lurkers i fear. but like i mentioned, its beyond my control, so...

when did blogging become such a convulated ethical dilemma? geez.

oh well. happier news then. friday was 1 tuition and then home! it happened to be our 2.5 years anniversary. we made sandwiches and then settled down to watch a b- grade movie (LOVE!), crocodile 2: death roll/ swamp. wonderful! i love giant mutant reptiles. hahaha.

being the greedy people that we are, our sandwiches ended up thicker than a big mac. and his was made of vegetarian chicken/ mock meat! mine had about 4/5 black pepper turkey bacon, chicken bacon and chicken ham. and we both had melted cheese, mayo, lettuce and crushed lay's bbq chips. maddddness.

predictably, much of the eating time was spent in silence, laboriously chewing through our thickass (geddit, kickass?! hahaha) sandwich. i looked up at him mid- chew and said, "this wasn't how i imagined our anniversary to be." he laughed and took a bite, and i proceed to push him so that he almost misses the sandwich. much happier with that, i told him, "ah, that's more like it."

weekend, at long last! though the CNY break were pretty awesome too; only 1 tuition each day due to closed centre/ postponed sesh. but postponed session is for sunday but that's okay, after that i meet the nehneh to go for haircuts! whee! i told him to go for jude law/ ricky martin. sounds horrid i know, but google em' up. its not too bad. and i think i'll just trim mine. sigh. stuck with boring hair for the next couple of years simply cuz i am a sentimental sap and i cannot cut it all off now that its so long already. GAHHH.

i feel like making a sandwich cuz i'm hungry. it'll definitely be healthier than the maggi mee i plan to make instead. dinner was a healthy salad of potatoes, apples, lettuce and corn but now i am hungry again. whoever eats salad as a main course are CRAZY.

HOLEY SHEEEEEEEEETZ BARRY MANILOW IS ON MARTHA WAHHOOOOOOOO

anyway happy pic from airpork! hahahaha. okay excuse the tasteless humour okay its 5 a.m.

i coerced him into pushing me on a trolley. :D afterwhich he made me stop much much further from skytrain than necessary so i got chocolates from cocoa tree as compensation. TOGGI WAFERS MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.

we can plant a house! we can build a tree! nirvana's brill lyrics.

best friends are forever, boyfriend goes, whatever. and farhana sorry to repeat eh but seriously you look P- SYCHO here la. maniacal smile, much!

got pics from today but its only of me cooking in the kitchen and the sandwich which looks like... sandwiches. so. my kitchen is no martha stewart so don't need horrrr.

i love my aqua room still. i wake up in the morning (lately only la) thinking i'm in underwater world. TEH AWESOME.

i want salad. with pomegranate. mmm. and feta cheese! haiya. yang bukan- bukan je craving malam- malam. sorry lazy to translate. anyway i think 99% of my readers are malays. with suresh being the only non- malay? but he said, "bodoh punyak mampus" so he is fast on his way.

apiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiz bila nak celebrateeeeeee. i feel like taking same flights as you cuz then will be in time for Queen's Birthday! haphaphappening lor. hahaha.

okay before i digress further (from where also i don't know that's how far i've gone SEE WHAT I MEAN I'M DOING IT AGAIN) i better... eat or sleep. sigh. hunger is such horror.

OH OH OH. day 12 of no cokes/ gassy drinks! so proud of myself. :D

Friday, February 08, 2008

may all babies/ siblings be like this two.

charlie bit me!

Thursday, February 07, 2008

iPod shuffle for sale!

brand new iPod shuffle for sale. 1G, silver, still in box, unopened. retailing for S$138, willing to let go for less. name a price and we'll negotiate! tag/ email. thanks! do help spread the word.

awake? already?

this is possibly the earliest i've ever been awake, for a very long time. not counting the times when i was supposed to wake up early for various activities i.e. interviews, make IC, blablabla.

so! morning air, eh? pretty snazzy, who knew. better appreciated when fully awake i can tell you that. i'm supposed to be up at 10 but i woke up at 8ish and couldn't go back to sleep. all because of my new social experiment called...

sleep early.

so on tuesday night i was out like a light by 1 a.m. which is considerably early. which then explained the minimal struggle with regards to waking up at 11. and yesterday! i one- upped myself by falling asleep before TEN. seriously, how talented am i?! so because of that i am awake now.

wonderful. if only i could sleep early everyday. but its not so easy, i'm always distracted by... things. yeaaaaah well.

halfway through dellilo's falling man. finished connelly's the overlook in 2 days. cloverfield on tuesday was... great. i mean i love the movie, but there's something about it that stays with you. which means its a great movie, duh, but also means i get nightmares. and is anyone else annoyed by beth? but that aside, i think the detractors don't know what they're talking about. the lousy acting- they're supposed to be regular people like you and me, caught in the mayhem. so i think their job was to act as how normal people would act in those circumstances. and much flak for the 9/11 resemblance... well that i can't comment. could definitely see the allusion but i don't know if it was truly tacky/ insensitive. the monster itself, yeah, definitely the idea was definitely scarier than the actual image, as it always is in any horror/ monster movies. otherwise i think this movie is a good start to a new type of monster movies.

that aside, WHY NEW YORK?! i am beginning to develop a phobia of... all sorts of things. mutant in the water, mutant virus in the air, statue of liberty head falling across my apartment... i don't know how the new yorkers stand it, all these constant images of a destroyed new york. sigh.

so i decided that i am going to watch home alone 2 lost in new york for the bagajillionth time to wash away all these horrible images of burnt and destroyed new york.

in other news; i made milo and had 1.5 currypuffs! yay breakfast whoo hoo! and i think tomorrow me and suresh are making sandwiches and watching tv/ go somewhere/ i obviously don't know the plans. but we're making sandwiches! yesterday we went to vivocity's giant and got the bread, meats, etc. they were playing chinese new year songs and i couldn't stop dancing. "TONG TONG CHANG TONG CHANG TONG CHANG" IS GODDAMN CATCHY.

anyway it seems a lot of events are going undocumented cuz i am no longer as trigger- happy/ bringing my camera along everywhere i go. but just to date; sunday was airport with the nehneh where we sent farhana off along with an entourage of about 30? then we checked out T3 which is teh humongous but seemingly catered to a more east asian crowd. then monday was dinner with suresh and peiyong and weilong at botak jones. if i hang out with these boys any more frequently i might start growing a penis. dinner conversation topics vary from teaching, economics, political science lectures, stupid people in NUS to hongkong sex scandals. then tuesday was IC- making where i was not jailed, cloverfield where i was traumatised, then two tuitions that exhausted me and made me sleep earlier than normal.

and then yesterday was tuition then vivo for groceries and lunch then homeee. where i watched spongebob online, read a book, then slept. at 9.45. whoo hoo. i love mrs puff! if i ever take driving lessons, i hope my instructor is like mrs. puffs!

that being said, i doubt i'd ever take one. licence, i mean. my attention span is too short. besides i honestly don't think i need one, not in singapore. however in certain situations it seems to be useful to have a licence + driving experience so i shall think it through till i am 40.

i am contemplating watching tom & jerry dvds before tuition. which is at 12 at jurong west. hmm.

okay no i think i'll just watch some more spongebob online. alrighty then, GONG XI FA CAI HONG BAO NA LAI. and in the worlds of ellen my favourite lesbian; if all else fails, dance. TONG TONG CHANG TONG CHANG TONG CHANG!

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

jailbird.

i am finally going to ICA to make my IC tomorrow after countless years of traipsing around the sacred grounds of singapura IC- less. i however, am unable to sleep in fear that they might find out that i lost the IC a long time ago and have only now come to make a new one. i am now worried that they might pop me in jail for being such a... lazy person? suresh says they won't put me in jail but he doesn't know the law too well so my future is still in jeopardy. so now i can't sleep cuz this might be my last night of freedom. and i just finished my new connelly where about 5 people died so all in all, this is not shaping up to be a good night sleep.

Sunday, February 03, 2008

for the one that matters.

cuz its you that matters. i hope you had a good time today/ yesterday, and i'll see you later. thanks for the card and of course, the cactus. i'll try to keep it alive.

if nothing else i've learnt that lucky plaza is the place to get things cheap in orchard road. $8 handbag! and she got her perfume for $45. hmm hmm.

i am not good with these things, as you would know. doubt you'd read this before you go but you did tell me to blog regularly so here i am. tomorrow i might not say much, i might be reluctant to hug as always, i might not tear up like everyone else but...

i will miss you like crazy, because you are the only person who can match my every crazy thought/ action. i will miss you like crazy because there are times when it feels as if its just us against the world, and that is a very very nice feeling. i will miss you like crazy, because when i laugh so hard it feels empty when you're not laughing as hard beside me. i will miss you like crazy because no one will punch me and call me idiot and i have no one to say "oi!" to and call "kukutingtong". i will miss you like crazy, of course, cuz its 1.5 years of you being far far away and despite all the advancements in technology, nothing beats a nightcap in sentosa eating sara lee pound cake while freezing our asses off in the sea breeze. i will miss you like crazy, everyday, because i cannot meet your for lunch that weekend or run off to KL on a whim for nando's.

most of all, i will miss you like crazy because at the end of the day you are my best friend and i love you and i like having you around, near. but i am happy for you, cuz i know this will make you happy and this is what you need, now. don't forget i'm here and if you need me, email/ msn/ call/ whatever. i am excited for what awaits your future, because these are exciting times and i know you're gonna have a blast. learn to cook, learn to cycle (not mabuk-ly), join a club. and remember, leggings/ tights ARE NOT PANTS. if it gets lonely, log on to facebook and throw me a sheep and have a good laugh imagining a sheep falling down on me from the sky.

once i get it, we will countdown to june. and after that it will only be a year or so and i promise we'd meet again for sure. :) have a rocking good time. love. always.

We used to be frightened and scared to try

Of things we don't really understand why

We laugh for a moment and start to cry

We were crazy (HAHA)

Now that the end is already here

We reminisce 'bout old yells and cheers

Even if our last hurrahs were never clear

Farewell to you my friend

We'll see each other again

Don't cry 'cause it's not the end of everything

I may be miles away

But here is where my heart will stay

With you, my friend with you

Yesterday's a treasure, today is here

Tomorrows' on its way, the sky is clear

Thank you for the memories of all the laughters and tears

And not to mention our doubts and our fears

It's really funny to look back after all of these years

Saturday, February 02, 2008

hearts.

i never had siblings of my own so i never knew what it was like to love as much as i love these little people. i think i never realized how being an aunt would have an impact on my life; i stop to look at girly dresses, imagining one of my many gorgeous nieces in them. i browse toy stores regularly, and go crazy on their birthdays. being with them brings a simple sense of wonder, i am amazed at how beautiful they can be. i pray their lives be the most perfect of lives- the smartest of kids, with the most beautiful smiles and the contagious laughter that makes the world light up in wonder as it does each time i am around you.

Don't worry you will find the answer if you let it go
Give yourself some time to falter
But don't forgo know that you're loved no matter what
And everything will come around in time

i never knew i had so much love to give till i kept having nieces after nieces after nephews and i realized i love them all as much. if i shall remain a spinster all my life, these kids will be the benefactors. haha. i don't care what you guys think, to me they are beautiful.

an embarrassing but...

very necessary rant.

i am highly peeved that from my regular blog- hopping tonight, i discovered several blogs with beatles song lyrics and some even had youtube videos of beatles songs BUT, yeap, you guessed it, its from across the universe.

now i hate to be a music nazi but i cannot help it now: this is the beatles we're talking about and i am pissed that these eejits are just gonna love them now cuz of the movie and not cuz of the gloriousness that is THE BEATLES themselves. i am damn annoyed and its unreasonable and immatured and irrational and blablabla but it doesn't matter cuz point is, I AM. 3 weeks from now you'll forget the movie and no one will listen to the songs from the movie anymore (not the same as the songs by the beatles ah hello) and that is stupid and annoying because the beatles were amazing even before this stupid movie came about. please do not confuse your love for the movie as love for the beatles cuz they are not one and the same. the beatles cannot be another one of your stupid fads because the beatles are a legend and if you love them you gotta take em' all and not in bits and pieces or in the guise of entertaining movies. you gotta love them despite a hard day's night and magical mystery tour (the movies), despite yoko ono, despite india.

so please stop being stupid. because of this i no longer plan to catch the movie in DVD or whichever form i can get it in. i refuse to even watch the videos knowing that it'll be stupid faces and bodies moving to the beautiful music that was the beatles'. THANKS A LOT EVERYBODY.

okay i am a lot calmer now. weekend doth beckon. gotta load my cam with batteries cuz saturday= hang- out with banana for the last time in singapore for a long time and sunday = bye- bye banana. exciting times.

we'll meet again though. melbourne in june; promise!

oh oh oh i made a sandwich (again!) just now. foccacia bread, toasted. slopped thousand island sauce, slices of mandarin orange (the smaller the better), lettuce, chicken bacon, turkey bacon and kebab chicken. YUMMEH. pics later cuz i am lazy.

someone dear to me is getting married and the financials involved is frightening. at the rate i'm going i'll never get married cuz there's no way i'd blow that much money on a wedding when i can use it to say, go new york. hahahahaha. but maybe my priorities will change. we shall see. for now though, i am very happy for her, and she, for me. its nice to finally have a bound- to- marry friend being happy for me inspite of our very differing future plans. different people different needs mah!

but i am excited nonetheless! can't wait to finally go for a real friend's wedding. no, shotguns don't count.

TGIF, much!

Friday, February 01, 2008

hope?

i shall blog this lest i forget all that transpired today.

the morning was wonderful, and it took a lot of energy to stop myself from skipping. i didn't bother stopping myself from smiling like an eejit though. thank god farhana got there soon enough. and then it was lunch with her and the nehneh. a trip to IT co- op where she got her laptop cover, and then arts co- op where she got writing pad. hahaha weirdness. now she will be in RMIT with NUS writing pads.

went to tuition with norm. two tuitions then west coast hawker for food!!! got chicken chop with fried bun AND black pepper crab. MMMM.

happy pics with farhana so visuals will be up when i get them. now i can breathe easy till i know again what's next for me. yeap. ghost whisperer is a very weird show yes. law & order furster start please. cannot stand this show. super rubbish. cars are crashing from the sky! but only she can see it and she looks like a mad woman running all over the place shrieking. why! why does this show exist!

and do they have felicity on dvd yet? dammit can't seem to find it la. borders got 40% off voucher with additional 10% for members. HOO WHEE BOOKSHOPPING!

oh but monday nehneh got me a book liao. so nice right!

feminist fairy tales by barbara g. walker. it had a very angela carter vibe about it and since i enjoyed a. carter in jc so, i think this would be much- loved as well. but for now, i must must must finish my love in a time of cholera. *stares sadly at movie list that remains unwatched*

but i still haven't gotten my hypocrite in a pouffy white dress. borders had it but it was fugly so i await with bated breath. hopefully new stock has arrived.

okay melinda gordon is killing me.

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