I am solitary by choice, not circumstances.
I have friends, I'm not lonely.
I have love, I do have a heart.
I can be cold, I am made to be stronger than most.
I can be quiet, I was born to be the only child.
I can be funny and loud, I was taught to always have fun.
I can be anything I want to be. Only because I can.
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Bituwin -
Blogskin
Edited by Yours Truly.
Blog Title is E.B. White's famous words, rephrased.
Friday, November 30, 2007
The end it was the end;
the sirens were pulling him down,
and his heart was cold so very cold you believe it might never have beat.
when the sun sets around me,
my daydreams confound me,
And the long nights surrounds me,
you turn me around.
walked out of nus with a deep sense of satisfaction. last night of mugging, last night sitting in the canteen squinting over notes. walked past fong seng for the thousandth time. had my 55th tom yam soup kway teow in canteen for all i care. 2nd chicken twisties this semester.
last two papers tomorrow. unfortunately, the last one is also my worst module. i just hope to god i can come up with something and get away with it. i don't care if i get straight C's this sem, i just wanna pass and graduate.
took pictures. was wearing my "too cool for school" tee. it has never been more apt.
this is it right here. the last chapter. and the more i ask myself why i stuck it out this far, the more i know its for you dad. its you. all those drives past NUS as a kid and you telling me, you wished you had a child who went to university, a child who graduates. i got the hint dad. :)
and i got your wish.
i leave here pleased and contented despite everything. good night everyone.
and his heart was cold so very cold you believe it might never have beat.
when the sun sets around me,
my daydreams confound me,
And the long nights surrounds me,
you turn me around.
walked out of nus with a deep sense of satisfaction. last night of mugging, last night sitting in the canteen squinting over notes. walked past fong seng for the thousandth time. had my 55th tom yam soup kway teow in canteen for all i care. 2nd chicken twisties this semester.
last two papers tomorrow. unfortunately, the last one is also my worst module. i just hope to god i can come up with something and get away with it. i don't care if i get straight C's this sem, i just wanna pass and graduate.
took pictures. was wearing my "too cool for school" tee. it has never been more apt.
this is it right here. the last chapter. and the more i ask myself why i stuck it out this far, the more i know its for you dad. its you. all those drives past NUS as a kid and you telling me, you wished you had a child who went to university, a child who graduates. i got the hint dad. :)
and i got your wish.
i leave here pleased and contented despite everything. good night everyone.
Thursday, November 29, 2007
*looks pointedly at watch*
eh eh! 11.07 a.m? how did fiza get home at 11.07 a.m. if her paper is at 9 a.m???
hahahaha. left early and took cab home cuz my eyeballs were killingzzzzz me. lack of sleep plus something the hell wrong with my contact lenses. i managed to refrain myself from rubbing my eyes throughout the paper cuz its a very time- consuming event, but once i was done i was rubbing away.
6 cars were wheel- clamped at MPSH carpark today. i hope none of my friends are one of them. so poor thing la. a small teensy weensy paper notice said lots 109- 116 (or something) are for exam invigilators only. you think these students rushing for exams got time to notice meh? if you write a bigger notice say, behind each slot or i dunno, put cones or something, it would have been fair to clamp them wheels. but now it just seems unfeckinfair.
i came home and changed into my night gown and put on my glasses. opened mum's door and said "oi." and she went "oi." and i said, "i open house door also you never hear!" "huh?" "i came home already... you didn't hear me at all!" "when you go out!?"
i say she champion.
so now i am home and shall try to catch up on some sleep before heading back out to school again. and whoever the idiot who told me he had a bad feeling that liverpool will draw this morning; SUCK ON THIS!
"Liverpool kept their Champions League qualification hopes alive with a 4-1 win over Porto that flattered last season's finalists. Two goals from Fernando Torres were followed by a Steven Gerrard penalty and a Peter Crouch tap-in."
and ignore the flatter last season's finalist bs. 4- 1 is not just flattering, 4- 1 is a downright drubbing. and you man u cocksuckers at soccernet (hah you think we can't tell you prejudiced imbeciles?!) can suck on THAT too!
i am a woman on a mission.
good night!
hahahaha. left early and took cab home cuz my eyeballs were killingzzzzz me. lack of sleep plus something the hell wrong with my contact lenses. i managed to refrain myself from rubbing my eyes throughout the paper cuz its a very time- consuming event, but once i was done i was rubbing away.
6 cars were wheel- clamped at MPSH carpark today. i hope none of my friends are one of them. so poor thing la. a small teensy weensy paper notice said lots 109- 116 (or something) are for exam invigilators only. you think these students rushing for exams got time to notice meh? if you write a bigger notice say, behind each slot or i dunno, put cones or something, it would have been fair to clamp them wheels. but now it just seems unfeckinfair.
i came home and changed into my night gown and put on my glasses. opened mum's door and said "oi." and she went "oi." and i said, "i open house door also you never hear!" "huh?" "i came home already... you didn't hear me at all!" "when you go out!?"
i say she champion.
so now i am home and shall try to catch up on some sleep before heading back out to school again. and whoever the idiot who told me he had a bad feeling that liverpool will draw this morning; SUCK ON THIS!
"Liverpool kept their Champions League qualification hopes alive with a 4-1 win over Porto that flattered last season's finalists. Two goals from Fernando Torres were followed by a Steven Gerrard penalty and a Peter Crouch tap-in."
and ignore the flatter last season's finalist bs. 4- 1 is not just flattering, 4- 1 is a downright drubbing. and you man u cocksuckers at soccernet (hah you think we can't tell you prejudiced imbeciles?!) can suck on THAT too!
i am a woman on a mission.
good night!
home.
the boyfriend's parents and sister might be taking a trip down to pittsburgh for a family thingy, and then at his sister's insistence, will probably end up in new york since she really wanna go and its quite near pittsburgh. he can't join them cuz its in january (winter!), but i told him if it was me, i'd miss me own wedding to go new york again.
"you have no idea, i SO, god!, so so want to be in new york SO BAD you have no idea. i'd sell my SOUL to be in new york."
"haha yeah i kinda figured that out when you set up your sales blog."
nyeh.
and sha is going too! i want to go with you laaaaa. i mean if we pay for the luggage excess weight, what harm is there in me being in your luggage, right?
right. paper tomorrow. then 2 more saturday. and i'm good.
"you have no idea, i SO, god!, so so want to be in new york SO BAD you have no idea. i'd sell my SOUL to be in new york."
"haha yeah i kinda figured that out when you set up your sales blog."
nyeh.
and sha is going too! i want to go with you laaaaa. i mean if we pay for the luggage excess weight, what harm is there in me being in your luggage, right?
right. paper tomorrow. then 2 more saturday. and i'm good.
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
you are the early and the end lover.
that, is a direct translation of a jiwangnakmampusberakkluarbandung love song by the 80s guru jamal abdillah. dil ke dul? dunno la.
anyway! i am feeling pictorial today. actually, i've been feeling particularly pictorial lately since i am leaving soon and hence a desperate need and urgency has arised to capture (nearly) every moment of my last days in andyouass.
so yesterday i slept late (7 am!) and hence couldn't wake up till... 1? haha. and so it was vivo for... lunch. which turned out to be ice- cream (MAMPUS) and window shopping. hahaha! i keep telling myself its only a level 1 module (this thursday) which is soci- centric so i must be quite bodoh to not know the stuff. but exams are exams and when you don't study karma will bite you in the ass and give you questions you don't understand. then how to answer?!
so post- vivo was school for intensive studying. finished 8 out of 10 lectures. so yay me. then clementi central for wanton noodles (again!) then home sweet home. and met adam from gan eng seng at the interchange. we live 2 blocks away from each other. as dionne from antm would say, what the heeeeeeeeeewl?!
anyway fiza, where are these photos you keep babbling about? ah patience, patience.
my boyfriend is waiting for a call to know if he is employed as an underwear- changer. HAHAHA.
suresh: tomorrow then i'll know...
fiza: if you can be an underwear changer?
suresh: huh????? noo....
fiza: haha okay then?
suresh: no cuz they say, eh stop laughing!
fiza: hahahahaha! okay la what la.
suresh: no la tomorrow then i'll know... they say dunno if got vacancy for underwear changer, but singlet changer maybe can.
WHAT THE FUGG RIGHTTTT WHAT THE FUGGGGG.
okay la. pictures. i don't even amuse myself anymore. hah! eei okay obviously pms- ing right.
these are from the weekend when cousins came over from port dickson. lovelove! west coast hawker in the day, simpang bedok at night. MEXICANA STEAK I LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER. eh shit now i'm torn. at first when i put the title as early and the end lover i meant b&j's ice cream, but now i think mexicana steak also is my kekasih. so i think ah, b&j's is my kekasih awal dan akhir and mexicana steak would be my scandal.
okayyy okayyy pictures!
my very crazy cousin.
mum and crazy cousin's wife. and me! can you tell i sucked in my stomach? HAHAHA all that steak dammit.
makan makan! mexicana steak whooooooo! kau kekasih awal dan akhirrr kau kekasih zahir dan batinnnn. eh! b&j's can be awal and akhir and steak can be zahir and batin! yay!
from secret party. HAHAHA. nehneh is pelikat! kain pelikat ya ya ya ya.
when i was ironing his pants;
suresh: eh ok stop stop can smell the heat the heat! wait my pants melt!
like, what kind of fear is that? to have you pants melt? there's no end to phobias these days.
my shawl, my niece. those eyes. those cheeks! CHOMP!
from pageone. I WANT!
KAU KEKASIHHH AWAL DAN AKHIRRRR. kekasih sejatiiiii. kekasih yang best!
also want. :D
i so happy today i had time to wear powder/ make- up things which is... powder and blush. as in wear properly. and the coverage was not bad! i think i almost covered the pimples on my forehead totally. ALMOST onlyyy. cuz i don't want to walk around with a suffocating forehead.
study oi study!
anyway. i like days like today better than our fancy days. i'm just sayinnnnnn. cuz while its nice to go for a nice dinner and dress up and watch movies and do fancy grown- up things (like what i don't know), days like today are more meaningful. when there can be silence and uncontrollable laughter and moments to reflect, say, over wanton noodles, how amazing it is that i feel the way i feel still. and to have your smiles to look forward to when i wake up and your hand to hold on those walks from nowhere to nowhere, is really more than i thought i could ever have.
anyway! i am feeling pictorial today. actually, i've been feeling particularly pictorial lately since i am leaving soon and hence a desperate need and urgency has arised to capture (nearly) every moment of my last days in andyouass.
so yesterday i slept late (7 am!) and hence couldn't wake up till... 1? haha. and so it was vivo for... lunch. which turned out to be ice- cream (MAMPUS) and window shopping. hahaha! i keep telling myself its only a level 1 module (this thursday) which is soci- centric so i must be quite bodoh to not know the stuff. but exams are exams and when you don't study karma will bite you in the ass and give you questions you don't understand. then how to answer?!
so post- vivo was school for intensive studying. finished 8 out of 10 lectures. so yay me. then clementi central for wanton noodles (again!) then home sweet home. and met adam from gan eng seng at the interchange. we live 2 blocks away from each other. as dionne from antm would say, what the heeeeeeeeeewl?!
anyway fiza, where are these photos you keep babbling about? ah patience, patience.
my boyfriend is waiting for a call to know if he is employed as an underwear- changer. HAHAHA.
suresh: tomorrow then i'll know...
fiza: if you can be an underwear changer?
suresh: huh????? noo....
fiza: haha okay then?
suresh: no cuz they say, eh stop laughing!
fiza: hahahahaha! okay la what la.
suresh: no la tomorrow then i'll know... they say dunno if got vacancy for underwear changer, but singlet changer maybe can.
WHAT THE FUGG RIGHTTTT WHAT THE FUGGGGG.
okay la. pictures. i don't even amuse myself anymore. hah! eei okay obviously pms- ing right.
these are from the weekend when cousins came over from port dickson. lovelove! west coast hawker in the day, simpang bedok at night. MEXICANA STEAK I LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER. eh shit now i'm torn. at first when i put the title as early and the end lover i meant b&j's ice cream, but now i think mexicana steak also is my kekasih. so i think ah, b&j's is my kekasih awal dan akhir and mexicana steak would be my scandal.
okayyy okayyy pictures!
my very crazy cousin.
mum and crazy cousin's wife. and me! can you tell i sucked in my stomach? HAHAHA all that steak dammit.
makan makan! mexicana steak whooooooo! kau kekasih awal dan akhirrr kau kekasih zahir dan batinnnn. eh! b&j's can be awal and akhir and steak can be zahir and batin! yay!
from secret party. HAHAHA. nehneh is pelikat! kain pelikat ya ya ya ya.
when i was ironing his pants;
suresh: eh ok stop stop can smell the heat the heat! wait my pants melt!
like, what kind of fear is that? to have you pants melt? there's no end to phobias these days.
my shawl, my niece. those eyes. those cheeks! CHOMP!
from pageone. I WANT!
KAU KEKASIHHH AWAL DAN AKHIRRRR. kekasih sejatiiiii. kekasih yang best!
also want. :D
i so happy today i had time to wear powder/ make- up things which is... powder and blush. as in wear properly. and the coverage was not bad! i think i almost covered the pimples on my forehead totally. ALMOST onlyyy. cuz i don't want to walk around with a suffocating forehead.
study oi study!
anyway. i like days like today better than our fancy days. i'm just sayinnnnnn. cuz while its nice to go for a nice dinner and dress up and watch movies and do fancy grown- up things (like what i don't know), days like today are more meaningful. when there can be silence and uncontrollable laughter and moments to reflect, say, over wanton noodles, how amazing it is that i feel the way i feel still. and to have your smiles to look forward to when i wake up and your hand to hold on those walks from nowhere to nowhere, is really more than i thought i could ever have.
you are the early and the end, lover.
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
loves!
i've been sifting through fredflare and urbanoutfitters and i just lovelovelove the books they have. i mean its not all unavailable here but well, most of them aren't. but i remember the stuff they had at UO and it was just too cute for WORDS. i love their books, which looks good and has useful content too! like "making vintage bags". or "the takeout cookbook" or or or how to "win a fight with a conservative". sigh.
but i think this one from UO should be available in local stores. borders maybe. or page one.
LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE.
dunno bout' these, but there's always local sprees for fredflare. so its purchase- able. HINTHINT!
the latter is a mini- book which means it fits into my purse (purse?! hahaha) and i can take it out anytime i feel i need to know "what would nancy drew do?" in my situation of need. e.g. stuck in crowded train, people are smelly, teenager next to me blasting music from handphone. now, what would nancy drew do?
i would call my boyfriend and talk to him very loudly about how i am not in a train but am actually in a club cuz CAN'T YOU HEAR THE LOUD MUSIC?! YEAH! MRT IS NOW A CLUB! FREE MUSIC!
so yeap.
i need to start working asap so that i can do more online shopping. haha! i'm sure i've got it the wrong way there somewhere but who cares!
oh man ellen cracks me up. i love you ellen! marry me!
is it a sign of... something, that i want to marry jay mccaroll (gay) and ellen (ditto)? hmm.
but i think this one from UO should be available in local stores. borders maybe. or page one.
LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE.
dunno bout' these, but there's always local sprees for fredflare. so its purchase- able. HINTHINT!
the latter is a mini- book which means it fits into my purse (purse?! hahaha) and i can take it out anytime i feel i need to know "what would nancy drew do?" in my situation of need. e.g. stuck in crowded train, people are smelly, teenager next to me blasting music from handphone. now, what would nancy drew do?
i would call my boyfriend and talk to him very loudly about how i am not in a train but am actually in a club cuz CAN'T YOU HEAR THE LOUD MUSIC?! YEAH! MRT IS NOW A CLUB! FREE MUSIC!
so yeap.
i need to start working asap so that i can do more online shopping. haha! i'm sure i've got it the wrong way there somewhere but who cares!
oh man ellen cracks me up. i love you ellen! marry me!
is it a sign of... something, that i want to marry jay mccaroll (gay) and ellen (ditto)? hmm.
Monday, November 26, 2007
boxed.
i am exhauuuuuuusted! its unbelievable. i feel like i've been through a punching fest. my body feels achy achy. which is weird, cuz its just sitting in chairs and writing like crazy.
but its okay. 2 down, 3 to go. once it starts it rolls on and on endlessly and before you know it, finito.
it was a very weird feeling sitting there doing all these rudimentary things of writing papers and knowing that in a lot of ways, the results don't matter cuz i just need to pass and i'm out of here. liberating, to some extent, but highly disembodying. and i think i possibly had a weird smile plastered on my face throughout the exams. which i'm sure, was highly disturbing to others.
i know this is lembab and slow and whatever but since i hardly watch heroes and this is the first time i am sitting through an episode, i must say hiro nakamura is cute! haha. i can see the appeal, at least. and he was on ellen the other day! i am an ellen addict. tsk.
got caught in the rain on the way to kent ridge hall. so me and rohani and her friend tried waitin for the rain to slow down but it never did. i mean imagine this, i came down from the bus and the wind was so STRONG it blew my hair and very nearly, me, away. cuz i wasn't expecting it to be that strong! but it was. and my little coursepack plastic cover wasn't much of a respite from the torrential rain.
so we bummed around till miraculously a cab went by and we grabbed it. however it could not enter the carpark so we had to stop outside the barriers and brave the rain STILL. and because both barriers were down, there was only a narrow gap between it for us to go through. and rohani had left the cab first. and i came out from the other door, barging through the rain. and even though i saw her in front of me (through my coursepack plastic cover) i just ran straight ahead, crashing into her screaming, "WHYAREYOUSTILLWALKING!?" and laughing my ass off.
apparently her glasses were foggy and hence rendered her semi- blind. sorry! hahaha. and i owe you/ your friend money from cab. the cab with that very friendly apek. haha.
a bit of a break, catch my breath before i go in again. this time round i'll make it good, go out with a semi- bang of sorts and then hooray!
okay too many distractions. need to start making plans for 1st december. whee hooo!
but its okay. 2 down, 3 to go. once it starts it rolls on and on endlessly and before you know it, finito.
it was a very weird feeling sitting there doing all these rudimentary things of writing papers and knowing that in a lot of ways, the results don't matter cuz i just need to pass and i'm out of here. liberating, to some extent, but highly disembodying. and i think i possibly had a weird smile plastered on my face throughout the exams. which i'm sure, was highly disturbing to others.
i know this is lembab and slow and whatever but since i hardly watch heroes and this is the first time i am sitting through an episode, i must say hiro nakamura is cute! haha. i can see the appeal, at least. and he was on ellen the other day! i am an ellen addict. tsk.
got caught in the rain on the way to kent ridge hall. so me and rohani and her friend tried waitin for the rain to slow down but it never did. i mean imagine this, i came down from the bus and the wind was so STRONG it blew my hair and very nearly, me, away. cuz i wasn't expecting it to be that strong! but it was. and my little coursepack plastic cover wasn't much of a respite from the torrential rain.
so we bummed around till miraculously a cab went by and we grabbed it. however it could not enter the carpark so we had to stop outside the barriers and brave the rain STILL. and because both barriers were down, there was only a narrow gap between it for us to go through. and rohani had left the cab first. and i came out from the other door, barging through the rain. and even though i saw her in front of me (through my coursepack plastic cover) i just ran straight ahead, crashing into her screaming, "WHYAREYOUSTILLWALKING!?" and laughing my ass off.
apparently her glasses were foggy and hence rendered her semi- blind. sorry! hahaha. and i owe you/ your friend money from cab. the cab with that very friendly apek. haha.
a bit of a break, catch my breath before i go in again. this time round i'll make it good, go out with a semi- bang of sorts and then hooray!
okay too many distractions. need to start making plans for 1st december. whee hooo!
Sunday, November 25, 2007
something wicked this way come.
i'm quoting tupac shakur. -_^ woot funkeh smiley.
i am in the school canteen attempting to study and failing MISERABLY. my concentration is absolutely sho(r)t and i just can't get down to work. i think i am too keen on graduating (you think?) and feeling quite blase about this whole process which seems to be just delaying the day i taste true freedom.
i should study. cuz its open book exam and i told myself if i don't do well for this module i am a certified idiot. and theatre is a level 1 module and its only 25% so i should ace that as well. but to do all this acing around i need to study. which i'm not.
grr. i hate mugging.
EDIT: my boyfriend knows me too well.
fizusthemissus: now i'm all mugged out says:
but u no paper tmr!!!!!!!!
fizusthemissus: now i'm all mugged out says:
panicpanic
suresh says:
hahah
suresh says:
relax love
suresh says:
pick the topics you wanna focus in on
suresh says:
and target those
fizusthemissus: now i'm all mugged out says:
i know
fizusthemissus: now i'm all mugged out says:
i'm not panicking
fizusthemissus: now i'm all mugged out says:
which is ALSO A PROBLEM!!!
suresh says:
hahahahahha
fizusthemissus: now i'm all mugged out says:
i feel french
fizusthemissus: now i'm all mugged out says:
so
suresh says:
flaflafla?
fizusthemissus: now i'm all mugged out says:
flafffahfahfahfah
fizusthemissus: now i'm all mugged out says:
yea!
suresh says:
HAHAHAHHA
fizusthemissus: now i'm all mugged out says:
hahahahaha
suresh says:
so now we know EXACTLY what feeling french is
i am in the school canteen attempting to study and failing MISERABLY. my concentration is absolutely sho(r)t and i just can't get down to work. i think i am too keen on graduating (you think?) and feeling quite blase about this whole process which seems to be just delaying the day i taste true freedom.
i should study. cuz its open book exam and i told myself if i don't do well for this module i am a certified idiot. and theatre is a level 1 module and its only 25% so i should ace that as well. but to do all this acing around i need to study. which i'm not.
grr. i hate mugging.
EDIT: my boyfriend knows me too well.
fizusthemissus: now i'm all mugged out says:
but u no paper tmr!!!!!!!!
fizusthemissus: now i'm all mugged out says:
panicpanic
suresh says:
hahah
suresh says:
relax love
suresh says:
pick the topics you wanna focus in on
suresh says:
and target those
fizusthemissus: now i'm all mugged out says:
i know
fizusthemissus: now i'm all mugged out says:
i'm not panicking
fizusthemissus: now i'm all mugged out says:
which is ALSO A PROBLEM!!!
suresh says:
hahahahahha
fizusthemissus: now i'm all mugged out says:
i feel french
fizusthemissus: now i'm all mugged out says:
so
suresh says:
flaflafla?
fizusthemissus: now i'm all mugged out says:
flafffahfahfahfah
fizusthemissus: now i'm all mugged out says:
yea!
suresh says:
HAHAHAHHA
fizusthemissus: now i'm all mugged out says:
hahahahaha
suresh says:
so now we know EXACTLY what feeling french is
Friday, November 23, 2007
welkommen!
i'm on a welkommen frenzy. ptui ptui! i don't care if your parents are smart! hah! hahahahhaa.
sorry, random outburst. anyway theatre exam was okay. was only asked one question but bai the director got the most. but i think it was still not bad. relatively. cuz it seems the other directors got more severe questioning.
beautiful night. mugged with nehneh and apiz. interrupted by runs to snack machine in between america's next top model. haha.
oh and wonderful news! well wonderful news; mcclaren is fired. wonderfuller news; he's fired cuz england LOST to croatia and is thus OUT of EURO 2008 HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA
and whatshisname from the FA took the words right out of my mouth; it is wrong for the biggest country in europe to not be in the euro finals. or something like that.
YAAAAAAAAAAA LAAAAA. the biggest country in europe whaaaaat! country so big also not enough talent to win world cup again! not enough talent to make it to euro finals! not enough talent to manage your not- enough- talent team! hahahaha! padan muka england jom ketawa ramai- ramai HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
sorry forgot one more; not enough talent to win penalty shotouts! (think previous world cup) haha!
and as the nehneh mentioned, this means next year euro coverage in our 'sports newspaper' The New Paper cannot do 10 pages of england's performance and 2 pages of other countries. as it is their being knocked out and loss took up half today's sports pages. and tomorrow i'm sure it will be stevie's sacking. then the "who shall take his place?" so hopefully this englandcentric reporting will cease by euro 08 in time to give me my PORTUGAL SPAIN AND TURKISH COVERAGE PLEASE THANK YOU VERY MUCH
which reminds me; must get cable tv asap!
feels great to talk about football again.
tomorrow i need to cover lots and lots of work so must sleep early/ earlier than usual. wake up early start early end late cover more whoo!
have a sore throat from hell and a runny nose. but the vanilla ice- cream doth beckons...
sorry, random outburst. anyway theatre exam was okay. was only asked one question but bai the director got the most. but i think it was still not bad. relatively. cuz it seems the other directors got more severe questioning.
beautiful night. mugged with nehneh and apiz. interrupted by runs to snack machine in between america's next top model. haha.
oh and wonderful news! well wonderful news; mcclaren is fired. wonderfuller news; he's fired cuz england LOST to croatia and is thus OUT of EURO 2008 HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA
and whatshisname from the FA took the words right out of my mouth; it is wrong for the biggest country in europe to not be in the euro finals. or something like that.
YAAAAAAAAAAA LAAAAA. the biggest country in europe whaaaaat! country so big also not enough talent to win world cup again! not enough talent to make it to euro finals! not enough talent to manage your not- enough- talent team! hahahaha! padan muka england jom ketawa ramai- ramai HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
sorry forgot one more; not enough talent to win penalty shotouts! (think previous world cup) haha!
and as the nehneh mentioned, this means next year euro coverage in our 'sports newspaper' The New Paper cannot do 10 pages of england's performance and 2 pages of other countries. as it is their being knocked out and loss took up half today's sports pages. and tomorrow i'm sure it will be stevie's sacking. then the "who shall take his place?" so hopefully this englandcentric reporting will cease by euro 08 in time to give me my PORTUGAL SPAIN AND TURKISH COVERAGE PLEASE THANK YOU VERY MUCH
which reminds me; must get cable tv asap!
feels great to talk about football again.
tomorrow i need to cover lots and lots of work so must sleep early/ earlier than usual. wake up early start early end late cover more whoo!
have a sore throat from hell and a runny nose. but the vanilla ice- cream doth beckons...
Thursday, November 22, 2007
every new beginning, is some beginning's end.
i know i probably shouldn't be taking life advice from an aging blonde man but hey, i am a sucker for feel good moments. its full of cliches but i treasure my walks home alone with my 'big' apple and shuffle always produce amazingly apt songs. such as this!
I know sometimes it's hard for you to see
You come between just who you are and who you wanna be
If you feel alone, and lost and need a friend
Remember every new beginning, is some beginning's end
Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life, you made it this far
Welcome, you gotta believe
That right here right now, you're exactly where you're supposed to be
Welcome, to wherever you are
When everybody's in, and you're left out
And you feel your drowning, in a shadow of a doubt
Everyones a miracle in their own way
Just listen to yourself, not what other people say
caya la jon bon jovi. wa caya sama lu. rockneverdie.
we are the sum of our experiences.- shirley schmidt, boston legal. how apt!
its been a beautiful week yet far and i know it can only get better. maybe this happiness would stay for a while. its been too long.
walking to the bus stop, i saw an ad for the new movie, golden compass. and i felt sad that i could not turn to you and say, "golden kotek!" and laugh our way to fong seng again. see you tomorrow nehneh.
so many lasts to come. last mugging session with apiz, last mugging session on as3 bench, last fong seng dinner, last trip to library :((, last climb up the stairs to history department that i've grown more familiar with than i am with soci department, last lerk thai lunch/ dinner. last last last.
then the firsts will come. lots and lots of firsts. :)
I know sometimes it's hard for you to see
You come between just who you are and who you wanna be
If you feel alone, and lost and need a friend
Remember every new beginning, is some beginning's end
Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life, you made it this far
Welcome, you gotta believe
That right here right now, you're exactly where you're supposed to be
Welcome, to wherever you are
When everybody's in, and you're left out
And you feel your drowning, in a shadow of a doubt
Everyones a miracle in their own way
Just listen to yourself, not what other people say
caya la jon bon jovi. wa caya sama lu. rockneverdie.
we are the sum of our experiences.- shirley schmidt, boston legal. how apt!
its been a beautiful week yet far and i know it can only get better. maybe this happiness would stay for a while. its been too long.
walking to the bus stop, i saw an ad for the new movie, golden compass. and i felt sad that i could not turn to you and say, "golden kotek!" and laugh our way to fong seng again. see you tomorrow nehneh.
so many lasts to come. last mugging session with apiz, last mugging session on as3 bench, last fong seng dinner, last trip to library :((, last climb up the stairs to history department that i've grown more familiar with than i am with soci department, last lerk thai lunch/ dinner. last last last.
then the firsts will come. lots and lots of firsts. :)
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
smarty pansies.
four readings! i just might finish my coursepack for this module. a first! haha. and the last. but yeah well.
according to wikitravel; " this Garden City (Singapore) makes a great stopover or springboard into the region." kesian kan! stopover only. sigh. what to do my poor kantri.
lovely rainy day. walking to the bus stop in the rain with my hoodie up. happy days.
days in school are numbered and predictably, i am beginning to feel sentimental about the whole thing. spent the night in school studying after nehneh left and for the first time, felt happy doing readings. graduating does wonders to my mood.
i'm happy. if nothing else, there's that. it doesn't matter anymore what comes out of this, i had what i had and the experience has been my own. and that's more than i could ever ask for. all i can think of now is what's next. working, saving, traveling (yay!), and then, at long last, postgrad. and then who knows, another spiel of this, or maybe not.
its been a long one but no regrets, really. its gonna be over soon, so i'll milk it for all its worth. i hope i get to meet my loveliest friends in school for the last time. and then,
i'm done.
its always amazing what life throws at me. but before i get all wishy washy about things, there's still exams to deal with! and then, the endless partying and slacking and... nothingness.
oh finally finally finally. nothingness. i miss you nothingness. oh so much.
according to wikitravel; " this Garden City (Singapore) makes a great stopover or springboard into the region." kesian kan! stopover only. sigh. what to do my poor kantri.
lovely rainy day. walking to the bus stop in the rain with my hoodie up. happy days.
days in school are numbered and predictably, i am beginning to feel sentimental about the whole thing. spent the night in school studying after nehneh left and for the first time, felt happy doing readings. graduating does wonders to my mood.
i'm happy. if nothing else, there's that. it doesn't matter anymore what comes out of this, i had what i had and the experience has been my own. and that's more than i could ever ask for. all i can think of now is what's next. working, saving, traveling (yay!), and then, at long last, postgrad. and then who knows, another spiel of this, or maybe not.
its been a long one but no regrets, really. its gonna be over soon, so i'll milk it for all its worth. i hope i get to meet my loveliest friends in school for the last time. and then,
i'm done.
its always amazing what life throws at me. but before i get all wishy washy about things, there's still exams to deal with! and then, the endless partying and slacking and... nothingness.
oh finally finally finally. nothingness. i miss you nothingness. oh so much.
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
moon torch.
i don't know if you know i know (haha!) but seriously, whatever you're doing, stop it. cuz you're doing no one any favours, much less yourself. why do we keep hurting ourselves? why do we always find it so hard to stop? don't you ever feel like you deserve better than to feel like shite all the time? you may be trying something new but maybe now is not the time. but whatever, you know? some people just don't want sense.
in other news;
* sunday was prettyprettypretty
* maya your cupcakes kicked ass, orang tapow tau! :))
* did readings today, i feel smart hahahaha
* i am totally unfocussed and totally unworried about it
* i should be.
shall read to sleep. what a humid night. horrible monsoon (is it?) weather. tomorrow it will rain like the heebeejeebees. and then this. again.
well oh well.
in other news;
* sunday was prettyprettypretty
* maya your cupcakes kicked ass, orang tapow tau! :))
* did readings today, i feel smart hahahaha
* i am totally unfocussed and totally unworried about it
* i should be.
shall read to sleep. what a humid night. horrible monsoon (is it?) weather. tomorrow it will rain like the heebeejeebees. and then this. again.
well oh well.
Saturday, November 17, 2007
safe.
cousins are here from malaysia. yay!
was reading blogs and tags and comments and thinking about this and that and;
i figured i only feel safe with two or three people. sometimes i get close to someone and become really chummy but at the end of the day, i don't feel safe. i don't trust that person enough to know he/ she isn't snarking about me behind my back or just generally being... themselves. its not something about them, because i think i should be able to accept this by now but i can't. so i go through this cycle of getting close then distancing again.
so no matter how many friends i have there's only a few people i trust with my life. few people that i know i can be an idiot to and be forgiven. few people that i can tell everything to and not feel that tomorrow all that would be splashed across the world. few people, very few people, that i will always and always feel safe around no matter where i am in this world.
and i wish i could trust you(s) more but i can't. sometimes i tell you things then i worry if its going to bite me back in the ass. i read what you write, i see who you talk to and i get scared. how can you feel like you know someone so well and then have that person do something totally unexpected? its not about being surprised or shocked but just. scared. how can you say you hate someone so much but on the other hand still talk to them and act as though all is dandy? then how about me? do you actually truly hate me but just talk to me like all is dandy too?
i always knew people were scary but friends are scarier. i know i know i know i should deal with this but i can't. i should stop having trust issues and just face it, that life sucks and sometimes people are assholes. even if they're your friends.
but i can't. i really can't. so i just retreat every now and then, to make sure i don't get too close and forget that i actually cannot trust you. but sometimes you do it all by yourself, by doing something totally uncharacteristic to remind me that i shouldn't trust you, that you're not who i think you are.
suresh, farhana and mum. only 3 people. that i know for sure won't hurt me intentionally. only three. what a small safe world.
was reading blogs and tags and comments and thinking about this and that and;
i figured i only feel safe with two or three people. sometimes i get close to someone and become really chummy but at the end of the day, i don't feel safe. i don't trust that person enough to know he/ she isn't snarking about me behind my back or just generally being... themselves. its not something about them, because i think i should be able to accept this by now but i can't. so i go through this cycle of getting close then distancing again.
so no matter how many friends i have there's only a few people i trust with my life. few people that i know i can be an idiot to and be forgiven. few people that i can tell everything to and not feel that tomorrow all that would be splashed across the world. few people, very few people, that i will always and always feel safe around no matter where i am in this world.
and i wish i could trust you(s) more but i can't. sometimes i tell you things then i worry if its going to bite me back in the ass. i read what you write, i see who you talk to and i get scared. how can you feel like you know someone so well and then have that person do something totally unexpected? its not about being surprised or shocked but just. scared. how can you say you hate someone so much but on the other hand still talk to them and act as though all is dandy? then how about me? do you actually truly hate me but just talk to me like all is dandy too?
i always knew people were scary but friends are scarier. i know i know i know i should deal with this but i can't. i should stop having trust issues and just face it, that life sucks and sometimes people are assholes. even if they're your friends.
but i can't. i really can't. so i just retreat every now and then, to make sure i don't get too close and forget that i actually cannot trust you. but sometimes you do it all by yourself, by doing something totally uncharacteristic to remind me that i shouldn't trust you, that you're not who i think you are.
suresh, farhana and mum. only 3 people. that i know for sure won't hurt me intentionally. only three. what a small safe world.
Friday, November 16, 2007
reality teevee.
:( bye- bye frosti! i was rooting for you. but too bad, snuffed by peih- gee. well if its any consolation i think she'll be gone next week. and amanda lay off erik! he's jaime's! haha. too bad todd doesn't swing your way eh? tsktsk. and how come denise made it this far? amazing. i like james! grave- digguh. sexxay.
rehearsals in school then finished paper and submitted. lunch/ dinner at lerk thai then...
SENTOSA!
haha. sorry nehneh. i wasn't in the mood for lions for lamb (too expensive- friday, and too heavy- braindrain post- essay) and any other movie wouldn't seem worth it cuz its friday. so after some brainstorming, i decided i wanted to go sentosa!
and of course nehneh obliged. :) damn happy la. sentosa at night is very pretty! and and and we caught fireworks! how lucky right! aaaaaaahhh bliss bliss bliss. and the nehneh got me ben & jerry's from 7- 11! chocolate fudge brownie mmm mmm mmm. and so many events at sentosa today!
drive home involved a stop at west coast park just because. but nehneh didn't want to take off shoes to walk in sand again so we just sat at a bench and yak. next time we must climb the thing okay!
oh ho ho ho ho. new ben&jerry's flavors! when will they come to singapore?! i want!!! there's cinnamon buns, brownie batter and peanut butter cup! mmmmm.
anyway pics from tonight here. if there's one thing i like about new sentosa, its the water sprays everywhere!
hurtling madly towards the end. speeding out of control and forsee a sudden skidding end. but all is fine, an end is an end and that is what matters.
blinding happiness.
rehearsals in school then finished paper and submitted. lunch/ dinner at lerk thai then...
SENTOSA!
haha. sorry nehneh. i wasn't in the mood for lions for lamb (too expensive- friday, and too heavy- braindrain post- essay) and any other movie wouldn't seem worth it cuz its friday. so after some brainstorming, i decided i wanted to go sentosa!
and of course nehneh obliged. :) damn happy la. sentosa at night is very pretty! and and and we caught fireworks! how lucky right! aaaaaaahhh bliss bliss bliss. and the nehneh got me ben & jerry's from 7- 11! chocolate fudge brownie mmm mmm mmm. and so many events at sentosa today!
drive home involved a stop at west coast park just because. but nehneh didn't want to take off shoes to walk in sand again so we just sat at a bench and yak. next time we must climb the thing okay!
oh ho ho ho ho. new ben&jerry's flavors! when will they come to singapore?! i want!!! there's cinnamon buns, brownie batter and peanut butter cup! mmmmm.
anyway pics from tonight here. if there's one thing i like about new sentosa, its the water sprays everywhere!
hurtling madly towards the end. speeding out of control and forsee a sudden skidding end. but all is fine, an end is an end and that is what matters.
blinding happiness.
brown paper packages tied up with strings, these are a few of my favourite things.
fiza, where is your paper? hmm hmm? where?
i have half an intro now. mmm.
after last class in NUS (egads!), it was canteen for my tuna sandwich and lemon tea and nehneh's lunch. attempted essay- ing till 6ish where i figured i am too sleepy for this sheeit so it was vivo for dinner! banquet vivocity has a larger portion of wanton mee! but their wanton taste funny. now i'm torn. sigh. i couldn't finish it, had 1.5 wanton only. but the noodles were nice. maybe when its earlier it taste better. we can all hope.
oh oh dippin' donuts mochatio was lovely! i just had it and its loveeee. mocha powder (?) and white chocolate icing. mmmmmm. and i only bought 1 donut! not 6! so i am a healthy happy person.
today marked the end of NUS classes to me. it hasn't really sunk in yet. maybe it will when exams end. even so, i doubt it. maybe its a gradual process. feeling rather indifferent now. maybe cuz i know i still have so much work to do! *looks pointedly at Words window*
rascal flatts on ellen! mmm. mmmm is the word of the day. along with pahit/ bitter! sara is my malay dictionary la. she da bomb.
mameh is a word right? mameh, bejey- bejey, beceh- beceh. i like the 'eh' sound i think.
i want to buy something from fred flare! lovelovelove kitsch.
peekchas! i am so trigger- happy lately.
the best thing about morning lectures.
the best thing, period.
the best thing about being in a school that is sorrounded by, um, forestry.
macam- macam binatang! huge- ass moth! blue lizard in vending machine! mosquitos when studying! wonders of nus, no?
minah pahit! hahaha.
what the hell is TyTy wearing! tyra bank's talkshow should not be shown immediately after ellen's la. like... watching s- league match after a champs league game.
i need to do my paper. yes. i do. it must happen. must! i have to stop thinking i have a choice. tsk.
counting down the days, really.
i have half an intro now. mmm.
after last class in NUS (egads!), it was canteen for my tuna sandwich and lemon tea and nehneh's lunch. attempted essay- ing till 6ish where i figured i am too sleepy for this sheeit so it was vivo for dinner! banquet vivocity has a larger portion of wanton mee! but their wanton taste funny. now i'm torn. sigh. i couldn't finish it, had 1.5 wanton only. but the noodles were nice. maybe when its earlier it taste better. we can all hope.
oh oh dippin' donuts mochatio was lovely! i just had it and its loveeee. mocha powder (?) and white chocolate icing. mmmmmm. and i only bought 1 donut! not 6! so i am a healthy happy person.
today marked the end of NUS classes to me. it hasn't really sunk in yet. maybe it will when exams end. even so, i doubt it. maybe its a gradual process. feeling rather indifferent now. maybe cuz i know i still have so much work to do! *looks pointedly at Words window*
rascal flatts on ellen! mmm. mmmm is the word of the day. along with pahit/ bitter! sara is my malay dictionary la. she da bomb.
mameh is a word right? mameh, bejey- bejey, beceh- beceh. i like the 'eh' sound i think.
i want to buy something from fred flare! lovelovelove kitsch.
peekchas! i am so trigger- happy lately.
the best thing about morning lectures.
the best thing, period.
the best thing about being in a school that is sorrounded by, um, forestry.
macam- macam binatang! huge- ass moth! blue lizard in vending machine! mosquitos when studying! wonders of nus, no?
minah pahit! hahaha.
what the hell is TyTy wearing! tyra bank's talkshow should not be shown immediately after ellen's la. like... watching s- league match after a champs league game.
i need to do my paper. yes. i do. it must happen. must! i have to stop thinking i have a choice. tsk.
counting down the days, really.
Thursday, November 15, 2007
blessings.
if i could summarise this sem, i would call it a series of lucky breaks interspersed with an insane amount of undeserved fun.
yup, just got back my race and ethnicity paper that was, like all the papers i've ever done in my life as an undergrad; hashed out in the wee hours of the morning less than 24 hours before it was due. and again. amaaayzeenk. whatever i've done to deserve this, i hope i did enough of it for this luck to last a few weeks more.
extremely amazing semester. i am so glad that despite the initial hiccups, i have had one of the best semesters of my life in nus so far. ironic, since i'm doing 6 modules (unwantedly) and technically should be bungling my way through these 13 weeks.
maybe all last sems are like this. or maybe i am once again swimming in luck i don't deserve.
times like this and things i read during last night's blog- hopping sesh keeps me hoping that maybe all is not lost. and it really isn't is it? there's still a world out there for me, a world that's mine. in good time.
had my last lecture for theatre, and possibly last macs breakfast in school. last history lecture later, and last theatre tutorial. last class for the sem.
the end. so imminent, so inevitable. yet few months ago i thought it'd never come. now its here, so near, it just feels overwhelming. as all graduating students would feel, i guess.
for all my grievances, i have had good times here. and if nothing else, i came out of this knowing i like academia. just maybe, not here. who knows maybe one day i'll come back here. as something else altogether, of course. it will be nothing short of heaven to be peers with my favourite lecturers.
blessed, blessed life.
yup, just got back my race and ethnicity paper that was, like all the papers i've ever done in my life as an undergrad; hashed out in the wee hours of the morning less than 24 hours before it was due. and again. amaaayzeenk. whatever i've done to deserve this, i hope i did enough of it for this luck to last a few weeks more.
extremely amazing semester. i am so glad that despite the initial hiccups, i have had one of the best semesters of my life in nus so far. ironic, since i'm doing 6 modules (unwantedly) and technically should be bungling my way through these 13 weeks.
maybe all last sems are like this. or maybe i am once again swimming in luck i don't deserve.
times like this and things i read during last night's blog- hopping sesh keeps me hoping that maybe all is not lost. and it really isn't is it? there's still a world out there for me, a world that's mine. in good time.
had my last lecture for theatre, and possibly last macs breakfast in school. last history lecture later, and last theatre tutorial. last class for the sem.
the end. so imminent, so inevitable. yet few months ago i thought it'd never come. now its here, so near, it just feels overwhelming. as all graduating students would feel, i guess.
for all my grievances, i have had good times here. and if nothing else, i came out of this knowing i like academia. just maybe, not here. who knows maybe one day i'll come back here. as something else altogether, of course. it will be nothing short of heaven to be peers with my favourite lecturers.
blessed, blessed life.
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
knowing me, knowing you!
i want to buy ABBA albums! another plan for december. was planning to go night safari but i think its very expensive. so how nehneh! should we just go zoo? oh or go taman negara! its huge! :D and in malaysia everything half- price. hahaha. oh oh and i want to go KL by train. simply to take the train! and eat in a moving rocking cabin. ahhh. then reach KL shop shop then go home again! haha.
titanic on channel 5! hotpot of cliches! hahaha.their lines are killaaarz. "i see people." "really?" "i see you." haha. rubbish.
last night i did my annual NUS stunt of not sleeping the whole night and going to school straight. thankfully its my free day, and i was only in school for a consultation for our theatre group and a couple of run- throughs. the minute it was over nehneh drove me home and i was out like a light. that was... 2- ish. and i am awake again! haha. body clock, oh, body clock. have mercy.
eh i think i'm in love with neutrogena pimple cream la! i put it on before i sleep (regardless of time hehe) and the next day the pimple is gone. or if in this case, where i have itchy- handedly scratched it till it scarred and has gone all bumpy, the bumps are reduced markedly. now i shall see if it actually removes the blemishes. magic cream! its about the only beauty product i rightfully own that i did not 'inherit' from my mum. haha.
i did some practice GRE tests yesterday. they're very tricky things! hmm hmm. anyway must time the thing well cuz cannot take it too long after graduating but if i take it too soon before applying for grad school also pointless. eeei. mafan lei. shahira, i commiserate.
am thinking of buying the package thing for the BBQ. it seems convenient! it actually even comes with a BBQ- er but that's just too much. haha. it'll be more fun to have people doing it. but the package seems worth it, then don't need to run all over supermarket buying stuff. will think it over and over.
today i wore my ladybug dress! yay! with tights and t- strap flats and turqoise cardi with ribbonssss. i loved my outfit today. haha. and that's about all the productivity that came out of not sleeping the whole day. oh and a 1/4 of an essay due friday. ngeahe.
i'm too focussed on the end i might be forgetting there's still exams to study for. haha. i'm in such a floaty period. bliss.
waiting for mum to come back with my geylang tom yam. yum.
nehneh! i demand banquet tomorrow! i need my wanton noodles. we can go for pasta after that. :) then donuts! i miss donuts! no b&j's please. once a week is the max. last week cold rock this week b&j's... next week island creamery! okay! yay!
so many (unpaid) projects and things to do and be all excited for once exams end. but still haven't concretely decide on a job. but will start sending out resume the minute exams are over. refuse to do it now because because la. haha. i have so many back- up plans and no masterplan! its okay. mine is a long- term strategy. or as stalin would call it, a five- year plan for the national economy of me! haha.
wah hungry la. mummmmmm where are youuuuuuuuuuuu. i ate only a muffin today! and even then unfinished! oh! better take out from bag. aiyo.
okay put in toaster liao. banana muffin mmm! should have cream to go with it la. tsk. oh oh should melt chocolate over the muffin when i reheat it. yummmm.
this is going to sound weird but leonardo dicaprio has come a long way hasn't he? from titanic to blood diamonds. not bad, not bad at all!
so much beer spilling this scene.
tomorrow! review lectures for history, theatre and collect race term paper. dammit la. please don't let it be a B-. C+ is always better. B-(es) are just annoying. i can't believe how royally i've screwed that paper. haha.
this feels weird. the past few days i was never home by 9ish and now i am and its just bizzarre. what to do what to do! study and do paper, i know. heh.
alrighty. will snack a bit till mum returns. toodle- loo!
titanic on channel 5! hotpot of cliches! hahaha.their lines are killaaarz. "i see people." "really?" "i see you." haha. rubbish.
last night i did my annual NUS stunt of not sleeping the whole night and going to school straight. thankfully its my free day, and i was only in school for a consultation for our theatre group and a couple of run- throughs. the minute it was over nehneh drove me home and i was out like a light. that was... 2- ish. and i am awake again! haha. body clock, oh, body clock. have mercy.
eh i think i'm in love with neutrogena pimple cream la! i put it on before i sleep (regardless of time hehe) and the next day the pimple is gone. or if in this case, where i have itchy- handedly scratched it till it scarred and has gone all bumpy, the bumps are reduced markedly. now i shall see if it actually removes the blemishes. magic cream! its about the only beauty product i rightfully own that i did not 'inherit' from my mum. haha.
i did some practice GRE tests yesterday. they're very tricky things! hmm hmm. anyway must time the thing well cuz cannot take it too long after graduating but if i take it too soon before applying for grad school also pointless. eeei. mafan lei. shahira, i commiserate.
am thinking of buying the package thing for the BBQ. it seems convenient! it actually even comes with a BBQ- er but that's just too much. haha. it'll be more fun to have people doing it. but the package seems worth it, then don't need to run all over supermarket buying stuff. will think it over and over.
today i wore my ladybug dress! yay! with tights and t- strap flats and turqoise cardi with ribbonssss. i loved my outfit today. haha. and that's about all the productivity that came out of not sleeping the whole day. oh and a 1/4 of an essay due friday. ngeahe.
i'm too focussed on the end i might be forgetting there's still exams to study for. haha. i'm in such a floaty period. bliss.
waiting for mum to come back with my geylang tom yam. yum.
nehneh! i demand banquet tomorrow! i need my wanton noodles. we can go for pasta after that. :) then donuts! i miss donuts! no b&j's please. once a week is the max. last week cold rock this week b&j's... next week island creamery! okay! yay!
so many (unpaid) projects and things to do and be all excited for once exams end. but still haven't concretely decide on a job. but will start sending out resume the minute exams are over. refuse to do it now because because la. haha. i have so many back- up plans and no masterplan! its okay. mine is a long- term strategy. or as stalin would call it, a five- year plan for the national economy of me! haha.
wah hungry la. mummmmmm where are youuuuuuuuuuuu. i ate only a muffin today! and even then unfinished! oh! better take out from bag. aiyo.
okay put in toaster liao. banana muffin mmm! should have cream to go with it la. tsk. oh oh should melt chocolate over the muffin when i reheat it. yummmm.
this is going to sound weird but leonardo dicaprio has come a long way hasn't he? from titanic to blood diamonds. not bad, not bad at all!
so much beer spilling this scene.
tomorrow! review lectures for history, theatre and collect race term paper. dammit la. please don't let it be a B-. C+ is always better. B-(es) are just annoying. i can't believe how royally i've screwed that paper. haha.
this feels weird. the past few days i was never home by 9ish and now i am and its just bizzarre. what to do what to do! study and do paper, i know. heh.
alrighty. will snack a bit till mum returns. toodle- loo!
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
this is how i roll.
blajar blajar!
nehneh! belajar = study. baa baa black sheep!
did 1 reading. ONE! but i also went for review lecture for much loathed module. got back my paper. okay la, considering i did it 1.5 hours prior to deadline, and in canteen some more. haha. i fierce!
tomorrow is technically my free day but i've got a group meeting/ rehearsal for theatre studies. and a consultation with our tutor. lalala. no idea where and when i'm meeting them though. oh well.
i craving for taco bell! quesadillaaaaa! how can you resist ANYTHING with a name like that? ay carumba quesadillaaaaa!
i am also re- craving for my wanton noodles after seeing the pictures of my wanton noodles. apakah kebodohan ini? what would yacob ibrahim say?
tonight is crime night! yay yay yay! every tuesday i'm home by 10 despite all efforts to study because got CSI! woot woot!
i actually got nothing to blog about la. today was very... random. i created a group on facebook, updated/ edit my event details, curse MOE's website that did not allow me to submit my relief teaching application... hmm what else? oh scold annoying people. haha! nehneh scold first. cuz the group got annoying voice. but among ourselves only. cuz we're cowards like that.
and mr. nehneh, you have to stop saying, "eh what sial" and "what sial this ___ doing" cuz it is TOO MAT! understand! too MAT for you! you are indian, lest you forget. don't anyhow try situational identity ah. one day you slip and say "what sial" to your father, ahhh. then you know what sial. and sial is so vulgar nehneh! why you learn this things?! blajar la bismillah ke, alhamdullilah ke. why don't you try saying, astagfirullahalazim next time something happens?
as usual if you don't understand anything nehneh, please google it up. i'm astounded by your internet inept- ness.
when i'm not busy talking nonsense i'm busy imagining how excitingable- esque my life will be after 1st december 2007. i think i never knew it but i've been waiting for this day since... 10th august 2004. :D
oh okay CSI start already! i shall leave you with this shot of me meditating before lecture to ensure optimal mental state prior to absorbing new knowledge!
two things...
before i sleep (at 5!).
i am craving for a proper breakfast. cereals, milk, strawberries, bananas, waffles, pancakes, omelettes. the works.
i feel hopeful. very hopeful. hopefully if everything works out i won't take so long to get there. :)
i am craving for a proper breakfast. cereals, milk, strawberries, bananas, waffles, pancakes, omelettes. the works.
i feel hopeful. very hopeful. hopefully if everything works out i won't take so long to get there. :)
Monday, November 12, 2007
chunk spelunkers.
there was a time when people said that
hahahahahahhahaa.
okay now that i've done my random annoying bit for the day. hmm. review lecture for race was damn stressful la! cuz he kinda told us the topics and now i feel pressured to do very well for this module cuz uh, how can you do badly for a module where the exam topics were revealed 2 weeks ahead? hmm hmm hmm?
i like not feeling the exam stress lei. must be the graduating student syndrome. so boh liao about everything, cannoooot!
today rohani pointed out some dude from our race class whom she claims to be very polite and soft- spoken. i like! but he half mamak. then rohani say i cannot escape. eh?! hello! its not that bad in here okay, in fiza lalaland of hot mamaks. anyway ya. he quite cute! new crush la! just in time for graduation. since purple boy is so... last semester. haha.
justine henin hardenne beat sharapova! yay! oh oh and kangaroo on the loose in melbourne lei! SO EXCITING! why singapore don't have one. sigh. i'd give anything to live in a place where kangaroos go wild and rip rescuers' shirts. but poor thing the boy. wah but madness ah. hardcore sia this kangaroo. jump damn high la! i know la you kangaroo but this is too much ah. show- off seh.
anyway last night i dozed off around 8 cuz tv is so boring on sunday nights. and i was stuffed from my wanton noodles (YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYYYY) at bugis. and walking around bugis street with farhana. who bought a dress! bahaya this girl! everytime go bugis street confirm buy things. madness. she like curtains also lei. hehehehehe. right right right. here's a shoutout to you MINAH LANGSIR!
anihwey. post- lecture that was amazingly short, was canteen for epok- epok (macam dah biasaaa eh rohani) and fruit juice. then suresh came and we yakkety yak then i went to the library to watch my film for my paper due friday. miss india georgia! very interesting. quite anthropological. which is risky, cuz this is for a history module! wait i end up writing soci paper. ish.
then it was munchie's for asian breaded chicken salad (i don't know why its ehhhsieeen though) then canteen for 10 seconds of readings. then vivo! for ben & jerry's! hahahaha we are beyond help. really. but you don't know who we really are right!? that's whyyy. actually we are the ones they call.... beeeeeeeeeeeowulf. HAHAHAHAHAHHA.
did anyone watch the trailer for beowulf!? damn funny ah that line! "are you the one they call beeeeowulf?" hahahaa. okay so we are easily amused but ya la. its funny!
anyway then i realized that he encourages my fatty habits! like eating ice- cream! cold rock la, ben & jerry's la. wait daily scoop la, island creamery la. amboi amboiiii! then i fat how nehneh! my hantaran low value you know! as it is i can't cook. okay not can't la, but lazy. then cannot clean! ish! how! anyway cooking and cleaning sounds like job application for maids in singapore, not to be wife. haha!
mr hot soci prof said for his phd he took 8 hour exam. wahlaoeh. vulgar lei 8 hour exam. its so wrong in so many ways. i hope it was a comfortable chair. pantat/ butt cramps are very uncomfortable.
eh i talk talk talk never think of my own exams ah!!! think about exams that other people have TAKEN! as yunus would say, fiza, lu gila!
okay sushi dinner in a while. still quite full from my ben & jerry's. at first i wanted a cup, then we remembered the waffle dish is quite nice, but the waffle cone is only for one flavor, so after pretending to not be able to finish 3 scoops of ben & jerry's, we ordered the mix&match. chocolate chip cookie dough, chocolate fudge brownie and strawberry cheesecake. with chocolate fudge, whipped cream and rainbow sprinkles. i think rainbow sprinkles is the best thing in the world! i love rainbow sprinkles its the gayest thing in the world and i love being gay! hahahaha. i am losing my mind all over again. tsk.
the sheetz.
he so busy concentrating on taking the photo he forgot to smile. what a dingdong.
tomorrow is tuesday and tomorrow got lecture. i don't want to go but no choice, its my worst module. nyehhhh. eh shit i think i have to watch film for some module. dang. irritating la! please non- year 1s, don't bother taking ts1101e if you're not in year 1 anymore. i think only a year 1 have the energy and exuberance and whatever else to do whatever it is ts1101e wants you to do. when you're old and rotten and stinky like i am, ts1101e just feels like a hassle the hoff.
and with those wise words, i shall sleep. eh no. eat sushi. yes. bye!
Saturday, November 10, 2007
lean (hmm?), mean, naan- eating machines.
as my grandma would say, kau ni skola university ke skola makan? (are you in university or in kindergarten- where we eat a lot, take naps, etc.)
went to school, did some readings, then it was al- ameen/ al- azhar for wanton noodles. but didnt' have! it used to be that al- azhar or something had halal dimsum and other chinese food. but now they both sell the same thing. which.... doesn't make sense. so anyway we ended up at al- ameen. and i was extremely pleased at the end of dinner. can't go wrong with naans!
our naan feast.
my cheese and plain naan.
his two butter naan.
to be eaten with...
mutton keema, my standard naan dip.
and!
this amazing thing! i always loved it but never knew its name. now i do, and i'm never letting you go oh aloo gobi!
washed down with milo dinosaur, RAWR. mmmmmm satisfaction is the best feeling ever.
and tomorrow i will go bugis/ tong seng for my wanton noodles with farhana. so settled! yay!
oh and i also bought tandoori chicken and 2 plain naan home. and packet my left- over keema. the shitz!
to think we thought of going to daily scoop after al- ameen. please la! so stuffed that we were falling asleep while watching football at the coffeeshop downstairs. haha. mcflurry also cannot already.
i'm watching castaway and so is he, while msn- ing.
suresh says:
HAHAHAH
suresh says:
hear that?
suresh says:
thunder!
fizusthemissus says:
haha who
fizusthemissus says:
oh
fizusthemissus says:
ya
fizusthemissus says:
rain
suresh says:
there!
suresh says:
ya!
fizusthemissus says:
then fire how
fizusthemissus says:
EWWW
fizusthemissus says:
giant ulcer!!
hahaha rubbish convo. lurps.
i am sleepy already! so fun right. so i will uhh, watch some more tv then read to sleep. yay! today i did abit of chalet/ bbq/ party planning, so fun! can't wait. i hope i never get stranded on an island. there seem to be a lot of blood loss. eurgh.
happy days, happy days. closer and closer to the end. such mad rad emotions. but everything is great as long as you're here. :)
i tell you first ah nehneh, you da bomb. you can stay under my umbrellaellaellaeheh anytime man.
went to school, did some readings, then it was al- ameen/ al- azhar for wanton noodles. but didnt' have! it used to be that al- azhar or something had halal dimsum and other chinese food. but now they both sell the same thing. which.... doesn't make sense. so anyway we ended up at al- ameen. and i was extremely pleased at the end of dinner. can't go wrong with naans!
our naan feast.
my cheese and plain naan.
his two butter naan.
to be eaten with...
mutton keema, my standard naan dip.
and!
this amazing thing! i always loved it but never knew its name. now i do, and i'm never letting you go oh aloo gobi!
washed down with milo dinosaur, RAWR. mmmmmm satisfaction is the best feeling ever.
and tomorrow i will go bugis/ tong seng for my wanton noodles with farhana. so settled! yay!
oh and i also bought tandoori chicken and 2 plain naan home. and packet my left- over keema. the shitz!
to think we thought of going to daily scoop after al- ameen. please la! so stuffed that we were falling asleep while watching football at the coffeeshop downstairs. haha. mcflurry also cannot already.
i'm watching castaway and so is he, while msn- ing.
suresh says:
HAHAHAH
suresh says:
hear that?
suresh says:
thunder!
fizusthemissus says:
haha who
fizusthemissus says:
oh
fizusthemissus says:
ya
fizusthemissus says:
rain
suresh says:
there!
suresh says:
ya!
fizusthemissus says:
then fire how
fizusthemissus says:
EWWW
fizusthemissus says:
giant ulcer!!
hahaha rubbish convo. lurps.
i am sleepy already! so fun right. so i will uhh, watch some more tv then read to sleep. yay! today i did abit of chalet/ bbq/ party planning, so fun! can't wait. i hope i never get stranded on an island. there seem to be a lot of blood loss. eurgh.
happy days, happy days. closer and closer to the end. such mad rad emotions. but everything is great as long as you're here. :)
i tell you first ah nehneh, you da bomb. you can stay under my umbrellaellaellaeheh anytime man.
Friday, November 09, 2007
friday, i'm in love!
slept in till 11, woke up, showered, then nehneh fetched me to school! singapore society revision lecture where... a very funny guy sat in front of me. hahahaha. it was damn funny cuz he was falling asleep and his head kept falling backwards and he will JERK awake and god it was hilarious. but he smelt funneh. anyway ya. i was quite worried he'll get whiplash or something. and it was always very sudden movements at one point i went, the hell!? hahaha.
lecture break- collected my term paper. :))))))))))) SHIIIIIIIIIIING bright shining light blinding people across the world! considering i started on it the day before (like i do all papers but still!), i am very very pleased with the grade. oh and it was quite funny cuz me and another girl went to the lecturer and asked for our papers. then while we were sifting through the piles of papers, the lecturer ANNOUNCED that everyone who hasn't gotten their term papers can collect them now or after lecture ends. almost immediately, we were SWARMED. hahaha it was damn funny cuz they were all like GRABBING term papers and like hissing and huffing and tsking and i was just too stunned to even look for mine! but then i saw my very prominent cover page and made grab at it and left the crowd laughing. it was crazy! they were fighting for it like it was free hello kitty from macs! geez!
after that was canteen for an hour where i churned out a 1000- word paper in an hour. and in the process, broke my hair band and my rubber band. violent right! "i'm surprised i survived this long, you're always so violent when essaying". - the nehneh.
i want to watch lord of the FLIES! i can't believe i said lord of the rings in previous post! why the HELL would i want to see THAT. anyway its in december, so perfect chill- out event! yayyy. and and and i think i wanna buy a dress from UO. yay me.
so after a lot of msn- ing, hafiz ended up joining us for cold rock. no regrets right! get burger king some more! hahahaha. tak habis- habis BK kau. then after BK was cold rock! and i love it! i dunno about the boys cuz suresh didn't get any mix (!?!?!?!) and hafiz's one was super super rich la. dark chocolate with nutella and ferrero rocher. it was nice and if it was kiddie cup maybe i can finish, but he got a regular and so ya. i love mine! mine mine mine is the best! peanut butter (MMM) and white chocolate (MMM) ice cream withhhhhhhh TWIX! chocolate! yummy yummy yum. i can't wait to go back. next trip's on me nehnehpokes! so you can get as many mixes as you want okay. don't be a boring ice- cream lover!
i decided to bring the camera to school more often seeing that its my last 3/4 weeks in school. hmm hmm. so first shots! here goes a friday in school. :D
as always, more on facebook! sigh. and to think they were playing the song in the car! i mean of course they would, its a friday afterall, but i managed to catch it! and i listen to the radio only when suresh drives. even then not really. like drive from school to holland v was me blasting laptop songs and dancing like macaulay culkin.
Dressed up to the eyes
It's a wonderful surprise
To see your shoes and your spirits rise
Throwing out your frown
And just smiling at the sound
And as sleek as a shriek
Spinning round and round
Always take a big bite
It's such a gorgeous sight
To see you eat in the middle of the night
You can never get enough
Enough of this stuff
It's friday
I'm in love
and i am i am i am yessum i am! oh happy days. this is the calm before the storm. next i'm in the eye of the storm, and then before you know it, storm's over and you look around to see where you've landed, where the storm's thrown you. ngeahe.
lecture break- collected my term paper. :))))))))))) SHIIIIIIIIIIING bright shining light blinding people across the world! considering i started on it the day before (like i do all papers but still!), i am very very pleased with the grade. oh and it was quite funny cuz me and another girl went to the lecturer and asked for our papers. then while we were sifting through the piles of papers, the lecturer ANNOUNCED that everyone who hasn't gotten their term papers can collect them now or after lecture ends. almost immediately, we were SWARMED. hahaha it was damn funny cuz they were all like GRABBING term papers and like hissing and huffing and tsking and i was just too stunned to even look for mine! but then i saw my very prominent cover page and made grab at it and left the crowd laughing. it was crazy! they were fighting for it like it was free hello kitty from macs! geez!
after that was canteen for an hour where i churned out a 1000- word paper in an hour. and in the process, broke my hair band and my rubber band. violent right! "i'm surprised i survived this long, you're always so violent when essaying". - the nehneh.
i want to watch lord of the FLIES! i can't believe i said lord of the rings in previous post! why the HELL would i want to see THAT. anyway its in december, so perfect chill- out event! yayyy. and and and i think i wanna buy a dress from UO. yay me.
so after a lot of msn- ing, hafiz ended up joining us for cold rock. no regrets right! get burger king some more! hahahaha. tak habis- habis BK kau. then after BK was cold rock! and i love it! i dunno about the boys cuz suresh didn't get any mix (!?!?!?!) and hafiz's one was super super rich la. dark chocolate with nutella and ferrero rocher. it was nice and if it was kiddie cup maybe i can finish, but he got a regular and so ya. i love mine! mine mine mine is the best! peanut butter (MMM) and white chocolate (MMM) ice cream withhhhhhhh TWIX! chocolate! yummy yummy yum. i can't wait to go back. next trip's on me nehnehpokes! so you can get as many mixes as you want okay. don't be a boring ice- cream lover!
i decided to bring the camera to school more often seeing that its my last 3/4 weeks in school. hmm hmm. so first shots! here goes a friday in school. :D
as always, more on facebook! sigh. and to think they were playing the song in the car! i mean of course they would, its a friday afterall, but i managed to catch it! and i listen to the radio only when suresh drives. even then not really. like drive from school to holland v was me blasting laptop songs and dancing like macaulay culkin.
Dressed up to the eyes
It's a wonderful surprise
To see your shoes and your spirits rise
Throwing out your frown
And just smiling at the sound
And as sleek as a shriek
Spinning round and round
Always take a big bite
It's such a gorgeous sight
To see you eat in the middle of the night
You can never get enough
Enough of this stuff
It's friday
I'm in love
and i am i am i am yessum i am! oh happy days. this is the calm before the storm. next i'm in the eye of the storm, and then before you know it, storm's over and you look around to see where you've landed, where the storm's thrown you. ngeahe.
bodengdengs.
MUSE LIVE IN THAILAND LEI! but on 28th november, smack in the middle of exams. DAMMIT! and affordable some more! not happy ah!
eh december got staging of lord of the rings lei! i want to go! and um, still looking for people to watch wangi jadi saksi with me. faster faster chope me! hahahha. i want to watch muse lei howhowhow.
hoo whee.
rehearsal in school, did some readings, yak with sara and cheryl, car ride to plaza sing (thanks!), and readings at starbucks.
bliss is listening to strawberry fields forever while sipping mocha praline ice- blended. mmm.
tomorrow is last lecture for sing soc then paper submission then more papers then revision for exams. eeeyeeech.
thai express with naz, aishah and norm. mmmm. green curry and kangkong and rice! yum. crepes from saboy (?) after that wasn't as good as its been touted to be. never mind, still got marche!
someone asked for my number in the train. haha! been a while.
*boy's mouth open- close like goldfish*
fiza: huh?
*boy's mouth moves again*
fiza: OH! *takes out earphones*
hahahaha. anyway he asked if i was from ngee ann poly (?). i said no. he said oh okay you looked familiar. i said oh okay. "can we like be friends?" "oh uh... sorry! don't want la." "oh why?" "haha uhh just don't want." "oh okay." but he very kesian la when he go back to his friends the boys laughed cuz he didn't get my number. i would have given him a fake number if i knew his friends were such asses.
i dunno why i like to hold my pee. its like personal challenge like that. i think in ritual lecture it was mentioned as... ascetic games. hmm. okay i go pee.
done! cold rock with the boyfriend tomorrow. mmmmm! looking forward to that. essaying again then mugging then mugging mugging mugging exams and done! its madness how close we are to the end!
i want to watch wangi jadi saksi. hmm. see how la. so many things to do still. for now, i shall think positive, even if there's little to be positive about! haha.
bliss is listening to strawberry fields forever while sipping mocha praline ice- blended. mmm.
tomorrow is last lecture for sing soc then paper submission then more papers then revision for exams. eeeyeeech.
thai express with naz, aishah and norm. mmmm. green curry and kangkong and rice! yum. crepes from saboy (?) after that wasn't as good as its been touted to be. never mind, still got marche!
someone asked for my number in the train. haha! been a while.
*boy's mouth open- close like goldfish*
fiza: huh?
*boy's mouth moves again*
fiza: OH! *takes out earphones*
hahahaha. anyway he asked if i was from ngee ann poly (?). i said no. he said oh okay you looked familiar. i said oh okay. "can we like be friends?" "oh uh... sorry! don't want la." "oh why?" "haha uhh just don't want." "oh okay." but he very kesian la when he go back to his friends the boys laughed cuz he didn't get my number. i would have given him a fake number if i knew his friends were such asses.
i dunno why i like to hold my pee. its like personal challenge like that. i think in ritual lecture it was mentioned as... ascetic games. hmm. okay i go pee.
done! cold rock with the boyfriend tomorrow. mmmmm! looking forward to that. essaying again then mugging then mugging mugging mugging exams and done! its madness how close we are to the end!
i want to watch wangi jadi saksi. hmm. see how la. so many things to do still. for now, i shall think positive, even if there's little to be positive about! haha.
Thursday, November 08, 2007
tee hee.
awake again!
wah damn cannot make it la. slept when i got back from school cuz i was exhausted from the... mindless day in school. and i slept slept slept from 6.30 p.m. till NOW! then how to sleep again later? how to wake up tomorrow!? geez.
as a general rule i think everyone don't like being patronized, no? i don't shove my oh- i've- done- this- before experiences down your throat so don't shove yours in mine. cuz i am not very patient nor accomodating! so excuse me if i think i would like to pay attention to other aspects of my education that requires more time and effort, as opposed to wasting it on something that is so trivial.
why does it always go down these roads. i can't stand it la. but never mind. focus: 1 paper due friday, another due next friday, practical exams after that, then exams proper. and all this would be nothing but a bitter memory. :)
merry deepavali anyone! how come its not as festive as our hari rayas and chinese new years ah? so sad la. i want to go serangoon but its last day already so i don't want to go through the crowds.
23 days to last paper, last day of nus life, last day as undergrad, last last last.
kinda excited about the new place in life, though i doubt i'm well- prepared. i honestly think i'm winging it, then again i don't think its that bad. i definitely don't want to start working immediately. wanna deal with the house and relax for a good long time, get recharged and then face the world again. if i was a man imagine this period of time as me holed up in my room smoking and growing out a beard. but because i am not a man it will probably involve a lot of reading in the park, coffee afternoons, jb/ kl escapades and just lots and lots of self- love. so indulgent, i know! can't wait.
feel like having thai express tomorrow. mmmm.
okay enough randomness. i am hungry! so time to hunt the kitchen for food. nights and loves!
as a general rule i think everyone don't like being patronized, no? i don't shove my oh- i've- done- this- before experiences down your throat so don't shove yours in mine. cuz i am not very patient nor accomodating! so excuse me if i think i would like to pay attention to other aspects of my education that requires more time and effort, as opposed to wasting it on something that is so trivial.
why does it always go down these roads. i can't stand it la. but never mind. focus: 1 paper due friday, another due next friday, practical exams after that, then exams proper. and all this would be nothing but a bitter memory. :)
merry deepavali anyone! how come its not as festive as our hari rayas and chinese new years ah? so sad la. i want to go serangoon but its last day already so i don't want to go through the crowds.
23 days to last paper, last day of nus life, last day as undergrad, last last last.
kinda excited about the new place in life, though i doubt i'm well- prepared. i honestly think i'm winging it, then again i don't think its that bad. i definitely don't want to start working immediately. wanna deal with the house and relax for a good long time, get recharged and then face the world again. if i was a man imagine this period of time as me holed up in my room smoking and growing out a beard. but because i am not a man it will probably involve a lot of reading in the park, coffee afternoons, jb/ kl escapades and just lots and lots of self- love. so indulgent, i know! can't wait.
feel like having thai express tomorrow. mmmm.
okay enough randomness. i am hungry! so time to hunt the kitchen for food. nights and loves!
Wednesday, November 07, 2007
wheeeeeeeeeee hoooooooooo!
i need youuuuuu! whooo build me up buttercup baby just to let me down!
i damn happy ah cuz got no tutorial! hahahahaha finished already yay yay now can do paper yay! had pancakes also. so very happy.
so i just came to school for theatre prac meeting. nyeh! but that's okay. that will be over soon. everything, will be very soon very over! very bad sentence! WHOO!
play down that boogie and play that funky music till you dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
i damn happy ah cuz got no tutorial! hahahahaha finished already yay yay now can do paper yay! had pancakes also. so very happy.
so i just came to school for theatre prac meeting. nyeh! but that's okay. that will be over soon. everything, will be very soon very over! very bad sentence! WHOO!
play down that boogie and play that funky music till you dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Tuesday, November 06, 2007
slumbered tongues.
school rapidly coming to its inevitable end. speeding along, speeding along.
a bit of studying, a trip to the library, another fong seng dinner (how many more?), and bus ride home.
languid chats about everything and anything. i yearn for nights like this. its wonderful how everything just falls in sync. that's what i've always loved most- the chats. the long endless chats that can never end.
chalet has been confirmed for 9th december, sunday. everyone's free to come, since i don't really have any idea who to invite etc. its gonna be quite free- for- all, cuz i've realized when you invite 100 only 10 will show up. and while i'm not going for numbers, a chalet is not a chalet if its just me and suresh right!
so yes, anyone and everyone is invited. gra- du-a- tioooooon! woot!
a bit of studying, a trip to the library, another fong seng dinner (how many more?), and bus ride home.
languid chats about everything and anything. i yearn for nights like this. its wonderful how everything just falls in sync. that's what i've always loved most- the chats. the long endless chats that can never end.
chalet has been confirmed for 9th december, sunday. everyone's free to come, since i don't really have any idea who to invite etc. its gonna be quite free- for- all, cuz i've realized when you invite 100 only 10 will show up. and while i'm not going for numbers, a chalet is not a chalet if its just me and suresh right!
so yes, anyone and everyone is invited. gra- du-a- tioooooon! woot!
Sunday, November 04, 2007
books and shoes.
got meself new shoes from charles&keith. they didn't have a 35, but they had a 34. which fits, but i got blisters. then again its new shoes so maybe i just need to break em' in. it doesn't feel too tight. but if it still gives me blisters i'll be so sad! i love the shoes. and cannot buy another pair right! then what to do with this one. sigh. :(
saturday in school, borrowed books, interviewed nehneh, talked nonsense with diz and norm, eat junk mum gave- marshmellows, chocolates, mini- cakes. nehneh's mum is champion though. cheesecake! in tupperware! we've got very feedy mums.
made quite a... decision, today. think and think and think for soooo many weeks and in the end i decided not to. yeah money is good, but i need to stop thinking about money (and new york) all the time, and choose a job i can possibly enjoy for 3 years AND still save up, as opposed to doing a job i'd hate simply cuz the money is good. i must also keep telling myself that i am not in a hurry! there's such a rushed vibe everywhere. i feel like a piece of paper that got blown away by the rush of people rushing past. floating, floating, looking at people running off. but why bother running if you got nowhere to go? run run run tired only. then in the end you cross the finish line and go, "eh?"
i think i alone understood that analogy.
i am in love with biore porepacks! but its more fun to put on nehneh's nose cuz he's got more stuff to... un- pore out? to take out? more pores? aiya dunno la! but when i peel off mine there's very few crap on it, but his got lots! like more value for money right.
clodhoppers make me happy. have you tried? clodhoppers rock! i love the chocolate fudge graham wafer ones. mmm mmmm.
i've been craving for SOMETHING lately but because i can't place it everything i've eaten lately has left me deeply unsatisfied. mum said she's cooking tomorrow, so maybe that might be it. i miss kampung food! i miss malaysia la! i want to go KL la. oh oh and i having chalet confirm liao. yayyy. mum okayed it. oh i want to go KL! now! how!
i want to eat kenny rogers' ah. mac and cheeseeeeeeeee. cheeeeckeeeeeeeeen. i want to eat mexican steak at simpang also. why is simpang so far. why is it that we always complain singapore so small yet here i am craving for nasi lemak and mexican steak from the very faraway east? even if i got car also i don't think i can be bothered to go down all the way just to eat. they should have... i dunno. i should live in a smaller world. okay no. i should live somewhere where there is better food 24 hours. ah. and FOOTBALL! coffeeshop close already so cannot watch liverpool game. sigh. but never mind its nil- nil at halftime anyway.
sometimes ah when you want to judge/ bitch/ etc you should just do that and not try to redeem yourself by justifying your action before doing the aforementioned. there's bound to be people who annoy you what, no one's saying you have to love everyone. and if you want to bitch, bitch la! as britney spears would say, its your prerogative. not like i'm telling you take advice from miss spears but you know. sometimes she makes sense, even if she's not a girl but also not yet a woman. and now i see you looking at me like i'm some kind of freak, why don't you do something?
hahahaha. and i know the last song cuz SARA loved to sing it! sara you closet spears fan, you! or maybe not closet at all kan.
HAHAHA i watching city of fear on channel 5! damn funny ah!!!!! its like pre- recorded or something then the voice come out the mouth haven't move yet! hahahaha! got 3 second delay. gile babi funny la. wah then the police come out from the car SHOOTING! like open door and BANG BANG BANG! no wait wait one! just shoot! whoo! bulgaria rocks. this movie is based on bulgaria, ya. its supposed to be some martial art- ish movie la. but uh the hero is blond. blond guys cannot do martial art! martial art is EHHHHSYIEEEEEN. like bruce lee! WACAA!
i love b- grade movies la. and i love channel 5 more for showing them! thank you channel 5 you lovely lovely singaporean tv channel! and uh does anyone else think the noose is such an american wannabe? and ya la what isn't but still. its supposed to be funny but from what i've seen so far its... another one of those almost funny shows but won't be due to reasons beyond their repair. oh well!
eh this guy got such stiff blond hair. like nick carter from backstreet boys era! eh NUS also got its own backstreet boys you know! its called backrow boys. kan rohani kan kan kan hahahaha.
i like the america's next top model song. the "naaaaaaa nananana, nana nana nana nanaaaaaa". you know or not!!!! i love it la.
suresh: whereee do you learn this things?
me: america's... next, top, model. NAAAAAAAAAAANANANA NANANANA NAAAAAAAAAA.
aiya you must love the show like i do to understand. tyra banks takes 5 years to say, "congratulations, you're still in the running to be america's, next, top, model."
NANAANAANNANAAAAAAAA NANANANANANANANAAAAAAA.
listen to the song!
and this is why i love tyra.
HAHAHA SHE SO FUNNEHHHH. lovelove TyTy!
and these are from the best ANTM- recaps blog ever, fourfour.
sigh. such beauty. TyTy you're an angel.
anyway! essaying tomorrow. a sunday, at home, essaying, coupled with sunday tv- extreme home makeover, kyle xy, gilmore girls. i'll make a brilliant suburbia housewife.
and hey nehneh! i love you! :D will love you more if we have cold rock next week. heh heh heh.
saturday in school, borrowed books, interviewed nehneh, talked nonsense with diz and norm, eat junk mum gave- marshmellows, chocolates, mini- cakes. nehneh's mum is champion though. cheesecake! in tupperware! we've got very feedy mums.
made quite a... decision, today. think and think and think for soooo many weeks and in the end i decided not to. yeah money is good, but i need to stop thinking about money (and new york) all the time, and choose a job i can possibly enjoy for 3 years AND still save up, as opposed to doing a job i'd hate simply cuz the money is good. i must also keep telling myself that i am not in a hurry! there's such a rushed vibe everywhere. i feel like a piece of paper that got blown away by the rush of people rushing past. floating, floating, looking at people running off. but why bother running if you got nowhere to go? run run run tired only. then in the end you cross the finish line and go, "eh?"
i think i alone understood that analogy.
i am in love with biore porepacks! but its more fun to put on nehneh's nose cuz he's got more stuff to... un- pore out? to take out? more pores? aiya dunno la! but when i peel off mine there's very few crap on it, but his got lots! like more value for money right.
clodhoppers make me happy. have you tried? clodhoppers rock! i love the chocolate fudge graham wafer ones. mmm mmmm.
i've been craving for SOMETHING lately but because i can't place it everything i've eaten lately has left me deeply unsatisfied. mum said she's cooking tomorrow, so maybe that might be it. i miss kampung food! i miss malaysia la! i want to go KL la. oh oh and i having chalet confirm liao. yayyy. mum okayed it. oh i want to go KL! now! how!
i want to eat kenny rogers' ah. mac and cheeseeeeeeeee. cheeeeckeeeeeeeeen. i want to eat mexican steak at simpang also. why is simpang so far. why is it that we always complain singapore so small yet here i am craving for nasi lemak and mexican steak from the very faraway east? even if i got car also i don't think i can be bothered to go down all the way just to eat. they should have... i dunno. i should live in a smaller world. okay no. i should live somewhere where there is better food 24 hours. ah. and FOOTBALL! coffeeshop close already so cannot watch liverpool game. sigh. but never mind its nil- nil at halftime anyway.
sometimes ah when you want to judge/ bitch/ etc you should just do that and not try to redeem yourself by justifying your action before doing the aforementioned. there's bound to be people who annoy you what, no one's saying you have to love everyone. and if you want to bitch, bitch la! as britney spears would say, its your prerogative. not like i'm telling you take advice from miss spears but you know. sometimes she makes sense, even if she's not a girl but also not yet a woman. and now i see you looking at me like i'm some kind of freak, why don't you do something?
hahahaha. and i know the last song cuz SARA loved to sing it! sara you closet spears fan, you! or maybe not closet at all kan.
HAHAHA i watching city of fear on channel 5! damn funny ah!!!!! its like pre- recorded or something then the voice come out the mouth haven't move yet! hahahaha! got 3 second delay. gile babi funny la. wah then the police come out from the car SHOOTING! like open door and BANG BANG BANG! no wait wait one! just shoot! whoo! bulgaria rocks. this movie is based on bulgaria, ya. its supposed to be some martial art- ish movie la. but uh the hero is blond. blond guys cannot do martial art! martial art is EHHHHSYIEEEEEN. like bruce lee! WACAA!
i love b- grade movies la. and i love channel 5 more for showing them! thank you channel 5 you lovely lovely singaporean tv channel! and uh does anyone else think the noose is such an american wannabe? and ya la what isn't but still. its supposed to be funny but from what i've seen so far its... another one of those almost funny shows but won't be due to reasons beyond their repair. oh well!
eh this guy got such stiff blond hair. like nick carter from backstreet boys era! eh NUS also got its own backstreet boys you know! its called backrow boys. kan rohani kan kan kan hahahaha.
i like the america's next top model song. the "naaaaaaa nananana, nana nana nana nanaaaaaa". you know or not!!!! i love it la.
suresh: whereee do you learn this things?
me: america's... next, top, model. NAAAAAAAAAAANANANA NANANANA NAAAAAAAAAA.
aiya you must love the show like i do to understand. tyra banks takes 5 years to say, "congratulations, you're still in the running to be america's, next, top, model."
NANAANAANNANAAAAAAAA NANANANANANANANAAAAAAA.
listen to the song!
and this is why i love tyra.
HAHAHA SHE SO FUNNEHHHH. lovelove TyTy!
and these are from the best ANTM- recaps blog ever, fourfour.
sigh. such beauty. TyTy you're an angel.
anyway! essaying tomorrow. a sunday, at home, essaying, coupled with sunday tv- extreme home makeover, kyle xy, gilmore girls. i'll make a brilliant suburbia housewife.
and hey nehneh! i love you! :D will love you more if we have cold rock next week. heh heh heh.
Friday, November 02, 2007
bird brained speaketh.
done with essay! quite happy with it, considering the unfamiliar subject. art history; never again. nice to see, not nice to write about.
i think i will get shoes tomorrow. and maybe another book if there's still fundraising going on. had macaroons today. nice lei! and norm, macaroons eh. jangan nak feeling- feeling roti bonjour.
i want to have a chalet at the end of the year. to mark the end of my university world!
everyday i find out weirder and weirder people who reads my blog. and by weird i mean demographically. while i don't really care who reads this or who doesn't, i just wonder how anyone not 19- 22 years old can possibly find this vaguely... of interest. heah.
tomorrow i can return all these books. eeeeei. so many so thick so eeeeei. and i still got a paper due monday! mad weekend coming right up.
but for now, much deserved sleep. aaah. the best part of essaying, is the satisfaction that comes when you finally go to bed. rare joys of academia.