being obscure clearly.

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

radicalist.

well in a most interesting turn of events i am now happy and lightheaded, possibly due to overdosage of 7- Up combined with MSG of instant noodles, but i say whatever keeps me happy ey?

i've also declared an early weekend so i don't think i'm going for training. i will go home, rest, take pictures of clothes to sell, read a bit, eat good food and live merrily merrily merrily life is but a dream.

leaving for kuantan this friday i would think, for the cousin's wedding on sunday. am quite excited! can't wait to snap away. can't wait to meet cousins, can't wait to be out of singapore for a bit. ahh.

monday i'll be back at work with a side job interview in the evening at 6.30 p.m. then that sunday would be flea market day. i need to advertise it more, and i need you guys (the few of you still reading my sporadic posts, sorry!) to help spread the word ya? i need all the help i can get for the flea itself too, so if you're free on sunday and want to come and help- help, by all means, please.

i wish there was more than 24 hours in a day, or that we don't need so much sleep in a day. i could all and well forsake sleep but i'd probably be one stonedtemplepilot by the end of the day.

i try to tell myself not to get too caught up in earning money but i think its too late to turn back. its like quicksand really.

in more exciting news, i'm looking at jobs in new york. like i told hafiz, i'd gladly be a cleaner at the new york public library. have you seen the SIZE of that monster? i think i'd be a chipper just being surrounded by such a gregarious amount of books. ooooh.

nehneh went to prospect park today and he told me i'd like it. and i googled it, and i do. :)

what a dandy park. he said he'll bring me there when i come down. yay! hurhur.

lunch break blog post.

the nehneh hath landed! he texted me at 11ish last night saying he had arrived. its a 12 hour time difference. so he's asleep now, cuz its midnight there. uhuh.

i'm beginning to think i'll never get to new york. tickets are sold out, or what's left are too expensive. if i manage to earn all this money and don't end up in new york then i might as well donate it to charity la.

suresh would call this defeatist mentality but i call it realist/ tiredist. tired okay. everything. doing all this while feeling/ being/ doing so many other things. what am i trying to achieve anyway? i should face the reality of my situation and stop dreaming of places i'll never be able to go.

so annoying la. why must there be so many countries in the world if you only live in one all your life? one of life's many great fallacies but who's counting these days.

instant noodles for lunch cuz there's training later and i don't wanna faint from exhaustion. i hope playing will take my mind of all these nyeh stuff in my head.

i wish i could give up though. but that stubborn streak seems to tell me to crash into the wall anyway, just to see what's on the other side.

hoping and dreaming are such destructive things. they should come with warning notes, like cigarette packs.

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

jumping on the bandwagon!

i dunno how many of these i've made but there's no harm making another! i'm free and have nothing much to do. at least nothing i want to do.

Create your own Friend Test here

dinner at BK thomson with hafiz was good. loved the chat. i'm glad we're friends. :)

i am all talked out after that though. so do the test!

soooo.

okay so its not as easy as i thought. lunch hour came and i had no one to call to talk nonsense to. i tried.

read about friends going places, doing well, knowing what they want and it made me sad cuz i still feel like a fledgling idiot. but i don't want to talk about this here now cuz its pointless.

and when all that happened i panicked momentarily, and i turned deaf screaming inside because i don't have a you to call and just blubber to.

i think i am having an out- of- body experience.

i miss you already. what am i supposed to do at lunch? we haven't planned that.

i love you.

day 1 of nehnehlessness.

its got a nice ring to it, don't it? nehnehlessness. almost as if it was meant to be a real word. :D

he boarded his flight at 11.15 p.m. yesterday and i have no idea when he arrives. he's got a 2 hour transit in frankfurt. FRANKFURT! but cannot do much also la, 2 hours. but still! FRANKFURT!

anyway. i've decided to hold a flea market in my own home! so far its me and sara, which is good cuz that provides a variety of size and stuff. and i'm trying to rope in norm to sell his cupcakes. i will then try to convince him/ naz to wear a chef's hat and white apron only. :D but point is, it's on! the home flea. so COME! i know the website isn't very well- updated but that's cuz i'm doing an eight to fiver daily and i come home exhausted. maybe tonight after coffee with dizzie i will take more pics and upload more stuff so you guys have a better idea what's for sale. basically i'm moving out, so you can pretty much imagine everything is up for sale. including the dining table. i'm serious. so please come, and bring your friends along! the more the merrier.

it'll be a fun afternoon/ evening, drinks provided. i'm thinking of making it BYOB cuz i'm into this eco- friendly business. and yes i meant bags not booze. there'll be music, cupcakes, drinks, and if there's too many bored men, i'll switch on ESPN. haha.

wanted to rope in maya but she'll be away. :( its okay babe, if its a success i'm planning a repeat so maybe in future. :D

zat might also be selling her stuff, and i'm thinking there's room for one more seller (whether or not she joins in). preferably a guy (so that the men won't get bored) or someone not of the same size/ fashion sense as me and sara. that way there's more variety for everyone! anyone up for it? if you didn't know, home is Woodlands. so if you stay nearby, give it a thought.

so one favour to everyone; come down and bring your friends! spread the word, link up SoldSoul, anything. if you're a romantic, remember, you're helping me meet the nehneh in ny. if you're a shopperholic, remember, so am i and hence i have lots of unused clothes (that aren't ugly, thank you). if you like a lazy sunday shopping without orchard's madness, good music, yummy cupcakes, and absolutely cheap stuff, this is the event for your sunday.

so spread the love y'all.

okay enough promo- ing. after work today i meet dizzie for coffee somewhere not crowded. kat mane tu apiz? haha. and ARE you going to melbourne? sumpah ketiak berkutu.

anyway anyone want to buy me the new maroon5 album? cuz i don't believe in you anyMORE! anymoooooore.

i think by the time i miss suresh it'll be time for me to leave and meet him anyway. or at least i hope that's the case. as before, i very malas want to miss miss all this. such a waste of gutting emotions. tiring okay. miss going out la miss talking la. waste time, waste energy, waste brain cells.

so anyway as usual this is the time when all my female friends will come up to me and complain they haven't seen me in forever and i feel guilty for retreating into my little world, as i usually do during school term. well i'm back in the real world now, with an 8- 5job its as real as it gets. but i'm free after work on most days (futbol on wednesday!) and if you can put up with formallyish dressed fiza slightly sleepy from being awake since 6 a.m., you got yourself a date.

okay enough skivving. back to work and see you later apiiiiiz!

Monday, May 28, 2007

it came early!

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gotta love em' spam.

back to the deadly letter opener yessum.

random poll; if i were to hold a sunday flea at my place, would that be easier than shopping via soldsoul.wordpress.com? keep in mind i live in woodlands. but holding the flea= see and touch and try then buy, no postage fees, and i'm looking into light refreshments. thoughts, comments, please.

thanks!

p.s.: maya, you want you could sell your baked goods too at the flea! :)

Sunday, May 27, 2007

this lack of time.

besides working 8- 5, i've also been desperately squuezing what time i have left to meet up with the nehneh. he leaves for NYC/ Yale, tomorrow, at 10 p.m., and i won't be sending him off cuz his parents are. so today is the last i see of him till he returns, or till i land in new york myself.

so we almost broke up on monday, didn't, visited my mum at the hospital after work, had dinner at pastamania/ causeway, no meet on tuesday, futbol training on wednesday after work, then thursday i got my camera after work and got about to testing it when we met for ice- cream and strawberry milkshake at the carpark rooftop (coincidentally, we both wore blue, and blubbly was blue too). i also bought him blubby to bring to NY to remember me by. then friday i took halfday so we could go to town, eat lunch at food republic, watch POTC At World's End, window- shop (or shop, in his case), and have dinner at far east. saturday/ yesterday i worked half- day, came back home, and slept till 6.

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meet blubbly.

who gives out light!

the nehneh.

and now we are off for island creamery and fong seng, love and laughter, then i'll be home and nehnehless for a month. indulge me, please.

"of course i'll miss you. i'm so used to having you around and talking to you... it's like you're the voice of reason."
"............... PFFFT."

Saturday, May 26, 2007

some other time.

not in the mood to blog. i think i'm extremely exhausted by work, people coming in and out leaving stuff in the room, etc. i want to get away, but unfortunately i'm not rich. and maybe too, i am greedy. i'm too tired to hope to go anywhere, too lethargic to think of anything. i'm sick of thinking for everyone and anyone, and i'm sick of postponing my dreams to the vague and unknown future. i'm sick of putting things on hold, of waiting and seeing, of thinking, "some other time". cuz if any of the 100385345 things i've wanted to do but never got to do has taught me, is that there is NO some other time. the time is now. i can go on living a life of missed opportunities, or i can slog it out and achieve what i want. when else am i going to do what i want? i'm going to spend the next few years after nus slogging it out to save MONEY to study again. if everything didn't cost so much life would be alot easier but who am i kidding. so where is this some other time going to come from? 3, 4 years? when i'm studying again? when i'm scrimping again, to live comfortably in a foreign country? when am i going to get to do what i want?

too often. lumps in my throat, tears welled in eyes. what is the point? sometimes i wonder if the creator of hope was truly kind, or simply cruel.

SALES BLOG!

its finally up!

the get fiza to new york project is now on! see, its for a good cause. spread the word, share the love, buy the stuff! my blog- readers get priority, obviously, cuz you guys are the first to know of the site anyway. hur.

http://soldsoul.wordpress.com

that's all for today then! nights!

Friday, May 25, 2007

hellooooooooo weekend!

well i've got halfday saturday tomorrow but at least i'm done here today! :D

leaving at 12 to meet the nehneh for air hockey, lunch, dinner, pirates and god knows what else. extremely dangerous day to be in town actually, its first day of the great singapore sale!

speaking of sales, salesblog will be up tonight! already took some pictures, and i'm ready to sellllll! :D

okay too excited to speak. towntowntown!

Thursday, May 24, 2007

funny email of the day!

Dear ****,

Sorry for the delay, but I just
came back from India, with a week of close relationship with the toilet.

We are please to offer as per your scope of supply for the above
project.
Please note that I have changed some of the item to match our new
products.

Total price NOK 144 713,- per vessel, net ****** ex works.
Hydraulic calulations, handeling and packing included.

Please note that
we could make this cheaper if use the new Logo panel and hook this up directly
to the ships fire alarm system.

Best regards
*****

HAHAHA.

usually such mails get forwarded to suresh but since he is not home now i decided to share this with everyone! my day is up to 6.9/ 10 cuz;

someone bought eclairs from delifrance to share with the whole office :D
i've just discussed football very elaborately with my (?)/ mum's male colleagues. predominantly liverpool fans here, thank god. haha.
i've been reading funny emails AND AND AND funny spams!
its 30 minutes to home/ camera/ possible ice- cream date! :D :D

so yes. its fast on the up! one downer though, but i won't tell cuz it'll be a spoiler for **** fans. :D but its okay, i'll take what i can get. given the beginning of the day, i think this has been pretty okay. tonight i shall snap away, and hopefully the sale begins tonight!

most importantly; halfday tomorrow, excitingableesque! with new camera, me and the nehneh shall conquer the world, one trigger at a time.

hooooooooooooome!

so long 6th star.

so we lost. 2- 1. a darn close match if you asked me. liverpool could have had the match done and dusted in the first half if at least 1 of the many shots actually found the net. but it didn't.

rather, inzaghi's unknowing chest found it. nothing is more annoying than a fluke goal. well maybe a fluke goal a minute before half- time. or a fluke goal against liverpool. or a fluke goal in a cup final. okay so many things are more annoying than just a fluke goal but you get my point.

kaka and seedorf were generally sombre,, mascherano & co. did well in midfield to curb supply to their attacking third. we pushed alot, had several chances, but missed them all.

watching the match felt like several other EPL matches that i've watched them played, almost almost almost.

at least we now know what we need. an out- and- out striker please, benitez, and someone of good stature, not a regular sub from barcelona or crap like that. the good shit, only.

after kuyt scored i knew it was over. it happened before. he scored in the match we were losing against arsenal 2- 1. then some gunner came back with a goal and it ended 3- 1.

eyes closed from that goal onwards, just listening to martin tyler and andy gray go on and on...

and i heard the final whistle. the pounding heart slows, reality sinks in... and as the scenes from the acropolis follows, tears flow as fellow Koppites mourn our unseeming loss. a child of maybe 8, red- faced with tears, a full grown man, face pinched with sadness. but in times of sadness, the anthem soldiered on, you'll never walk alone....

you'll never walk alone.

for all the misses, the losing to arsenal 6- 3, the 1- 0 losses to man u, for every pain every tear everything; it was well worth it. liverpool is more than just a football club, and i'm proud to love such a grand ol' dame. call us what you will, boring, small club, Euro maestros (not anymore even, some might say) but EPL bozos; you cannot deny the Koppites their pride, you cannot deny Liverpool their glory, you cannot remove the tradition and grandeur that has made us who we are for years.

win or lose, i'm proud to be a Liverpudlian.

okay sinda people just called to tell me they cannot employ me as a full- time tutor anymore cuz i'm not a graduate. uhhhh. okay. so why was i employed the whole of last year, hmm? and i think i do more work than the 'graduates'. my students complain when i make them do work cuz "other tutors don't ask the students to do anything! just sit there and talk!" pfft.

so that means tuition- hunting begins. i hate this. i hate that i need to find a job again for the semester time. sinda fit nicely in my schedule and the money was good and now i have to start over. its my last sem already would you all just give me a break?! geez.

i need to find a sugar daddy, pronto. preferably before nyc trip too. bahhhh.

okay i rate today a -10 out of 10 so far. i'm getting a camera later, so that might make it -9/ 10. but still, all in all, not a good day.

anyone having better ones please share your joy.

okay and i just tried to cross my legs on the office chair with much difficulty cuz i injured myself at training yesterday. !!!!!!! alright, its down to -15.

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

sickened.

... and right after i click "send" i felt sick to my stomach.

what now? what will you do next? what happens today, tomorrow, if any? will you leave? or stay? what more can this love take? is this love anymore, or has it become misguided pity?

and i hate myself for becoming who i am. sometimes you keep trying so hard you fail to see that failure was inevitable from the start.

i wished i didn't wish so hard, maybe i wished our love apart.

eh eh!

wah damn sian i cannot tag blogs from office! nyehhhh.

nana: i want to sell coli also! we sell together ah. i sell to you you sell to me, haha.
zat: will do ASAP!
dizzie: wah pressure ah you! we discuss further on MSN la.

okay back to the deadly letter opener.

plop.

looking for weekend/ part- time jobs (after 6!). desperate for the moolah, in case you can't tell.

i hope blake wins it tonight. if jordin wins it'll be so boring.

i am playing sudoku again. and eating lakerols and drinking coke. dandy.

camera tonight! and training, FINALLY. i miss my girls and most importantly, i miss futbol. my boots are still muddy. well not exactly. dried muddd. haha funkeehh. and then champs league tonight! boy my plate is full today.

okay time to open mails then request for half day friday from HR. to meet and go out with the boy, who leaves for NY/ Yale monday. bitch.

if i get to go nyc/ melbourne this holidays, i'll settle for tioman in september. buuuurthdayyyy!

i'm almost 22. i am officially on the wrong side of youth.

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

well you need a blue sky holiday.

GST credits of $200, and Sinda pay of $372. that trip to melbourne/ somewhere else, looks more and more likely already. :D :D :D

i will most definitely be setting up a blog to sell all sorts of shazzazz and by all sorts, i mean absolutely everything in the house that is not in use; clothes scarves bags shoes. so please have a look once its up, which is as soon as i get the new digital camera. which is i think, tomorrow! whoopee!

am looking at travel pages on classifieds. excitingableesque benorrrr. *HUGE WINK at dizzie*

visited mum at the hospital yesterday, she seems fine. she comes back today and thence begin her long break from workdom. we need to move out soon. what a muddle!

i'm tempted to take a half- day this friday so that i can go out in the day and not get tired halfway (as i am nowadays). we shall see how it goes. besides i'm working on saturday anyway. half- day. i think.

anyway training tomorrow! and i'm going! whee! finally! and tomorrow night is champs league! gee when it rain it pours doesn't it! and actually, it is kinda pouring here. noisy rain.

its lunch break but i'm too full from sausage mcmuffin and iced milo to eat my fillet o fish. guess i'm taking lunch home again then. its becoming a bad habit. tsk.

i have about a a bajillion files of master copies of faxes to keep in the cupboard at the back of the office. dusty dusty files and sharp sharp edges. PAPER CUTS! gah.

its terribly boring when your greatest job hazard is paper cuts. or poisoning by stamp glue. hmm. even that don't count since i don't lick them. they have that sponge thingy. booooring.

i want to go town have coffee read a book then fall asleep in the park.

if all else fails, i'm melbourne- bound this july. and this sentence is for you hafiz, in case you tak paham the earlier HUGE WINK. hur.

i wanna nap, i got 15 minutes!

Monday, May 21, 2007

apt.

Did I hear you right'
Cause I thought you said
Let's think it over

You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you

Shadows bleeding through the light
Where a love once shined so bright
Came without a reason

Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's
Not enough

But when I'm with you
I'm close to tears'
Cause you're only almost here

I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me

Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Please protect me

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered how it hurts
Haven't I always loved you

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's
Not enough

But when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'Cause you're only almost here
Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you

flying solo.

am at work at mum's desk, drinking strawberry milk and sending out 54 mailers. also opening mail with a deadly letter opener. and transferring calls and ordering 10 jumbo junior boxes from DHL. whoopee.

visiting mum at the hospital after work today.

life is crazy. sometimes i wish i knew what was going on, but half the time i'm floundering along, like everyone else.

in view of everything else that is going on, i wish we could be stronger, more stable. sometimes the thing you always had fails you when you need it most.

sometimes i think i'm only strong cuz everyone thinks i am. and i become strong. and sometimes i think i become stronger cuz all this people keep saying i'm strong and thus i don't need anyone and i end up without anyone and i have to figure it out on my own anyway. i think i'm talking nonsense. must be the crap macs coffee.

If I stand all alone, will the shadow hide the color of my heart;
blue for the tears, black for the night's fears
The star in the sky don't mean nothin' to you, they're a mirror
I don't want to talk about it, how you broke my heart
If I stay here just a little bit longer,
if I stay here, won't you listen to my heart, whoa, heart?
I don't want to talk about it, how you broke this ol' heart

when all it took was a moment, you chose to leave.

Sunday, May 20, 2007

sunday, i'm in love!

friday was 12 sushis and a chocolate bar for dinner, napping and TV and sleeping and intermittent reading.

saturday! belated mother's day high tea at carousel. food was yummm. loved all the mousse, bread butter pudding, sushi, porcini and shitake soup, waffles, fondue... aiya alot la. i think its great, and on weekdays, they have a 3 for 2 promotion! brilliante!

did a bit of shopping with mum after that, damage was so bad she had to bring home my skirt and i had to take her (free) bag(s), perfume and (free) trolley luggage to novena where i was meeting suresh for the FA Cup Final screening at velocity. he drove so we figured we could just dump it in the car. mum can't do heavy loads since the op anyway.

the game was boring for 100 minutes, till drogba scored. then chelsea won. mourinho ran halfway around the world in glee when they scored, only to pout and throw his arms up in disgust by the 5 minutes of added time. it wasn't enough though, and chelsea got their measly double. ho well.

more exciting football awaits; Champs League Final- liverpool vs ac milan! nope, you're not reading an archived post. we're set for a rematch, ladies and gents.

so here is sunday. a day for bumming, msning with the banana, and much more bumming. working tomorrow, then mum's second op. pray for her, everyone, much thanks.

reading more and more about melbourne, seeing the same places over and over. i read somewhere that melbourne is alot like new york, except the guys in suits wear mullets and they all walk 30 paces slower. maybe that's why i'm in love.

i'm feeling a bit underwater, too many tabs and distractions. maybe later. and no pics for a while more, since the camera is decidedly dead. new camera on its way however, courtesy of a friend. say thursday? we shall see.

things i miss:

reading in a park
coffee afternoons
brunches
the beach
friends
futbol (played, not watched)
melbourne
living without care

be back soon, promise.

Friday, May 18, 2007

i love this man.

THE OVERLOOK Is Coming Out On May 22!

An execution on the overlook above the Mulholland Dam entangles Harry Bosch with F.B.I. Agent Rachel Walling and Homeland Security. Portions of The Overlook were originally serialized in the New York Times Sunday Magazine. This hardcover release will include new, never before published material. Read an excerpt now.

he writes his book in such timely manner. his previous one, echo park, came out just after my exams and before melbourne trip. and this one's coming out may 22nd (USA), and if my estimations are right, that means it could be another timely purchase, just before my melbourne trip in july (if i do go). fantastic.

i did not read the excerpt provided. why spoil the fun? besides its for people who don't already love his work.

whee!

2 hours to weekend!

Thursday, May 17, 2007

zoology, gold & you.

so work went okay, but that's cuz mum is still around. next week on i'm on my own, and then we shall see how i do.

after work was town with the nehneh! pastamania dinner at lido then borders! used our 35% off vouchers. i got gold by dan rhodes ("i trust him like i trust michael connelly *serious face*"). nehneh got "can asians think?" (i will not answer that) and and and he got me the book that i decided to not buy cuz i want gold more! zoology! about a boy and central park ny! brilliante.

after borders was straight home, boring old fart that i am now. working office hours is tiring and braindraining. i was exhausted before i even met him, and i'm still exhausted now. i predict myself to be in bed by 11, which is a miracle prayed for by one and all who knows me.

am getting a new line soon but don't worry, i will update one and all. and thus, i am also looking at the phones on offer with new contracts and my my, the prospects are good. :D

i want to sit down and write a post on death and loss, or trust and lies and the illusion of a 'human nature/ spirit', but i don't have the time or mental energy. i'm just really happy to know i got more than 5 unread books lying around, waiting longingly for my tender gaze.

i'll find the time. saturday i do high tea with mum, a belated mum's day gift. then sunday the nehneh wants to go out. maybe we could go read in the park or cafe, depending on the weather. most importantly though, i should end this post by 11 p.m.

and i have! :) nights!

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, you make me sing
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything

office sin #1

hello! blogging from work! hehehehe.

dogtired from work yesterday. no not from the work itself, but from the waking up at 6 bit. i'm doing better today, but then again i got sleepy after lunch yesterday, so we shall see.

so far what i do is pick up calls (E** T** good morning/ afternoon!), lots of filing, writing in the logbooks of incoming/ outgoing mail, and as predicted, most common job hazard is paper cuts. i got one on my toes yesterday (!!) cuz i took off my shoes. -_- none of that today!

i'm meeting the nehneh after work today. how fancy, saying that. after work! office work was kinda giggly yesterday, partly cuz its that kiddygirly dream- to work in an office, and type real fast, pseudo- busy style. but i don't actually do that, except now, so um yea.

i need to make the transition from mum's daughter to actual employee. but her colleagues are a funny bunch, so i'm quite happy here.

alrighty then, before i get caught!

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

cuz i don't feel like dancing.

with several twist of events, i ended up employed at my mum's workplace, no less, and i start tomorrow. hmm.

AND i ended up watching Next featuring a hairy Nicolas Cage and Jessica Biel. extremely lame movie. and though it was free (thanks firr), i still felt my 2 hours were wasted. stupid stupid stupid. if you wanna know why, watch it! hahaha. cuz i don't want to spoil it. but if you can, just trust me on this. stupid movie of the year.

soooo. 8.15- 5.30 for the next month, at least. but its okay, money goes to get-fiza-to-melbourne fund. :D

i gotta do my surfing and net stuff now before i sleep EARLY to wake up EARLY and go to WORK. hurhur.

nights all!

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

mememememe.

been meaning to do this meme from the blog the cow so here goes! and in case you're wondering, yes, i'm quite enjoying my bumming tuesday.

one- word meme!

Copy.
Paste.
Answer.
Questions.
One Word.

1. Where is your cell phone? near
2. Describe your boyfriend/girlfriend? silly
3. Your hair? curly
4. Your mother? working
5. Your father? missed
6. Your favourite item? books
7. Your dream last night? vague
8. Your favourite drink? coke
9. Your dream car? volkswagon
10. The room you are in? bedroom
11. Your ex? MAT! (hurhur)
12. Your fear? loss
13. What do you want to be in 10 years? happy
14. Who did you hang out with last night? TV
15. What you’re not? employed
19. The last thing you did? smile
20. What are you wearing? pajamas
22. Your favourite book? matilda
23. The last thing you ate? chocolate
24. Your life? good
25. Your mood? shalala
26. Your friends? busy
27. What are you thinking about right now? cartoons
28. Your car? waiting
29. What are you doing at the moment? typing
30. Your summer? bummer
31. Your relationship status? attached
32. What is on your TV? nothing
33. When is the last time you laughed? yesterday
34. Last time you cried? april
35. School? over!

phishfood.

i think i prefer chewy fudge to phish. but i wanna try new york chunks. b&j's. ice- cream.

anyway. a friend went to melbourne... and she did a daily blog of it... and now i'm sad and fast going into MELBMOPE. it doesn't help to read that dizzie plans to go there in july. i wonder if i'll ever get there again. i wanna go this september but it seems so difficult at the moment. but if i can earn like a madcow over the holidays and not touch my sinda pay at all once i start again in july, i just might make it. i'd scrimp and save and stay at a backpacker's inn, anything just so i can be in melbourne again and live and let live. the cafes, the music, the trams, the architecture, the supermarkets that i simply simply love...

i'm glad i've never been to new york. if i have and i came back home i think i would be permanently depressed, looking at the effects melbourne has had on me.

my favourite melbourne moment would be walking, walking everywhere. thanks to my dear guide hapizzz. batman street was love. and how can i forget watching home alone 1 & 2. and cooking chicken parmigiana. sigh.

sitting at docklands, fearing i'll fall in. playing at the playground, falling off the spinning spin, walking and walking some more. getting caught in the cold so many times. so many moments to love.

all i want this birthday is return tickets to melbourne. that's it. there's nothing else that i'd want or need. just melbourne.

nyeahehehehe.

okay so this is a random blog post to declare how much i love my new blogskin. chicken! egg! sunny! whee!

wicked.

interview didn't happen, have to come back another day cuz the lady got busy or summat. but the place looks nice and happy. so i hope pay is good, i get the job, and we all end up happy.

met the nehneh after that, bought sushi, cab to city hall then train to pasir ris to go to wild wild wet! WHEEE!

and bloody wet we were. it was fun, but i was so exhausted i slept the whole train ride back. poor suresh must have been so bored.

the viking one was really scary. and i like the ular- lah. except when we almost flipped over. and i like the wave pool even though i scraped my elbow there.

i think the kids section is the most fun. the slides are nice, there's lots, there's so many water guns, and there's that giant yakult bucket that flips over and showers everyone. what a hoot.

no pics from today, cuz my camera went gadzooks prior to nuang. suresh brought his too but we had to put our bags in the locker. and after that we were too busy to snap any. but! here's pictures from nuang/ kl trip. :D

near 1st camp.

initial trek in.

1st waterfall crossing...

2nd waterfall crossing. hoo.

group shot at 1st campsite.

summit!

sparse hut.

dinner.

bollywood hotel!

and i would walk 100 miles...

by day...

by night.

loot!

extreme hunger can lead to monstrosity such as this.

home- bound!

okay! finito! tomorrow i got no plans so it seems like bumming galore. :D

Monday, May 14, 2007

a night for romantics.

from soccernet.com; warnock looks on as jewell celebrates his team's courageous win.

oh what a night for the English Premiership League. if you all missed it, shame on you! it was a night of riveting football, with West Ham, Sheffield and Wigan fighting against relegation. and man, what a sweet, sweet game it was, between Shef and Wigan.

riveting football really, an apt way to bade farewell to another season of EPL. wigan went ahead, then sheffield got back through a dramatic header which saw 2 players and a keeper injured. the scorer, stead, was knocked out for a bit. then minutes before half- time, during the 5 minutes of added time, a sheffield united player decided he wanted to switch to basketball (while in the penalty box, whoops!) and unsworth converted the penalty. 2- 1 to wigan, and only halftime!

over at old trafford good ol' tevez did his magic and got a goal. and it remained that way till full- time, man u not scoring any goals, despite playing at home. and fowler, on his final match in a liverpool jersey (unless he plays champions league, which i doubt, if so then final EPL match with the Reds), captained the team to a 2- 2 draw against relegated charlton.

2nd half of sheffield game was just as riveting, fast flow of fantastic attacking football. a wigan player gets a second yellow and was sent off, and the siege continues. keep in mind sheffield was above west ham and wigan prior to tonight, and what a turn it has been! wigan needed to win, while westham and sheffield merely needed a draw.

final minutes, and sheffield continued their siege onto wigan's half. 5 minutes of extra time is added, and sheffield fans wiped away tears and started cheering wildly, in hope 5 minutes would be enough for their much needed draw...

but it wasn't. westham won, wigan won, and sheffield was relegated. the tears and the jubilation at the end was spine- tingling, such contrasts of emotions. beautiful.

what was also beautiful would be today. a simple mother's day, because i canceled my booking at carousel, or at least intend to postpone it to next saturday for high tea. instead we headed out to vivocity, bought jelly shoes from our neighbourhood shop on our way, had thai express, and walked about. bought her a heart- shaped bangle from forever21 which she loved, so all is well.

tomorrow i go for my job interview at great world city. i really hope i get this one, and i also hope the pay is good enough. cuz it'll be a pity if everything works out but the pay stinks, cuz i would have to refuse it then, despite how much i like the job. i'd tell you about it if i get it. don't wanna jinx myself.

and after that its wild wild wet with the nehneh! was supposed to go before the semester started! and i mean LAST semester. oh the incredulity of it all.

its beginning to look like a great holiday. if i get the job. and that way i'd be busy when the nehneh leaves for 1.5 months for YALE and NEW YORK (i will forever hold this against you, i am not sorry, hur). and there's the moving and the selling of stuff and all the jazz to do, so i doubt i'll be bored. if i am, i can do a repeat of last night; pizza, pepsi, and tom & jerry on DVD. fantastico.

hope everyone's break is shaping up great. many happily blinding sun rays and love to all.

Saturday, May 12, 2007

oh my god.

i'm back! in one piece, which is a miracle in itself, if you have ever seen/ climbed gunung nuang. it was honestly much, much, much, much more difficult than i expected, and i'm so glad i didn't drag anyone else into this trip (other than suresh, who had the responsibility of making sure i make it back alive). i wouldn't want to be responsible for any lives/ injuries. in case you're wondering, yes, it was that dangerous and scary. hours after i was on flat ground, in fact even now, i look back at those moments up there climbing down, and i can't believe i'm here now in the comforts of home.

but let me start from the beginning. so we left singapore, went to jb, reached KL, so on and so forth. found out my camera wasn't working, but a kind soul in the team who is also suresh's friend loaned us his since his girlfriend had a camera too. breakfast outside puduraya bus terminal, then cab down to the foothill. hulu langat forest reserve. started raining halfway through the drive, and it barely stopped when we started the climb. we checked into the three chalets at the main office, and off we were.

the climb

the climb. god. i'd say it had three stages, since there were 2 campsites then the summit. the trek to the first camp was moderately hard. lots of uphill path but none that were crazily steep. my shoes though didn't help, it didn't have a good enough grip. this would prove to be a real problem on the descent. we reached campsite 1, camp lolo, and there was some pretty waterfalls to look at. i would say the waterfalls were the highlight of the entire ascent and descent.

continued on to trek to camp pacat (yes, they named a campsite after leeches, which were everywhere, by the way). the rain did not help. the clay terrain became extremely wet and slippery, there were fallen branches and trees, at some points the crevices (where the water flow was heaviest, there's a deep drain filled with dead leaves and rain water) were so deep and narrow and the surrounding banks were extremely slippery so you could just slip and fall into the crevice. especially if you were wearing my shoes. i slipped badly once, and i grabbed two branches. my feet was dangling away and at that point i almost lost the plot and wanted to beg suresh to take me home. one of the branches i grabbed had thorns, but i was not letting it go for nuts. made it through the rest of the trek rather uneventfully, if you consider slippery terrain and climbing up rocks and tree branches uneventful.

reached camp pacat and had our mobile lunch. muesli bars, bread with tuna, such. the third bit of the trek was about to start. it was already 1ish by then, and we had been climbing since 8 a.m. if it took 5 hours to get up, surely we had to begin descending then at 1, to reach the chalets by nightfall? but nope, we went on to climb up to the summit.

the third bit of the trek were the scariest, most dangerous, craziest thing i've ever done in my life. at several points we were vertically parallel. if i wanted to look at the people in front of me, i had to look upwards, towards the sky, to see them. clinging on to trees and branches and not looking behind/ below. we finally reached the summit of 1425 meters at 3ish, took a break, snapped pictures, ate some more, then it was back down. and all the while during the climb up i was thinking, how am i going to climb down? i mean if it was that steep a climb up, it only means a steep climb down.

the leader split the group into 2, the faster group to rush it down and prepare dinner and such, and the slower group with the 4 gentler girls who needed to take it slow, i guess. i joined the faster group, cuz there was no way in hell i was spending an extra minute in the goddamn jungle. i wanted out and i wanted it fast. the climb down was horrific, i slipped so many times on the slippery mud/ clay, grabbed thorny branches, hit elbow on stones when sliding down (cuz standing up and walking downwards is totally crazy), and i wanted to cry and i wanted to preten to faint so that a helicopter would come and rescue me i just wanted the nightmare to end.

but at the same time i knew the only way out was to climb down, keep putting one foot after the next, just working on pure adrenaline and towards the end, desperation for land, roof, water, food. my pants were dirty and muddy, i needed to pee, i was hungry and thirsty and my overused left leg was shaking like jelly. i say overused cuz at every moment that i needed to climb down, i used my left leg as support. very bad habit, cuz my left leg is still dead as we speak.

reached the campsites, waterfalls, and with each landmark hope surged. i'm close, i'm close, i'm close. but i wasn't. even after hitting the 1st campsite, the chalets were still a good 2 hours away. and it was already 6.30 p.m. when we arrived at 1st camp. i dunked myself in the cold waters of the waterfall, ate a bit, and pushed on. at one point i was in front of the entire group, scrambling like crazy, uphill and downhill, hoping beyond hope we hit the chalets by nightfall.

at 7 we were still in the thick of the forest. torchlights were switched on, and the leader gave me his trekking/ walking stick so that i had support for the uphill/ downhill walks, since my shoes were obviously unhelpful. the trail seemed to go on and on on and on. i wanted to cry, i wanted to just sit down and stop moving. i wanted to close my eyes and let it all be over. but the only way out was to keep going, keep going. i was staggering for a the rest of the hour before we reached the end of the trail, and was only left with the 10 minutes trek back down to the main office. to think i started of on that path in bright morning. 10 minutes feels like 10 hours when you've been climbing for 13 hours and you're hungry, thirsty, exhausted. worst of all, it was already 8.30 p.m. when we hit that trail, meaning we were bathed in absolute darkness.

i just kept going on and on, muttering prayers under my breath, one foot after the next, one foot after the next. and finally, at long last, we saw the chalets.

i feel exhausted just retelling all that.

while our nightmare was over, the worst was yet come. group 2 were still not back yet, after we had showered, cleaned up, and were preparing for dinner. we arrived at the chalets at almost 9 p.m., so the leader waited till 10.30 p.m. before calling the park rangers. the wife or something picked up the call.

we waited and waited till midnight. ate our instant noodles, and andrew made broccoli with tofu and mock abalone, which kicked ass. then again at that point of time fried grass would have been a delicacy. gorged down packets of nata de coco, and boiled tap water to drink.

in the end i gave in to exhaustion and went to sleep before everyone else. but each time i closed my eyes i saw vertical climbs with tree branches and roots to hold on to, and little else. i opened my eyes. closed them again, this time i slept with my knees bent up in my sleeping bag, so that the blood would keep flowing. because of the material of the sleeping bag, my legs slipped and i woke up with a jolt, thinking i was still on the mountain, slipping down clay and mud.

was woken up at near midnight, cuz the park rangers were there and they only spoke malay. explained the situation to them and they said search and rescue can only be done in the morning.

day 2

i woke up 3 times, once when suresh woke up and told me where the mouthwash and toothpaste was, again when suresh said that jason on the other group was back (he was carrying my backpack (cuz i was dying climbing uphill WITH it), which had all my stuff in it, like contact lense solution and passport and clothes) and pointed at my backpack, and the 3rd time at 10.30 a.m. where i woke up, showered, and changed into my new clothes. took out my contacts for a while, put them back on then off for breakfast.

ate bread with tuna and drank hot milo. and more nata de coco. packed up for good. the chalets were extremely sparse by the way. by sparse i mean no beds, tables, etc. just a chair, a mirror and toilet. cute.

cab back to KL finally arrived about 1 p.m., and with much relief we drove out of the forest and into the city. but the drive back was delightful, the entire stretch of villages built around the waterfall. i so do love village life.

reached KL about 2ish, and the hunt for the backpackers hostel began. finally ended up at Bollywood Hotel at 3.30 p.m. its really kitschy. north indian restaurant downstairs, complete with chandeliers and chiffoned ceilings. upstairs, hostels. rested for abit, showered, changed, then it was cab down to klcc. suresh did most of his shopping there, and i bought blue suede ballet flats to replace my demolished white ballet flats. dinner at A&W, which is always a joy. then cab down to petaling street, for another pair of shoes for me (blue again!), a pretty blue dress and a pair of sneakers for suresh. decided to call it a day and went back to the hotel.

day 3

woke up at 9ish, showered, and headed down to the nearby mall, the weld. suresh had coffee from starbucks, and then we bought DVDs. i got 2 tom & jerry classics, vol. 1 and 2. he got his dad a liverpool club DVD. it was an old one, so i wasn't keen. then it was cab down to sungei wang plaza were i finally got to do my bit of shopping. its like far east plaza i guess, so the clothes were cheap and nice. got shorts, another dress, and a blue tank top. walked around bintang walk for a bit, entered a bazaar where suresh got his mum a small handbag for RM12. i got a pair of glass frames for RM15 to be made into my new glasses since my old ones are all wonky.

then i decided that i wanted to get donuts before we go, cuz when we went to dunkin donuts at KLCC the night before there was only few left. asked around for the nearest dunkin donut and the general consensus was KLCC. none of the cabs wanted to take us down to KLCC with the meter on, they wanted flat rates. so what do we do? we walk. KLCC was a good 1.2 km from Bintang Walk but we walked. if we can climb uphill for 1.425 km, we can walk flat land for 1.2k, no sweat. we were rewarded by a glorious view of KLCC, where we snapped a few pictures. then it was into the mall, dunkin donuts, a cup of sprite, and cab back to hotel.

the funny bit would be when we were climbing the overhead bridge to get to pudu bus terminal and i saw dunkin donuts. hahahaha. and we actually walked 1.2k to KLCC. hur.

checked out of the hotel at 3 p.m., and lunched at a nearby stall. tom yam chicken, kangkong belacan, and suresh, predictably, had ROTI CHANAI/ prata. -________-

go on to the bus at 4.30 p.m., and home bound we were.

it was a great holiday, despite the climb. the climb was difficult to say the least, but i made it, and i think i can take pride in that. i never knew i had it in me to push on the way i did. i was truly desperate for home, any sort of home, a roof, anything. surviving that trek made me realize how i often don't push myself to my very limits, choosing instead to do the bare necessities. that said, i don't think i'm climbing any mountains anytime soon.

it definitely brought me and suresh closer. initially it was frustrating to keep falling and sliding when your boyfriend is right next to you but i figured there's little he could do aside from carrying me. we worked together, and he pushed me on, tried to talk to me about comfortable beds and good food and the shopping in KL to distract me from the nightmare i was in.

climbing up and down nuang made me realize how much fear i have. i have always considered myself rather fearless, blindly jaywalking, shooting off my mouth, not giving much heed or care to general safety and such. but that high up, i realized i had so much fear to face. while walking on the paths, i feared falling on either side, of the path, resulting in me rolling down the cliffs endlessly. i feared falling face forward while climbing down. i feared my feet sliding and me falling on my butt, sliding forward and have my head hit a stone and my skull cracked open. excuse the graphic nature of this paragraph but this is the truth. i had so much fear. the fear of the forest at night. the fear of getting lost and never making it out. the fear of falling down the waterfalls during the waterfall crossing.

but i learnt that fear is a good thing. fear made me wary, made me extra careful. i chose to squat and slide rather than stand and walk when i knew my shoes couldn't get a good grip on the wet clay. fear brought me home in one piece.

i also have newfound respect for mountain climbers. yesterday i saw rhe trailer for a national geographic documentary of mount everest. and i could not imagine what its like to climb something that high with such unpredictable conditions. and one man said, "of course there is fear. if i don't have fear i won't be here. fear helps take you home to your family and friends."

i am truly exhausted still, and though i've uploaded pictures, i need some time to resize them and such. so they would come later. for now, i'm just glad i'm home.

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

off we go!

i'm packed and ready to go! my backpack is huge but light. huge thanks to 1x towel and 1x sleeping bag, light thanks to general content of... clothes. :D

i might come back with sleeping bag in hand instead of backpack, if i actually do as much shopping as i wish to do. haha!

i would probably be generally incommunicado till i reach KL, which is thursday. i'll try to blog from there if i spot an internet cafe on my break from shopping. :D till then, toodles!

today is gonna be the day.

yay! today i leave for the trekking/ mountain climbing trip. gunung nuang! :D google for pics, though i didn't find any of the view from the summit. ho humm.

and and and i got called for an interview the job that i reaaally want! but they want to do the interview tomorrow, so i told them i'll be out of the country till friday, and maybe saturday would be good. they said to let them know when i come back then they'll rearrange. YAY! i like. working with kids, whee.

yesterday was total clearance of PGP rooms and then beach road for my sleeping bag, whistle and torchlight. i better get a good lunch/ dinner before departing. oooh maybe i can get donuts from the dunkin donuts at larkin before boarding too. mmm.

i like my sleeping bag. its electric blue and quite thick and cost $12. :D

i need to start packing. so scary. cuz all my clothes are in boxes and i so do not want to trawl through them right now. but no choice!

the nehneh hasn't replied my text message. is he asleep?

Monday, May 07, 2007

starry, starry night.

oh what a pretty, pretty day.

nieces' birthday at noon.

birthday girls. born the same days, both 3, but so different already.

family love.

then it was cab home, a change of clothes, and a drive to the favourite park. wore the dress i bought in melbourne. red and flowers. how un- me, yes? met maya and husni at the park, where she passed me yummyyummy brownies which according to her were unsuccessful. if you ask me i think that girl sets extremely high standards. the brownies were pretty fab, especially when suresh got haagen daaz's macadamia nut ice cream at interval. brownies with ice cream, such love.

the play itself was great. i wasn't looking for theatrical brilliance, but more of a good time, a good laugh, and great acting. and i got all that. the set itself was extremely creative and highly original, loved the raised platform across the green. cuz if it had just been a stage set in the front then why have it in the park, no? and i love the neon green baubles, neon orange slides, lit- up fairies flitting about. absolute assault of every senses and i enjoyed every moment.

it was absolutely delightful, from the food to the play to the company. even the sky cooperated, and i got to see my favourite sky- colour that only fort canning park has. its at dusk... a dirty purple streaked with blues and blacks and other hues, making it look like a mystical kingdom from elsewhere. gorgeous.

and i love you for buying me those tickets. thank you so much nehneh!

alrighty then, catch up on CSI from 2- 5 a.m. then its sleep. tomorrow i move out of pgp for good. whee!

Sunday, May 06, 2007

so how?

when was the last time i blogged? feels like yonks anyway.

finished one book, resisted buying anything at vivocity (always a surprise), snapped 36 popcam shots in a day and printed them out, ate good food, spent good bumming time with the nehneh, and the best is yet to come; nieces galore tomorrow noon, and then in the evening, a sweet surprise from the nehneh: two tickets to a midsummer night's dream at fort canning park. loveleh.

today was packing up of rooms, all my clothes are back here with me, and what's left to clear in pgp would be stationery and cushions, chair, i dunnowhatelse. monday we finish clearing and we check out. then tuesday night we leave for gunung nuang! how excitingableesque.

by the way, i'm planning to buy a couple of jelly shoes. i.e. th

ese:

they are absolutely loving to my feet, so i don't mind buying a few in different colours cuz they're cheap and i only wear flats anyway. i'm planning to order from here, and as stated, there will only be meet- ups for 5 pairs and above. or else, shipping costs $2- $3.80. of course there's no need to skint on just $3.80 but since i'm already getting 2-3 pairs and my mum might be getting a pair as well, we might as well save on shipping, no? so anyway interested, tag! (i might also be getting a pair (or two! haha) from here. as shown, courier service charge of $4 regardless of no. of shoes, so again, we can share shipping costs! we can have it couriered to your place or mine, then we can meet up or something, anything. :)

shopping news aside. anyone with a room to rent out, ideally unfurnished, preferably air- conditioned and near clementi/ dover area (SCHOOL!), please let me know. budget of $300/month MAX.

i'm testing out the powers of my blog into getting me 1) a roof over my head and 2) shoes. :D and please don't bother asking why i'm renting etc etc. if you don't know, then chances are i don't see why you need to know, so i lazy to explain. okay? unless you got what i want (i.e. room to rent out!), then we'll talk. hur.

football talk is on the uprise. i babble football to everyone, fans or non- fans. its a bit crazy. i should stop. but how can i, when liverpool are through to the finals? after beating chelsea on penalties, no less. and how can i shut up, when MANCHESTER UNITED has decidedly lost against AC Milan, allowing a perfect repeat of Istanbul 2005? how can i, when i forsee 6 stars on the next Champs League jersey?

i'm also looking for part- time jobs, but this might be pushing it. besides i've been sending out my resume all over. something's gotta give, no? might stand better chance next week on, since i can't start immediately, with the kl trip and all that. which reminds me, i ought to make my mom's day preparations before i leave. busy busy!

its fun to be busy during the holidays. NOT when exams are near. especially not when the busy- ness is caused by readings. EEK.

i love the book i just finished. then again i always love my books. lazy eyes, by donna daley clark. ah to read non- academic work. who says intellectual reads = academic crap? i get tired of academic crap at the end of each sem, never leaves me stimulated and craving for more. call me shallow but i think a truly intellectually invigorating piece would have me wanting more, no? the only sorta academic stuff i don't mind reading are philosophers, kafka, other eastern european stuff. but i do go on.

i have two dilemmas: what to wear to nieces' birthday party and what to wear to play. but i am excited nonetheless. what to bring for picnic? i'm thinking sandwich. or cupcakes. mmm.

maya! if you have any leftover baked goodies gimme a ring tomorrow/ later before 5ish. i can pick em' up from you and have a merry delectable picnic in the park. :)

okay. i think i've talked enough. i'm not yet off to bed, maybe some cartoons to lull me to slumber, and start on a 2nd book to give me something to look forward to. ah wordswordswords. love it.

Friday, May 04, 2007

blubberblubberpantsonfire.

today began with going back to school (!!!!) to print out indemnity forms for nuang trip next tuesday. climb mountains! whoopee! my first step to becoming spiderwoman. I AM SERIOUS.

the group looks good, me and the neheneh knows a guy in the group and he seems nice. and and and they're planning to extend the trip (some of them) so that we get to spend a day (or two) in KL! cuz at the moment the trip is basically depart tuesday night, climb moutain wednesday morning, sleep at foothill wednesday night, KL on thursday then bus back home at noonish. so now we're planning to go back friday or saturday instead, so i just might get my shopping done! whoopee!

chant with me! CLIMB MOUNTAIN! CLIMB MOUTAIN! CLIMB MOUNTAIN!

after that we went back to PGP cuz... i needed to change my shoes. whoever said jelly shoes are THE most comfortable things in the world obviously have not met my havaianas. such gentle loving lime green creatures. :D

oh and we also went back cuz nehneh had brought along an UMBRELLA. which wouldn't really be a problem if it was just school and back home; but we were headed for town. and no, no long apek umbrellas allowed in town (at least not near me). yes i am shallow like that. kental okay, umbrella. i remembered me and imran laughed at a certain friend of ours after he alighted from the train back when we were still together, cuz we were both suppressing our laughter for the longest time... he was carrying a long umbrella. "so orbit!" aiya, bitchy i know, but pet peeve la. what to do.

so after ditching the brolly and changing my footwear (also ended up changing my top, bloody humid day it is), we headed to town. went to far east, where he got his hair cut at pointer's for $14. and its nice! i like it. oh oh on our way to the hair salon i saw a girl with EXACTLY the hair style i want! i came THIS close to chopping my hair off. but i am a wise, rational, thinking person, and i decided that as much as i want to do something RADICAL to my hair (quarterlife crisis?), i also know i want to graduate with waist- length hair even more. PLEASE DON'T ASK ME TO EXPLAIN THIS. cuz i'm about to! heh.

actually nothing much to explain; except that i've always imagined myself in the graduation gown with long waist length hair. its a childhood dream. so leave me be la. stop asking me why! the way i see it, i'd look ugly enough in the sack, the least i could do is have nice hair.

oh, you can also blame felicity for this. no she didn't actually graduate with her crazy curls, but she went to NYU with them, and i love NY (and NYU for that matter) and i love keri russell. so there. no logic whatsoever. PAH! i toss logic aside, dethrone it from its undeserved pedestal in my cerebrum and condemn it to the lower echelons of humanity.

so i decided that i can still do something radical to my hair without cutting it! for example, i can get streaks. like just 2 or 3 in certain strategic places such that it will show only when i want it to. i.e. fringes, lower bit of hair near the scalp. and right now, i'm thinking turquoise. because before i changed out of my non- humid friendly clothes and non- feet friendly shoes, i was in turquoise cardigan and turquoise jelly shoes. tadaa! once again, absolutely NO logical connections made! LOVE IT!

this idea is still in discussion. similar to the topic of pixie hair cut (which will so happen after graduation, probably the same day), you may cast your votes/ tell me what you think/ tell me how crazy you think i am in the ever friendly tagboard to your right. thank you!

so where was i? oh yes, haircut. so after his haircut which i loved, he went to the loo (LOO! how pishposhtishtosh and OH HOW I MISS SAYING THAT WORD) to change out of his hairy tee and i went into the cutest shop in the world. inqbox. AND!

TADAAAAAAAAAAAA! I BOUGHT MYSELF A PRESENT!

pop cam! cheaper than lomos. besides its good practice. it takes a while to get the hang of these spontaneous by nature gadgets, and once i do, then lomos would be a more worthy investment. was initially torn between this pop cam and the quad cam. they had the platinum edition one, which is pretty but doesn't produce the quad shots in 4 colours like the pop does. and thus, my colourful personality had no choice but to go with the colourful camera. :D

happy happy happy! been wanting to buy a lomo for the longest time, and though this ain't a lomo, its close to one and if i love it, then i can better convince myself to buy a lomo. cuz right now the price is an issue, hur.

imagine the pictures i can take! whee!

so after that nehneh left and tagged banana in. yes, met the banana finally. actually i kinda like this job of yours; the hours are darn convenient!

we browsed around the same shop for a bit, got hungry, and went to eat at veri good, which is the shop that took over constant craving :( the decor and interior are exactly the same and it made me sad and a wee bit wistful. actually a few things made me wistful today but i shan't go there. not now at least.

anyway when i asked the lady if it was halal she said the supplier is halal... so what isn't halal? according to farhana, the chef isn't. rrrrrrrright.

so, at long last, FOOD PICS! man i miss these. and because i am sooooooo free and soooo liberated (read previous post), i even had poems to go with it! wootwoot. at some point i ran out of ideas, and you can probably tell. hurhur.

mine. grilled lemon dory with ~~mini- trees~~broccoli and boiled carrots. i liked it, but it could do with more a more buttery sauce and more more more lemony flavour.

her's. i didn't taste it but she's the one who frequents the place so i guess its pretty good. all i can say is be careful when you poke the chicken for the first time, it squirts CHICKEN JUICE! according to farhana its oil, but i say CHICKEN JUICE!

toldja.

went to subway after that for her cookies, F21 for some disappointing window- shopping, topshop to save our soul from hating shopping forever and ever more, and then off to taka. kinokuniya for non- existent lomos (they're at page one now!) and zara for more soul- searching. i had quite a disaster with hangers today. its a conspiracy. all hangers are against me, but i shall defy you! nothing will stop me from buying those clothes hanging off you, nothing!

i got hungry (?????) so it was BK for a kid's meal and fries and orange juice for her. and i got this!

caught spidey3 yesterday. pretty darn good and pretty damn long too. but it was all good, i bought the tickets as a surprise for the nehneh who's been a solid rock for me throughout the maddening exam period.

i also have a hot wheel toy car from the mac's happy meal. i've decided on one happy meal a week for this holidays! TOY COLLECTION WHOO HOO!

over BK we reminisced secondary school days. we saw a guy from secondary school i used to have a crush on outside forever21 (SHAME ON YOU, PLACE WHO KILLED MY LOVE OF SHOPPING!). he looked hotter. HOO. so anyway that got us talking. i had a crush on him in sec. 1... then i tried to remember who i liked in sec. 2. and i couldn't recall. "eh, i didn't like anyone in sec. 2!" which is really quite a miracle. and of course, there's no such things as miracles.

"yessss. you like that sec. 4 guy."
"OH MY GOD YAAAAAAAA HAHAHA THE ONE I STALKED HOME AFTER SPORTS DAY!"

hahahaha. hey i'm SHARING my pathetic teen days okay, so bear with me. anyway it was sports day and i wanted to pass him something, i think, and so i followed him home. AND FARHANA FOLLOWED ME. for the record, he cycled back so it was quite near. and anyway i had already knew where he lived by then, thanks to multiple reliable sources *cue james bond music*. so ya. ANYWAY HE CYCLED BACK. so kental my god what was i thinking.

conversation quickly turned to our favourite boy to lampoon and he shall remain anonymous for the sake of... everything good and pleasant. haha. but mannnnn his mooooves were so over the top. why farhana why! why didn't you stop him! why didn't you say NO ABCDE NO! DON'T DO IT! SHE'LL HATE IT! i still think you could have kicked him in the balls, just to emphasise how WRONKWRONKWRONK his idea was. i will forever hold you to blame for the shame i bear on that day. and how CONVENIENT, you were sick the day of my Great Embarrassing Moment as Orchestrated By a Dozen of Boys & Roses AND 1 Ring.. a.k.a. GEMOBDBRI.

was already making our way back when conversation steered towards more pressing issues. and i'm glad we had the talk. i didn't know things were that bad but i'm here la, if you feel like ranting. think about it all, and do what you need to do okay? i'll be supporting you the whole hog. just don't base your decisions on the wrong thing. and have faith that things will turn out right by itself (rules of entropy/ self- organisation!) and even if they don't seem that way, in time you will know it all happens for a reason. :) let's hope it doesn't rain sunday yea?

i've cricked my neck. i was happily blogging away when a cockroach FLEW INTO MY ROOM FROM THE WINDOW AND I AM LIVING ON THE 9TH FLOOR SO YOU KNOW THIS IS A BLOODY POWERFUL COCKROACH NOT TO BE MESSED WITH. so it flew in, rested on my door, flew out to the next door (which was fortunately closed), and as i gently tiptoed out of my room, i asked my mum for the insecticide. just as i closed my door, it FLEW and so *I* flew. seriously, i was away from that door and down the steps to the living area in 2 seconds. mum did her spraying thang, cockroach got giddy, flew around for a bit, flew TOWARDS me at some point of its drunken sojourn causing more flying and leaping about. its dead now, apparently, and as per usual, because she did the killing, the cleaning up is my job. we have a system- i kill, she picks up, and vice versa. this is probably the first time in 10 years she killed first, cuz it has always been me. but it was a FLYING COCKROACH so excuse my trauma.

so yes, i believe i cricked my neck at some point of time during my leaping about. tsk.

anyways. TV time! cable is back after a 2 day break. why? i don't know and i don't care. i'm just glad its back, timely too. now much love to all, especially those with last papers tomorrow. all the bestest and whoopee! soon you'll be me too! without the cricked neck of course. someone suggested i get a pogo stick cuz i am beyond walking now. the happiness that comes when exams end... absolutely beeyootiful, as gana would say.

i don't usually say it, but i love you lei.

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

WACAAAAA!

YAKDISH!

take that NUS. byebye school! byebyebyebyebyebye.

overrrrrrrrrr overrrrrrrrrr overrrrrrrrrr.

generally incoherent but you get my point. FINITO AZREBERGANZA!

i might not have much to do but the thought that i CAN do whatever i want now is veryveryvery liberating.

and yes, in the words of my idol (hur) janice dickinson,

its O-V- OVAH!

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

suresh is innately gay.

Your Inner Gender is Male

You are rational, matter of fact, and quite dominant.
You like to get things done, without any emotional messiness.
You truly don't understand most women. And you definitely feel more comfortable around men.
No doubt about it. You're a guy - at least on the inside.

What's Your Inner Gender?

think about it.

(and then again the sociologist in me (and in some of you too, i bet) goes up in arms saying these tests are based on socially constructed gender norms that seek to impose hegemonic patriarchal ideals onto females so that they can be continuously oppressed! AND sexuality is a social construct too, a tool of the state to repress diversity, therefore homosexuality is also a social construct and thus not something to be discriminated against or made fun of!)

being a sociologist is tiring stuff.

SO CLOSE! SO CLOSE TO THE END! SOOO.SOOO.CLOSEEEE.