being obscure clearly.

Thursday, September 28, 2006

what i've been up to of late

i'm gonna upload my retarded looking cake in a bit. along with other random shots. but unphotographed moments include going to arab street to buy material for hari raya baju kurung with mum, going through the kampong glam bazaar, feeling dissapointed, took a train down to paya lebar and absorbed the atmosphere at the authentic hari raya bazaar- geylang rock balls y'all.

i love the material we got but i also love the cheap black readymade baju we got from the bazaar! and the cheap white nyonya kebaya tops we got. sadly despite attempts to buy different colours, we both got black bajus and white kebayas. sheesh. but i love the first day outfit! can't wait to see it finished.

so yesterday night was nokia starlight cinema; american dreamz. parody of american idol, satire of america- good laughs all around. 2.30 a.m. was fantastic liverpool game; crouch and his whoa momma bicycle kick! earlier today was soccer training, then break fast at holland v delifrance. and now i'm back at pgp lounge and will attempt to do readings. phew.

sporadic blog posts due to midsem break- was home tuesday and yesterday night, will be home tomorrow night as well. tomorrow i will be off to the expo for the natas travel fair, hopefully i'll get some cheap- ass flight to melbourne. :D btw, suresh can't make it melb this year so ANYONE else who wants to go melbourne this december feel free to join me! really- this IS free frag. i'm fine travelling alone, afterall dizzie will be meeting me there. but a bunch of girls travelling will be just as fun. SARA if you read this- LET ME KNOW.

well not much else- pictures!

suresh's surprise party.

arghhhhhhhh mutant cake! hahahah

tallest indian i've met! macho mustache okay.

random beach shots from some beach trip some time back.

trip to town for some... shopping? eh no. oh last lunch together.

a good enough reason to go melbourne.

i misseth you!

time to savour the new paper and the pages dedicated to liverpool's game. won't be blogging till sunday i would think. i think i'm finally weaned off my blog. WOW! yeah okay so anyway. i suck at soccer when i'm fasting. bah.

a part of me hope i've grown up since... since last time, but a part of me know better than to think i have and start believing i'm all that.

i suddenly remember my 13th birthday, mum and banana had a surprise party for me and among those in attendance were trackmates; yana and bedah. i remembered what they wrote in the card- "you're a year older now, so grow up!" i'm sure it was meant in jest but this is coming from bedah the senior and yana the one who was too matured to hang around me and banana. they were the 'matured', together girls, all ready for boyfriends and 'serious' things (whatever serious things were at 13 -_-) while me and banana were still contented singing off- tune, dancing in streets and shrieking at dumb scary movies. we hit boys who bullied us and played rough like the boys did- we were not the pretty pair standing in the corner all calm and collected like the mature 13/14 yeard olds we were supposed to be.

and now we're still like that. we're still not that matured, together, calm and collected duo standing in the corner dissing the silly kids. we're the silly kids still. and i think so what? we are stable- at least according to us. we've been through shit, serious or not is subjective. and if at 21 we're still happier silly- then so be it. i'm glad i didn't allow stupid hints to immaturity and silliness etc stop me in my stride of... well, silliness. i am happy where i am. i'm still not collected enough to avoid dumb horror movies, still not calm enough to not shriek at scary movie scenes, still not 'together' enough to not want to follow fighting couples down orchard road or indian construction workers rushing seemingly to a fight- but turned out to be late for their movie. maybe i'm none the wiser, but i'm glad i didn't see growing up as being quiet and solemn and serious about the world. the world is serious enough as it is. if being silly is the way i can have fun the way i know, then who cares? happiness is fleeting enough without having limitations to attaining it.

alrighty then. enough yammering. nights.

Monday, September 25, 2006

i've been in the basement 1 tv room since 10ish this morning and it has just dawned upon me now;

WHY THE HELL AM I WATCHING SESAME STREET?!?!

and secondly,

WHAT THE HELL IS RUBBEN STUDDARD DOING SINGING ABCs ON SESAME STREET?!!?

i can't decide who's life is sadder, mine or his.

but at least i had a nice long bus ride from holland village this morning. 200, passing through kent ridge park, all green and cold morning breeze, dewy and nice. pretty pretty morning today's was.

off to town to meet the nehneh who in classic dingdong fashion; forgot his transponder when he came back to pgp this morning; so after our holland v jaunt he was off for home to take it, then SMU to meet buncha boys for lunch. now i am off to town to meet him, and maybe play my much- missed AIR HOCKEY! whee!

okay, hady mirza should win singapore idol cuz he sings better but jon should win sg idol cuz 1. he WILL be a better regional star (come on, we're more china than indo- malay, plus taufik exhausted the malay market liao) and 2. if 2 malays win both sg idols when the other finalist was chinese, we just might have a racial riot. so for the sake of racial harmony, vote for jon!

i am not voting because i can find better things to do with my 60 cents. :D add 20 cents can buy coke from vending machine!

wahlao elmo and a bunch of kids are telling an adult what to do. mr. noodle/ noodo/ nooboo/ whatever is such a moron.

Sunday, September 24, 2006

okay i've decided to be an obliging singaporean and give a play- by- play of singapore idol!

ROUND 1!

jonathan is wearing a bling- bling brooch in the shape of a musical note. cute/ gay. okay. so jonathan is singing some pseudo- indie band (snow patrol?) song, chasing cars or summat. okay... no off- pitches, no flaws. but no wow factor also. rather easy song to sing, no? didn't really show off his vocals. then again i don't know what he's capable of, i haven't been watching. dick has just said "i got nothing to say." hahaha. not bad performance and agree with flo- he does have a unique voice. ken is talking... and saying... something. umm yeah. these judges bit confuse me.

okay. hady mirza. george michael's song. wah damn upbeat ah his opening. i'm distracted by the bouncing metal beads at his uhh... crotch area. okay FOCUS. from the opening song can tell the very diverse styles of these two- but i think jon sang better. hady is sounding a bit flat to me but umm he makes up for it with the energetic vibes. tough song, i think. dick had a vision about hady singing this, flo says he's a performer with a capital P, ja is not going to judge him at all and she loves him (and hady loves her too!), ken thinks he looks and sounds like a star, but he wants hady to be more inspirational.

seems that the judges think he sang well. so maybe i'm going a little deaf.

while waiting for round 2, i shall share the happenings of my weekend. friday was tutorial then shopping at bugis. and hey, daniel just took my line! "round 2, ding ding!" kepo. humph. anyway yes bugis shopping was successful for me (was it for you, nana and apol? hehe) i got 3 dresses! nehneh got for me dresses! $15- $32. not bad la. we saw $89.90 dresses lor like -_-. might as well buy topshop. but anyway, back to Sg idol!

ROUND 2!

you give me wings- THE original singapore idol song. let's see how cheesy it is. hahaha.

okay wow. damn cheesy. so hallmark!

eh okay la. i think i got no patience to blog each and every time they sing. if nice never mind. okay only la. i am rooting for the orchestra cuz my freshie anne is playing in it! yay!

okaybye.

Thursday, September 21, 2006

why is there no songs on water bottles?

i just realized today that i had left my beloved liverpool water bottle at brekos holland v last sunday when i went there to watch the match. i am now mildly depressed, unable to concentrate on my paper and am at risk of breaking down into tears every 10 seconds.

when i first realized it i cried. then i ate waffles and drank coke and got busy with school and forgot then when i sat down to work on tomorrow's paper i remembered again and i cried. it is pathetic in its most manifest form but i can't help it, i get attached to inanimate objects. examples of previous objects giving way on me and hence resulting in tears include nike soccer boots, iBook, sentosa monorail, shoebag, shoes, a dress, and i can't remember much else.

and while some might see this as shallow (get attached to material things- tsktsk!), allow me to explain myself. i get attached to inanimate objects because unlike humans, they can't intentionally hurt you, they don't leave you.

and ironically even when they do die on you like humans do, its still alot easier to love the inanimate for at the very least, they are replaceable.

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

5.00 a.m. post! whee!

wireless is EXCELLENT in the basement. i repeat: logic cease to exist in NUS. wireless is LOW in my room which is level 4. -_-

internet still not fixed, financial aid still not here. pfft.

i am doing my lit paper due thursday cuz i have another due friday which fortunately is 500 words only but still. i am damn stoned now. stoned temple pilots whoo!

paper is for understanding irony, one of my usp mod. i am writing on a calvin and hobbes comic strip and arguing how in this comic irony is used to parody society and hence it becomes a social satire. as you can tell, it is a very putarbelit argument and i am hence terribly mindfucked and i feel like someone had just shot me in the head and upon picking up the mess of my dribbling brain mass i began typing my paper.

i doubt that one made sense. i have stopped typing my paper with about 1.5 paragraphs to go cuz 1, i am going to exceed the word limit (what's new) and 2, i am beginning to talk nonsense.

so where else can i talk nonsense freely without being graded by a mean oppressive maniacal prof? HERE! (sidenote: none of my profs are as described okay)

oh. today, no wait YESTERDAY, was nehneh's birthday! yes, we're both virgoans, our birthdays are exactly 14 days apart. so if my birthday falls on a tuesday, so will his. kinda makes september a fun but also very broke month hurhur.

so what do broke girlfriends do? bake cake and plan surprise (potluck) party. :))

eh but he was surprised and happy okay. which is importants sangatsangat (veryvery). my cake which, as i told joshua via sms, "i have succeeded in baking the most vile- looking birthday cake ever. if my cake was human it'll be a fugly one with elephantitis and flesh- eating virus". something like that la. basically it looked like it was going to explode.

OH! haahahahahah.

okay laughing to myself. is not good. i am alone. :\

anyway ya. ish i got so many jumbled up thoughts i feel like i should make a point- form draft before blogging it but WHATEVER LA HOR.

anyway since it was a SUPLIIIIIIIIIIIIIISE! i had to lie to sulesh and said that the whole world was asleep/ studying/ non- existent and we're going kgourmet for desserts after he returned from dinner with his parents. whereas in fact 10 people or so were waiting with my deformed cake etc at the bbq pit near my block. earlier after class i went to the supermarket to get eggs, milk etc. he didn't know this la.

so why i LAUGHED (ish i talking like indian right go round and round hahahahahaha) was because i also bought umm. that pom- pom thing. not cheerleaders pompom la the crackers is it? no not the eating one. AIYA WHAT DO YOU CALL IT?!!??! never mind. i also cannot remember.

so when i was about to reach the pit where they lay in wait, i actually smsed joshua "use the explosives".

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

fierce kan? fierce lor! if authorities screen our text messages confirm just now the singapore swat team come to PGP bbq pit 1 to find out who is this terrorist hahahaha.

i think not funny already. its only funny cuz its 5.14 a.m. and i am high on caffeine and lack SLEEP. o_O

so anyway the explosives is the thing you pull the string and it explodes and lots of colourful paper shitcrap comes out. aiya. explosives la okay.

so ya. that was why i laughed to myself. tsk.

hahah then right got one more!!!! hahahahahaha.

cuz must chope the bbq pit la since i didn't book it (boredin: did you book the pit? fiza: uhh no? boredin: ok best) so i waited there first while the rest came. then a guy carrying a physics textbook ambled by and glanced at me, my deformed cake, and sat at the bench at our CHOPED pit.

fiza: umm hi are you planning to study here? cuz we're kinda gonna have a birthday party here so it might be a little noisy.
physician: oh okay. umm... *looks around*
fiza: oh you can go to the other pit my friends just left that one (hahaha cuz they choped that one earlier when the one we wanted was taken).
physician: *looks incredulously at this girl happily telling him where to go* (which i must admit was damn cock of me but uhh i am very efficient, cannot help it)
fiza: umm ya.
physician: *gains confidence and looks at me cockily* DID YOU BOOK THIS PIT?!?!?!
fiza: uh no la. did YOU?

then he walk off! HAHAHAHAHAH I WIN HAHAHAHAHA YAY YAY YAY.

siao lor. if he really did pay $10 to book the bbq pit so as to study physics in an outdoor environment i will gladly give him the pit AND my deformed cake lor.

wah my neck damn pain. lucky tomorrow no class. i am so stoned now. stoned temple pilots!

oh yes. pictures have to wait cuz i am downstairs so obviously photos in my camera upstairs in my room so ya. not much also la, too busy eating and making fun of people. so fun bully people hahahhaaha.

ooooh i think today i am feeling extra prissy! okay yesterday not today. cuz coming down from the shuttle bus from pgp, all these idiots were rushing up the back door WHILE there were still people coming down. suresh went down and shouldered a guy coming. the guy actually stopped on the steps to let him pass. dingdong lor! just go down and wait can. not like the bus going to speed off while there's still people getting OFF! bah.

then after suresh went down, this girl was trying to come up. WAH LAO EHHHHH. i want to go down can. so i said, "UMM EXCUSE ME, THERE'S STILL PEOPLE COMING DOWN NOW SO CAN YOU ALL PLEASE JUST WAIT?"

hahaha so mean. aiya whatever la. this kind of people how to be nice? they get shoved also they shove back. anyway i said nicely. i said magic word!

oh well. i need sleep. i think i have been sufficiently funny tonight. uh now. this morning? anything la. its been a while since i was funny. hhahahhaa.

okay i need sleep. bye!

Monday, September 18, 2006

shitlosophy

since the wireless has decided to work for these few minutes, i shall impart some of my brilliant knowledge. because old people always say got good things must share. or something like that. you'll thank me later when your kids are made to read fiza's philospohy of life, shit and other relevant matters in school and YOU their cool ass parents know what they're talking about cuz hey, you read it here first. *cue for tongue click and finger pointing gesture* i'm the next socrates/ seneca/ whathaveyous.

suresh says:
i'm very hungry nehneh gf

fizusthemissus: being a Liverpudlian hath taught me patience says:
i very full!
fizusthemissus: being a Liverpudlian hath taught me patience says:
i shat. :D

suresh says:
hahaha
suresh says:
why am i not surprised
suresh says:
and you seem very happy about it too

fizusthemissus: being a Liverpudlian hath taught me patience says:
hahaha
fizusthemissus: being a Liverpudlian hath taught me patience says:
good mah
fizusthemissus: being a Liverpudlian hath taught me patience says:
shit is good

suresh says:
shit is smelllyyyy

fizusthemissus: being a Liverpudlian hath taught me patience says:
everyone's shit is smelly
fizusthemissus: being a Liverpudlian hath taught me patience says:
god is fair
fizusthemissus: being a Liverpudlian hath taught me patience says:
u pretty or u smart or u ugly or u tall also
fizusthemissus: being a Liverpudlian hath taught me patience says:
everyone's shit is smelly.

who else will impart you philosophy of shit at 1.30 a.m. if not me, the great one? roll your eyes all you want but someday you will thank me.

i watched the host at midnight last night with FARHANA BANANA PISANG bin mustapha fadjiar hahahaha. lots of stifled shrieks thence replaced by flailing hands (mine) and in- seat jumping (hers). also saw a drunk woman at the bus- stop while waiting for the night rider that looked like the host cuz she was lying down slumped, one hand dangling.

imagine, woman,

who looks like this (excuse my bad drawing and farhana if you read this, you must tag and say WAH IT LOOKS EXACTLY LIKE THE HOST!).

at 3 a.m.!!! you not scared meh!??! we damn scared lor. she sat behind us on the bus some more. dumb luck, as usual.

so other news is i just came back from holland village- watched the 2 games with soccer girls at brekos and coffeeshop. liverpool lost to chelsea, arsenal lost to man u; both by a goal each. prior to that was soccer training. now i am tired and sleepy and i got tutorial tomorrow at 10.

humbug.

oh and yes, internet still not fixed. thumbs up to the ever- efficient nus admin who, by the way, still has no disbursed the financial loans they promised. global university kepala hotak kau berjambul lah.

hmm hmm so angsty. eh tomorrow monday! get back film history paper. :\ shite. okay la i am obviously rambling as i go so i shut up now.

so whenever you feel someone else got it better, remember- everyone's shit is smelly.

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

first of all, i shall refrain from using semi- colons, lest i misuse it.

secondly, i think i won't be blogging much, not till i call up the rightful authorities to fix the network point which is not anytime soon. am blogging through wireless as i do my paper in school now. besides time away from MSN and general WWW has been doing me good.

and thirdly, there's nothing more to say. sometimes you go on and on and you hit a rut and you realize that maybe your entire life had been a fluke, a series of coincidences never borne of your own fate or hard work. and with so little reason to go on, frivolities has to wait. temptation is high to just sink underwater and never coming back up for air, but human resilience makes it so that the chance is higher you'd fight to live, than fight to die.

here i am. and i think, what's so easy about being happy?

I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
Ill find some peace tonight

Monday, September 11, 2006

fiza's 21st shindig; done-d

so how was the party? brilliant! not many turned up retro but suresh, mum and banana did so that's enough, innit? some were vaguely retro also la. haha. i must say the cake made all the psychedelic difference. why?

if that's not retro i don't know what is.

and don't forget the very cute truffles!

food aside (where MAYA should get ALL the credit!), the PEOPLE were great too. haha. prepare for photofest starting frommmm...

NOW!

and there's more!

me & nehneh- totally outfitted by the cheap lovin' arms of JAYBEE! :D

me & farhana being idiots. again.

me grimacing while they sang the all- too- embarrassing birthday song.

me & the one who made it possible.

corny happy pose. hahaha.

yesterday was good too, thai express dinner @ holland v with the nehneh, bummed in my room, then holland v again for supper with farhana at brekos. had white chocolate cake, MMM MMM! she also had a meaty baked potato and chocolate cookie frap. i got cinnamon+vanilla frap. yum. yammering while watching the westham game. good times, good times.

came back, did some readings, and crashed out post- middlesex. i'm on book 3! book 3!!! whee!

i'm using the internet in nehneh's room cuz mine is STILL down. doggone it. i don't WANT to wait for the computing centre people to come la. they take forever, they have no handphones and WALLA! they don't fix shit. there must be another solution. i'll think of something. till then i'll try to blog from school comps or something la.

okay i go do readings now. class at 2 only yay!

Friday, September 08, 2006

aye aye cap'n

internet is down in my ROOM specifically. i hate this network point business, has been causing me so much trouble, and it was fixed only recently! bahhh.

submitted my history response paper which was done by 12 a.m. last night. probably the most miraculously longest time period there is between time of completion and time of submission. 12 hours! yowza! whatever happened to good old ten minutes?

tomorrow is the parteyyh and I.AM.EXCITED.

i don't care if you're not but i AM! dress, heels, food food food and people and more food and cake and yummy yummy stuff. yay!

religion tutorial 12- 2 p.m. then some party preparation till 3ish. kgourmet lunch, i am ADDICTED to the teriyaki beef foccacia sandwich! its yummeh. if you guys are coming to my party tomorrow, you can order it if you want. hahaha.

post- late lunch was harbourfront to buy accessories and meet mum for my dress. polkadot earrings, yes? retro ABIS. haha. and i am in LOVE with this flipflops with the pink ribbons (in commemoration of the breast cancer campaign). 9.90 onlyyyy! i want.

mum bought a new top and got me a new skirt! she said its PART of my birthday present. heh heh heh. love it, so goddamn retro. it looks like the wallpaper at your grandma's old house; the one with mosaic tiles and metal grilles. heh.

dinner at harbourfront hawker; putu mayam sighting still ZERO. harumphhhh. had egg thosai and beef noodles; both shared with mum. bandung! the bandung there is NEON pink can.

will rest the rest of the night away; middlesex is getting interesting. lotion up, pink fleece pajamas (its raining, yay!) and read to sleep. :))

for those coming, see you tomorrow. for the rest, have a great weekend!

same axiom applies; weekend = home stay = no blogging. see you guys sunday then.

WHEE!

Thursday, September 07, 2006

500- words paper due this friday and one thick reading to be done by tomorrow's 2 p.m. class. lectures begin at 10 a.m.. soccer at 5 p.m. laundry to be transferred into dryer awaits in washing machine #20. i spent one whole hour perfecting my 74- words introductory paragraph which took me only 5 minutes to type.

mind- boggling.

analism, analness, analogy (hurhur). whatever you call it, its still awfully frustrating.

i have, what i will call, a rational O(bsessive)C(ompulsive)D(isorder). i am also the most optimistic of pessimists. i am also a giant pint- sized girl. i am all in all, a walking contradiction. a walking living aphorism. nietzsche would be proud. and is it a conspiracy that people with difficult to spell/ pronouce names must come up with brilliant theories/ prose/ philosophies and become extremely famous so that undergrads don't have that sufferable duty of quoting Toms, Dicks and Harrys for their papers?

okay i'm just lazy. can i pay someone to do my laundry? like maybe 20 cents. or a FREE sniff of my yummy apricot body wash. okay fine chocolates. can? please?

anyone..?

yes?

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

go shorty, its your birthday

woot woot! i have finally edited and uploaded photos. i've also slept a solid 9 hours from 3 a.m. to 12 noon. fwah.

so how was the birthday?

well, it started off BRILLIANTLY!

night of 4th, i was online msn- ing with a multitude of people and naturally, advanced birthday wishes etc came along. at 11.45 p.m. suresh said "brb" and i continued chatting online. moments later he called me to go to the lift lobby...

and there at the fire staircase he stood with a small sponge cake andandandand!

21 candles. :))

according to him, the auntie at the cake shop thought he was kidding.

suresh: i want 21 candles.
auntie: hahaha no la where can fit 21 candles. *gives cake with 1 candle*
suresh: no, i want 21 candles.
auntie: ah? cannot fit one lei! the cake so small!
suresh: never mind, i want 21 candles.

hurhur.

so a mini- birthday celebration was in its way.

first birthday song of the day and first candle- blowing out session!

and then we ate a slice each. prior to which, he gave me my PRESENT!

the iknowwhat'sinside face.

LIVERPOOL JERSEY AND SHOEBAG WHEE!

once all the excitement had died down, i spoke to my mum on the phone, went back online, thanked everyone who had msn- ed me birthday wishes, and replied to the bajillion midnight birthday wishes. thank you thank you thank you you all made me very very happy. :) i kept all of it and my handphone is now metaphorically bursting at the seams.

woke up in the morning for biodiversity class, to MORE birthday wishes. :)) went to school where i went up to everyone i knew (well enough, haha) and said, "hey it's my birthday today! wish me!" hahahaha. that was fun.

lunch was sliced fish soup in chatterbox with lots of laughter and freshie- bullying. heh heh heh. *rubs chin ala evil uhh character*

class again from 2-4 after which i tasted maya's yummy lemon squares. btw maya; my mum also like! she ask if you make kueh raya! hehehe.

more birthday wishes, it seems uncanny that i met a few people i never met since sem started. and all of them had to wish me happy birthday! and why wish happy birthday must shake hands one ah? hmm.

anyway so after school was a bus ride to not- so- secret- place already (because he had to tell me to get my share of vouchers); MINDCAFE!

had fried dumplings and black pepper crackers. played boggle, upwords, then decided on something less brainy.

UNO STACKO!

haha.

i won cuz i only dropped it once, he dropped it twice! the first one isn't captured but it was a gigantic collapse. so noisy! hahaha. but quite fun la. cuz i like to take this "draw 2" block and he has to draw 2 blocks instead of 1. the turn on which mine fell was when i made HIM draw 2, and since it didn't fell on his turn, it inevitable fell on mine.

happy nak termampus. err happy until can die?

after that was a walk down to Plaza Sing for dinner with...

the mum! (no not the president, i know istana beside only)

all 3 of us had, lo and behold,

pasta.

there was another BIGASS group celebrating their birthday. big as in the birthday boy was big, the group was big, the people in the group was big, so their birthday song everything also damn loud.

second birthday song and candle- blow out session!

the (only) mandatory group shot.

after that was general walk about the mall and bummed at macs for a bit. yakkety yak then this

and then home.

BUT all was not over! upon entering PGP via backgate we saw the group (windsor OG- freshies + seniors) playing basketball so we walked over to say hi. and WALLA! 3rd birthday song of the day. :D

played a bit of basketball, and went on even after it was dark. then bummed and yakked and yakked and then decided to go fong seng (thank you derek for driving!) for late late supper. yakked yakked until we figured some people have to get HOME and some people have class tomorrow and we FINALLY parted. but that was a brilliant end to my birthday. so thank you windsorians!

showered, checked mail, then slept to middlesex. fantastic brilliant maddeningly happy day. the standard keeps getting higher each year, and i wonder if murphy's law or some other screwed up law will ensure all this happiness will eventually blow up one day/ one year/ one birthday BUT i will leave that all aside for now cuz it has been BRILLIANT.

i have sent out more invites so everyone keep checking your emails ya. i am worried it will go to junk la. technology hath failed us so. sigh.

that said, thank you god, mum, suresh, farhana, dizzie, hafiz lim, gail, joshua, entire windsorians, razinah, kak zarina (! you remembered :)), hadi, zahry (if you read this), khairul phallic hehehe, laremy, shahira, maya, hana, ruz, izzati, nydia, nianlong, shamini (FROM DUBAI! :D), nassar and SO MANY other people who wished me well and the happiest birthday. it must have worked, cuz yesterday was brilliant. so thank you, thank you, thank you.

Baby's good to me, you know

She's happy as can be, you know

She said so

I Feel Fine; The Beatles

Monday, September 04, 2006

the end, it was the end

last day as a 20 year old. my mum asked if i was happy. i said yea, of course. she asked why. i said i don't know...

and she asked, "what la... what is it you're happy about? your studies, your relationship..."

and i said, "happy la. happy to be alive."

and that is why i am happy. its quite a good thing, this living business. i've quite enjoyed my 21 years alive.

so today was a day like any other. tutorials in the morning, thank god for husni cuz i know absolutely no one else in class. and it seems we're as dingdongy as each other and similarly blur about the module; so yay.

i was starved by the time class ended so it was shish kebab sandwich! WHOO WHEE! at business canteen. I AM IN LOVE. though the daging/ meat they give is very miskin (umm little), it is still RED MEAT. i've eaten enough FISH in NUS than there is in the pacific ocean.

then it was USP comp lab to type up a proposal and post on IVLE forum. i hate that goddamn thing. so mafan can.

class at 2- 4 then lecture 4- 5. muchies for early dinner; mushroom+vege baked pasta ROCK! another new yummy dish. super cheesy and fattening, the kind of food that makes you happy.

tuition from 7- 9. bit of gastric pain but its okay now. nothing good old milo can't handle.

now i am resting while the nehneh goes for his run. which i was supposed to join him for but this gastric has deemed me a temporary invalid, so i shall lie in bed and blog like the sickly person that i am. besides it won't do to be sick on my birthday, so i have the next 2 hours or so to recover. :D

response for the parteyhh is slightly better, but i could do with 8 more people. doesn't help that a multitude of seminars and talks are held this weekend too, from 9.30- 5.30 p.m. as such, i've extended it till 6ish so that those who can rush down after 5.30 can still grab a bite and bum. :)

am quite excited for tomorrow itself, cuz i have a new top, new bottom, new heels, and thanks to the bigbrasale, new bra to wear! how exciting! and i am meeting maya for lemon squares sampling. mmm. and there's lunch 12- 2 and then there's a plan- still- unknown- to- me- as- it- is- some- grand- masterplan- of- the- indian- boyfriend after class at 4. then yet ANOTHER grand- unknown- masterplan- by- the- same- indian- boyfriend involving my own MOTHER. my own MOTHER, scheming against me like that. tsktsk.

but well i want suprise i get surprise. see la. last year i complain about him TELLING me that he's buying me a jersey and just giving it to me in the Weston plastic bag he bought it in this year he tells me jackshit. pah.

many things to be grateful for; i'd list a few. a lovely home, with a lovely mum- who sent me this tonight:

"positive thinking: little bird flying in the sky, dropping bird shit in your eyes, don't be sad don't cry, be grateful that elephants don't fly!"

as i told suresh, "how am i supposed to be OKAY if my mum is like that?" but yes, she made me who i am today, and i have no regrets.

a lovely boyfriend/ friend/ tormentor (in politics and soccer)/ equal- 2nd birthday with me, AGHAST! thanks for good times. you are still smelly. :D

a hardly there but always remembered friend; farhana. oi. 8th birthday together. DAMN FIERCE CAN. *rawrrrrrrr* thanks for being there when i need you, without me asking. i owe you bigbig.

a faraway friend who was the first to wish according to australian time, DIZZIE! i miss you muchmuch and i wish and hope so much you could be there this saturday. is it too late to book a flight back? i DREAMT that you came okay! for my birthday! tsk. you're so much nicer in my dreams la.

many many other friends who needs no mention but know who they are. every year i have my own little mishaps but with you guys around, its that much easier to bounce back. so thanks.

thank you speech over. time to surf gossip blogs. hahaha.

a part of me hope i never grow up. i hope that i will always find gossip blogs funny, adore my nieces, love my cousins i grew up with so much, be excited about going to the wet market, love polka dots. i hope i will always hopelessly search for the good in everyone despite it all. i hope i will always be easily contented, easily amused, easily happy- cuz that makes living easier too. in short, i hope i never get old and jaded about life.

Smile again
As the world
Goes tumbling
There is
Nowhere
I would rather spend
These lazy crazy days
Than here
Nowhere

Nowhere; Aqualung

i shall hereby end with something by shakespeare...

I can no other answer make, but, thanks, and thanks.

Sunday, September 03, 2006

today i headed the ball, played some passing football, got whammed in the face and got in a few sliding tackles. :D

what's better than watching soccer is playing it. ahh.

and what's better than mugging to music, is mugging to The Beatles. who are, BTW, an entirely different CALIBRE from music.

2 days!

last 2 days of being 20. :D

weekend was great, though its not over yet. still got soccer later at 5.

so early saturday morning was train ride back home for both me and nehneh. reached home and a few hours later, it was bishan for the bigbrasale. there was enough bras to drown europe and enough people to start a new nation- state. and some girls were fainting from the heat/ exhaustion. like how more extreme can you get; shop for bras until you FAINT!

after that was cab down to bugis. lunch at this corner stall, Qi Ji. cheap and good food, i like! it had chee cheong fun the way i like my chee cheong fun to be, not the way woodlands banquet serves it, with rotting prawns. EW.

dorothy perkins with mum to look for HER retro top for my birthday party. tried on a few and in the end got a polkadotty white top. and due to that purchase, i hit 250 points and i've got a $10 topshop voucher! yay! so that's a borders voucher and a topshop voucher to spend on my birthday week. oh and a thai express voucher. mmm mmm.

i have professed my desires to blow out 21 candles on my birthday and suresh is now concerned as to whether there's a cake that can fit 21 candles but feed only 2 mouths. i suggested small candles. i'm so ingenious like that.

after dorothy perkins was accessories- shopping and me looking for my birthday heels. i had set my sights on this white one from prettyfit but we just looked around some more. and since none appealed, we went back there only to find out they don't have it in MY size. bahhh. to make up for the disappointment, i got myself that cheap esprit bag i saw at harbourfront. $7.90 only! haha.

so it was off to town, more shoes- hunting till i felt my eyeballs were beginning to roll about in my head and lo and behold, a retro pair of heels manifested before my eyes and we were done. dinner at dahlia where the cute old man is still cute but also oldER and then home.

couldn't do much readings for i was too sleepy. friday's jb roadtrip and saturday's shopping madcap was too much after thursday soccer and a whole week of school. i conked out on the sofa before 9 p.m., how's that for early.

response is still slow about the party and i'm tempted to just start inviting more people. problem with that will be: newly- invited people come AND invited people who DIDN'T RSVP also comes resulting in lack of food, space, etcetcetc = giant mofo of a migraine.

so PLEASE people if you have checked your mail, let me know if you're coming or not. it'll make my life alot easier. if you don't mind making my life alot easier. *insert angry face*

okay i have to go make my noodles now or risk throwing up at soccer later. oh and yes, hafiz lim etc anyone else in nus if you read this, i have a break 12- 2 on tuesday itself so if you wanna lunch, let me know. maybe you can bring me 21 candles! hahahahaha okay i'll shut up bout the goddamn candles.

what a hot sunday, again. must sundays always be hot? can't it be cloudy, or breezy? i won't ask for rainy cuz seemingly it only rain on mondays to add to the general depression which is the beginning of the week. even the weather is a conspiring little bitch these days. tsktsk.

Saturday, September 02, 2006

jaybee rocks!

bought a top, a bottom and flats. :)) altogether about 70SGD. okay la. i'm pleased.

i have to mug now or else next week i cannot celebrate my birthday. good night! have a good weekend!