being obscure clearly.

Friday, June 30, 2006

ho humm and a heidi- ho

these days i'm happy to stay at home and just keep my poor tooth company. if i go out, i risk eating something that might trigger the toothache, or forget to bring my meds and suffer the throb till i get home. so yes, i'm quite the homey one lately.

hence it is a very bright point of my day when at 6.30 p.m. i meet the nehneh at admiralty for some hot fudge sundae, iced milo, twister fries, such. today was iced milo and twister fries. to celebrate him finishing his job. yay! we might get to watch the portugal match at 11 pm tomorrow, if we're both up to it. yes, we're both sickly. how dingdongy.

but i wanna go bugis! i'm on a hunt for new school shoes. hehe. yes go back to school everything must be new mah. buang suey!

this sunday will be long- awaited date with zat. whoopee borders! can finally buy my july 07- june 08' diary too. whee whee whee. i am looking forward to that. maybe some window shopping might heal this tooth.

then monday to friday shall be spent lounging about and intermittently packing for the trip. saturday doth await. might be dropping by peejayc for abit though, since its past/present day. just meet the clan for a bit then i'll be off to chiang mai! yay! hotel got pool! yay! hahaha.

must dos

full bodeyyyyh massage
FOOT massage! (ya this is separate okay)
mani+pedi, whee! okay maybe not mani. coloured fingernails scare me. too much Sadako i tell you. but pedi, whee! i want colourful toenails i can show off with my flipflops!
buy cheap ass books from Geckos
EAT APPLE CINNAMON PANCAKES ARGHGHGHGHHGH
visit ceylonese tea place... ahh.
BRAIDS! maybe i should do full head braids? hmm... *taps chin*
go to the art shop built in a tree!
a potrait painting?
snap- happy!
eat ROTEE! its actually prata, but when you're in chiang mai everything taste better hurhur
avoid fried insects :\
SHOPPPPPPPPPPPP SHOPPPPPPPPP SHOPPPPPPPPPPP.
and maybe, visit elephuns. WHEE!

i shall once again, travel light, cuz obviously i am going to need the luggage space when i return. think i'll take my giant backpack that i bought in chiang mai for like what, $15? man i love that place. hahaha. time to re- learn all those thai phrases! one that really stuck with me seems to be, "hawng nam yuu thii naiiii?" in a pathetic desperate plea.

where's the toilet? hahahahaha. aiya what to do, weak bladder.

Thursday, June 29, 2006

to infinity, and beyond!

okay so that is not Superman but who cares? Buzz Lightyear flies too and he is one of my FAVOURITE superhero!

does he even count as a superhero? oh well. but i like him! but back to the point. i watched Superman Returns! i managed to successfully cast logic aside (though i faltered at one point; will get back to this point) and enjoyed the movie. well okay, so i laughed sometimes. cannot help it okay, there's only SO much logic i can ignore.

but okay la. it was quite cool. love the special effects, blablabla. i'm more of a Spidey/ X- Men fan, so apologies to S fans.

so okay i cast logic aside long enough except for at one point, when the island is forming and the whole freaking world/ country gets a complete black out, therefore no computers, no phones, no lights, no possible flights, LEX LUTHER'S HELICOPTER STILL CAN FLY! why!?!? must explain okay! if got EMF blackout then LEX LUTHER HELI ALSO CANNOT FLY!

phew. okay. it was quite tiring holding that back for the rest of the movie. was a pretty long movie.

wah but brandon routh is cute la. not bad. but my favourite character in the movie issssss...

RICHARD WHITE!

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. he is my favourite superhero liao like that. cuz he is also...

CYCLOPS!

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh so hemsem memsem.

okay so i got my period today which is FANTASTIC cuz i have a toothache as well- no really. i've got painkillers that the nurse has said, "you can take whenever you need" so yes! NO MORE PAIN!

i was going to write an entry on how i think pain tolerance has little to do with physical strength, but more mental and inner strength. and similarly, brute strength is different from physical, measurable strength. example; i may look small but i've carried weight heavier than myself, simply because i am too proud to ask for help. it IS possible. so there you go. more on that when i'm not woozy on pills.

well okay. so tomorrow's a friday which is yay! cuz 1. umm its friday, 2. suresh finishes work, 3. THERE IS SOCCER TO WATCH, 4. ummmmmm i dunno what else and 5. TODAY I GOT FREE HOTDOG AT THE MOVIE STANDS! nurul's friend, zuna/ zuma, if you read this, THANK YOU! i looooooooooooooved the hotdog muchmuchdeepdeep.

so yes, tomorrow will be a great day, just you wait and see. cuz superman will always be around! hahaha!

pukey pukey lalala

that's the song i came up with yesterday over MSN. why, you might ask.

spent a good half of last night puking out nothingness. well i had oats for dinner, and one slice of bread with nutella for lunch. that might explain the brown stringy bits.

the toothache was being a giant pain in the ass so i became the perennial pill- popper. to a point that panadol ceased to numb the pain. and because the tooth was so bad i wasn't up for eating. so panadol + empty stomach = super gastric!

i've never vomited in so many colours before. post- vomit, ordered macs, ate about half a big mac then stopped. anymore and i might throw up and that will defeat the entire purpose of eating, no?

woke up this morning with GIGANTIC throb in my mouth. bloody hell i was having the granddaddeh of all toothaches or something la. and when i saw morning i mean 4.40 a.m. !!! tossed and turned and in the end, yes, pop a pill. gargled with salt water, fitful sleep.

mum took half day and brought me too woodlands polyclinic. dentist recommended re- root canal (YOWWWWWWWWWW) BUT at alexandra hospital which means they'll probably give me some serious anesthesia so i will pass out for hours and not see/feel/know what they're doing to my mouth. fine by me. so now i await an appointment with the (hopefully) kind people of alexandra.

while waiting for dentist and after that while waiting for med, i was nauseas again and WALLA! ROUND 3! wah but this time round damn bad can. i was crying and choking and vomiting and it stinged my throat and i was in a polyclinic. mother of all ironies.

downed a packet of milo and vitagen while waiting at the pharmacy. an old man came and sat next to me and he smelt of, yes, simple fiza luck, SHIT. i am DEAD serious. he smelt of BERAK CAIR*. I WANTED TO DIE.

*literally meaning, wet shit. kinda like when you have diarrhoea i think.

and of all the godforsaken seats he of course has to sit next to me la. and as if he knew he stank, he kept like looking at me, expectantly waiting for me to either leave or do some overtly rude gesture of pinching my nose. WAHLAOEH. an apek was mindfucking with me in the polyclinic at 9 am! cannot make it.

thank god i was up soon and i gladly got up and left. wah piang but really la. damn smelly okay. i know la he's sick and all but still, smell of shit!?!!? arghhhhhhhhhh.

so anyway had breakfast with mum after that. chicken porridge (yes, that's all i want right now) and teh tarik. and even then i almost puked while waiting for cab. TSK.

but i'm home now and i've eaten my antibiotics and painkillers. WHOOPEE for painkillers! painkillers rock.

now i shall sleep, talk nonsense to suresh and hopefully, feel much better before movie later. oh ya. my MUM says the new superman looks like suresh, A BIT, from certain angles. when i told him he said, yaaaa what we look the same! no, my mum say abit only. noooo where got a bit alot la you see properly! no lor he so fair you so dark! really you see properly he like my twin brother!

he must be taking drugs.

okay am woozydoozytoozy. more later. and let's all pray for no puke!

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

hate.

tooth.

aches.

argh.

bon voyage!

to the Spanish side. pity really, i quite liked them and was quite neutral for this game despite being (as aforementioned) a sentimental french fan. won't call myself a born- again french fan though, even i was surprised by their win.

for now i mourn for Spain. they really had it going for a long time. i guess the big- match atmosphere did them in and they kinda self- destruct towards the end. and i've always doubted casillas for his penchant to come wayyyyyy out of his box. did that twice today, and was caught by 2 goals by ribery and zidane. sad.

ah well then. french- brazil it is! a 1998 rematch. fantastic. my current predictions for top 4 would be argentina, italy, portugal, brazil. and as much as i love portugal, brazil seem quite formidable as the tournament proceeds so i'm guessing an Argentina- Brazil Final. and an Italy- Portugal 3rd/4th placing. what cracking matches those will be!

for now Portugal just has one pesky English hurdle to overcome. pah!

i hope rooney never finds form, beckham is benched, eriksson comes out with more and more ridiculous tactics and lampard keeps shooting into spectators. and if we're all lucky, rio ferdinand and gary neville might put up a brilliant show and bestow 2 own goals upon Portugal. i await with bated breath.

this world cup has been a brilliant one. high drama, and not that bad surprises. i would say ghana, ukraine and this latest french win is quite the surprise. add to the list ronaldinho's missing form. there you go. what a surprising world cup it has been! and we're only hitting quarters. *rubs palm gleefully*

hoo yeah.

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

nyeh

swiss lost to ukraine on penalties. how unfair.

the match was dull, cagey at most, with most battles done in midfield. fell asleep for most of the second half, woke up in time to see penalties. both ukraine and switz missed their first shots, but while ukraine nailed the next 3, swiss just couldn't find their goal.

sigh. oh well. italy- ukraine then. speaking of italy, another sorry loss for the socceroos. to give away an iffy penalty like that at the 93rd minute must be horrid. oh well. but totti did what he had to and italy are through. goodbye aussies. as much as i don't really see the point of them there, as i don't see the point of koreans, japs and tunisians, i guess they are pretty okay. give it a few years. no point doing a "Japan", quick spiral to the top, and an even faster drop to the bottom.

spending these few days at home resting. the fatigue from bintan isn't quite gone yet. goodness pool- basketball is more exhausting than i thought. no wonder those water polo dudes are so fit!

the annoying tooth (the one that has cost me alot of money), is aching again and i think this time if i can't take it anymore i'll just extract it. if i spend anymore money on it i might as well invest in braces.

okay portugal are going to appeal for Deco's red card. i think they should. both his yellow cards looked iffy to me. i mean seriously Heitinga, ever heard of fair play? the stupid ref should have stopped the game then, before Deco tackled him. stupid russian ref. at the rate this is going it seemingly more likely only shamsul maidin might make it as a finals referee. graham poll dished out 3 yellow cards to one poor dude, the italy match was quite terrible too, and this portugal one just made it to the records book so yeap.

shit this tooth is really pissing me off. i hate toothaches.

oh well in better news, suresh finishes work this friday. finally. today he was so sick that his boss let him off for a bit. but he has to come back from 5- 9 p.m. cuz that's when the registration for the conference begins. gee. to think he's only paid $6/ hr. pui.

and then NEXT weekend it'll be chiangmai! then a week from whence i return, it'll be camp. then rag, bidding, moving in and school. wow.

this thursday i will be accompanying two overgrown boys to catch Superman Returns. yes, on the opening day. what to do. i did say overgrown boys.

i am craving for something but i can't put my finger on it. isn't that annoying? and i have to watch what i eat now cuz if i accidentally use the aching tooth i might cuss my way to the moon.

enough rambling. i really need a book. izzati, thank god we're going borders this sunday. i'm about to lose my mind here.

Sunday, June 25, 2006

paved paradise, to put up a parking lot

helloooooooooooooooooooooooo everybirdyyyyyyyyyyy i'm baaaaaaaaaaaaaaack!

man i had a BLAST over the weekend at bintan that i almost didn't want to go home. the beach, the pool, the food. AWESOME.

so saturday morning- plan was to meet at 8.30 a.m. YCK to get train+bus to Tanah Merah Ferry Terminal, suresh called at 8.15 a.m. and we were both asleep. haha. oh the woes of World Cup season.

but all was well and we made it in time.

i was a bit nervous cuz i suddenly felt seasick (while on LAND, yes). but i had my trusty Vicks with me which i rubbed on my nose and breathed in every 5 minutes. helped that suresh
brought his iPod mini and soon we were laughing and dancing to Shakira's Hips Don't Lie. haha.

wow okay i just realized i'm swaying. in my chair. like i'm still in the ferry. o_O

okay i seriously am. ?????? does this mean i'm landsick now?

from ferry terminal we took a coach down to the resort. upon arrival we were greeted with this.

DAMN GRAND CAN.

machiam president only! i almost wanted to do the Queen of England wave but oh well. i kept my cool. haha.

while waiting for keys walked around for a bit. and i immediately fell in love. they have a lovely lovely pool, very friendly staff, and over the weekend, i absolutely had the best time. and the sky was so pretty and it was absolute NIRVANA.

WHEE.

and of course, some got bored and picked up an accordion and pretended to be blind so that someone ELSE can pretend to donate money. -_- don't ask.

the room was nice and clean, and big enough to be cosy but not claustrophobic. and they had this little wooden platform with cushions. loveleh.

meditating.

after checking in was lunch, and then we went to the beach where we played beach soccer, frisbee, guess-the-object-in-the sea. the latter is particularly fun!

fiza: OH MY GOD ITS A STINGRAY!
lynette&qingru: where?!!? ahh! nononono!
boys: what what?
fiza: its a stingray! (i was damn excited can hahaha)
boy1: no its not la its a rock.
fiza: no no you see properly got tail! stingray!
boy2: sure or not?
*some boy steps on it*
some boy: its a rock la! with a branch stuck on it or something.
fiza: aiya... issit. so boring.
*more boys come along*
boys: what happen?
fiza: is that a stingray?
boy3: umm no.
fiza: then?
boy3: i think its just a rock.
*life goes on for 2 seconds*
*suresh comes*
fiza: look! is that a stingray?
suresh: where?
fiza: there!
suresh: i don't think so. i think its a rock.
fiza: okay! then step on it!
suresh: why!?
fiza: because he stepped on it and said its rock! so everyone step on it then i believe its a rock!

okay so this goes on for a few minutes till a brave soul just basically dived in. with a huge splash.

brave soul: SHIT IT MOVED!
fiza: umm ya you dive until like that dead object also will move right.

and finally, someone swam in and TOUCHED it.

swimmerboy: its a rope.

aiyaaaaaaaaaaaaa. so anti- climax right? haha. then after that we got bored of the sea so we got out. the boys played more soccer and the girls shoot some hoops in the pool. pool got basketball hoop! so fun.

after much bumming in the pool, pool bar and mini- jacuzzi, we changed up and it was DINNER! food there is definitely good. some more buffet. eat and eat until you cannot feel any other sensation but sleepiness.

so after that was a short nap. woke up slightly past 10 and Germany was already 2 goals up! indonesians watch world cup for free. i am so bitter. watched the game, ordered coke, ate chocolates and made coffee. then i read my book and intermittently, watched Losing Isaiah which was showing on HBO. i told suresh it was a good show and he agreed. i think halle berry acted better then too.

when we were done reading/ watching tv/ drinking coffee/coke, we took a walk around the hotel. the people there are so friendly! they greeted us 2 wandering souls. it was almost 2 a.m. but they just went, "hello! good night sir!" and offered to help us take photos. TSK. so nice la.

we bummed at the lobby, planning/ speculating what to do for the next day's free&easy period from 12- 5 p.m. i love this structure in the lobby. its like a huge takraw ball.

watched the brilliant argentina match. mexico scored while i was peeing! wahlao! so stress. and since it went into 30 minutes extra- time by the time the match ended, it was almost sunrise. so another walk by the beach and at daybreak crossed a little channel to climb a rock formation to get nicer views. :)

the beach is so lovely. and when we had to cross the channel again the tide had gone up so suresh had to piggyback me across, getting his toe cut by a dead coral in the process. whoops!

changed into dry clothings and it was BREAKFAST! ohmygod. pancakes, free for all maple syrup, 8 types of cereal, fruit juices, milk, bread, doughnuts, hash browns, baked beans, beef chipolitas (FAT SAUSAGE! I FINALLY GOT TO EAT A HALAL FAT SAUSAGE!) fried beehoon, dhaal and naan (!!), OMELETTE. OMG. the omelette. with mushroom and cheese. oh wowwwwwwww.

after much indecision, we joined the rest at the pool. the water was just too nice to resist! played 4 on 4 basketball, wherein many got injured, again. hahaha.

showered, late lunched, then it was coach back to ferry terminal. group shots, and a shot by the setting sun.

i had a fantastic time. the company was great and me and suresh finally got to spend time that we hadn't had since he started working. this trip was great for us. and we realized we're one of those couples who don't fight on holidays! phew. i know couples who just confirm will fight on holiday. i guess its the amount of time spent together. we weren't attached at the hips all the time so we each got to do what we wanted.

ahh. i really would love to go back there again. with USP people again too, i don't mind. i think this proves USP kids do know how to have fun. haha. but unfortunately for most, not without alcohol. or grapefruit juice. or apple juice in aqua mineral water bottle. heh.

the last shot i got before boarding. sad and happy- it was great to go home but oh, bintan was SO nice.

slept in the ferry, then suresh and me got a cab home. and all is not done yet, cuz there is soccer to catch. :))

bye!

Saturday, June 24, 2006

of spaniards and a black man

so today was town for dinner + match with the peejayclan. after much indecision, laughter, squabbles (lots and lots), we finally ended up at Rex as planned and i got my chicken rice as desired. whoopee!

we then went to Kopitiam by The Plaza (across Hotel Rendezvous) for the match. at 9 p.m. they were showing the match previews on Channel 27, meaning the channel showing the Spanish match. at 9.45 p.m., a black dude went in, talked to the manager and the channel was changed to 22. for the ukraine tunisia match. hafiz lim went up to ask him why he don't want to watch the Spanish match and he said because the Spains were through, so it was going to be a boring match. so who died and make him the predictorofallthingsalmighty? nabei.

we sat sulking for a bit, and decided to catch the match else where. then a bunch of crazy spaniards came, went in front of hafiz who was in his Cesc Fabregas jersey and went, "ESPANYOOOOOOOOOL!" haha. so clearly alot more people wanted to watch the Spanish game. so a few went in to talk to the manager but it was to no avail, the big black man with the tiger beer had won. i hate him, can you tell?

firstly, its bloody selfish to demand a change of channel when all along it was Channel 27. if we had come along and it was Channel 22, we wouldn't have stayed. as Kopitiam is a public domain, it is selfish and unfair to expect it to be catered to your personal liking. as for the management, you should have put your feet down and said NO, we don't change channels to any customers whim and fancy cuz he is NOT the ONLY paying customer. we ALL were. so because he's drinking beer and we're drinking non- alcoholic drinks, he has more say? its so tempting to report this to Kopitiam or even Today. cuz Kopitiam is trying to go international and become an atas coffeeshop, so to speak, and this is not very ATAS to me.

so a bunch of us left, including the crazy spaniards, and we went to watch the match at Prinsep St. lots of cafes, 2 wide screens, 3 TVs. fine by me! we sat on steps but the atmosphere was way better. i think the crazy (and soon drunk) Spaniards contributed to that. they sang alot of those... Spanish cheers. so even though it ended 1- 0, it was a fun match to watch. especially with friends.

and since we are still cheapos, we ran to catch the last train 3 minutes before full- time. hahaha. that was fun and funny. train ride with hafiz, ashik and khairul. and now i await the french/ togo and korea/switz match. shall pack while waiting.

had a blast, as these pics will tell. hope it was fun for you too, ruz!

from behind like cesc fabregas...

from front,

AGHAST!

Friday, June 23, 2006

idiotic idioms

- Better late than last.
- Behind the clouds are lost, dizzy birds.
- It's better to cheat if you don't know the answers.
- Do unto others what you can.
- When all else fails, there's Mastercard.
- To err is human, to err again, STUPID!
- No guts, no glory- no plot, no story! hahaha.
- Birds of the same feather fly together.
- Birds of the same feather die together.
- Better late than dead.
- No man is an island unless coconut trees are chicks.
- When it rains, take a brolly.
- Try and try until you succeed only if you got nothing better to do.
- If you can't beat them, call the Mafia.
- An apple a day means a very boring meal.
- An apple a day keeps the fruit- seller close.
- Birds of the same feather poop together at the carpark outside Somerset Station at sunset.
- Do not do unto others what others can do to you!
- An apple a day gives you bunny teeth.
- When the cat is away, vacuum the fur.
- If others can do it, don't bother.
- Tell me who your friends are and i'll stalk them.
- Early to bed, that can't be me.

true to my words, i am awake at 7.21 a.m. tsk. this can't be healthy. but i am too excited at the prospect of eating Rex Mackenzie Chicken Rice later. -_-

holy shit!

guilty as charged, i wrote him off as fat too.

but let bygones be bygones, for tonight this man right here allowed me to be a precious part of history! he scored 2 goals of the 4 by brazil, making him the tied leading goal- scorer in the history of World Cup. like robin would say, "HOLEY MOLEY FAT MAN!"

when he scored his first goal (in the World Cup and for Brazil), i smiled knowingly cuz hey, its ronaldo. it was only a matter of time. i hardly blinked when Japan scored cuz, um, well, its brazil.

then juninho and gilberto took turns to enthrall me with gorgeous long distance shots that reverberates on the poles long after the ball is back in the middle. up there with the deco and gerrard shots, for sure.

and when the famous bug- toothed (wayyy before Dinho, ya) got his 4th, i actually exclaimed in my living room out loud, "HOLY SHIT!" not actually because it was a fantastickest shot (which it was), but because he is now a Legend. and i saw it in the making. like how bloody cool is that?!

i mean let's face it, being Singaporean, 21, Malay and of average household income, what were the chances i would be involved in all too many history- in- the- making/ legendary moments? but THERE it was. at World Cup 2014 i'd (hopefully) sit with my kids and when they show Legendary World Cup Moments, i can proudly point to these goals and say, "i saw those. at my own living room. when i was 21." once again, HOLEY MOLEY FAT MAN!

my ears are ringing and my head has a full- fledge brass band. its a good thing.

and for that, i shall (finally) wear my Brasil top tomorrow. i'm tempted to wear the cap too but no need to go over the top as yet ya? i'll save it for the round of 16s. besides, if they get all the way to the finals, i might have to wear these more often. hoo hoo.

fantastic. brazil is back. finally, and phew.

banatella

i've decided to name my self- created sandwich banatella. banana + nutella = banatella. JENIUS!

just finished watching the match. watched first half at pasir ris, rushed back home to catch second half. and the italians are through! MAGNIFICO! FANTASTICO!

anyway i was at pasir ris (i.e. the other end of the world) to visit my grandma, aunts, and this little boy here.

that is nur khalifah, only the cutest boy in the world. he has a constant fascination with, yes, you guessed it, balls. so he has all sorts. beach ball, takraw ball, soccer ball, strawberry ball with bell inside (??), the list is endless. and this love for balls has given rise to a game called, "hide alif's ball." so this is him, in various state of hunt.

haha yes i know bully small kid. he was looking for a ball under his sofa laaaa. which has a 1cm gap. and we told him, "maybe its under your shirt!" and he lifted his shirt up. hahaha.

so this, was the general state of chaos at ~~the childcare centre~~ my aunt's place.

ate alot, had much much fun. sometimes i don't meet my cousins for months (till the next wedding) and when i do see them again, they're so huge. and grown- up. i must be old.

in other news it is 12.25 a.m. now so HAPPY BIRTHDAY SMELLY MINAHCHEE! YOU SHOULD THANK ME AND BERSYUKUR KEHADRAT ILLAHI TO HAVE SUCH A BRILLIANT FRIEND OKAY! or else tomorrow your 21st at macs lido. KENTAL ABIS.

may all your wishes come true blablabla and may this momentary sanity that God has bestowed upon you last for years to come. Amin.

so tomorrow is her birthday dinner then the Spain game with them. looking forward to that one. Rex Mackenzie yum!

then SATURDAY! bintan! woot! so funnnnnnnn. can'twaitcan'twaitcan'twait.

then 2 weekends from this, ITS GONNA BE CHIANG MAI. oh me oh my.

so yes, much to look forward to. who said a jobless holiday was gonna be dull? that said however, i start teaching next monday onwards. see? time flies when you're bumming.

halfway through anita shreve's the pilot's wife. i was doubtful but now i must say its pretty okay. its not too chicklitish so that's good. i can't stand chick/dick lit. predictable storylines or at least repetitive styles bore the hell out of me. i think i have ridiculous expectations of a book. maybe my dream book doesn't exist! that will be so sad.

enough already. so anyway i'll be taking orders for people who wants to get material (e.g. SILK) or cheap rubbish (e.g. fake jerseys) from Chiang Mai. so if you've got a craving for a bit of Chiang Mai, email me- lim_fiz@yahoo.com.sg.

so anyway i think my boyfriend died, cuz he hasn't texted me/ uttered a word since i got back home. thank god his work ends next week. anymore of this and i'd have to find meself a new boyfriend. HAHAHA!

alrighty then. tomorrow is the mall for some birthday gift shopping then dinner and Spain game. then its home for packing and i'll be at Tanah Merah Ferry Terminal at 10 a.m. Saturday. gotta remember to get batteries for the camera. whee!

alif says BYE!

Thursday, June 22, 2006

doo wop doo wop shoobeedoo beedoo

in my weak moment of kancheong spiderness, i forgot if book cafe is open for dinner. and of course in classic fiza fashion/ luck, it IS open till bloody 10.30 p.m., as i found out later. oh well. we ended up at fig&olive for not so yay dinner then home.

oh well but at least now i can rest assured its open so okay. and there is STILL so many cafes to go to, blimey!

i am very excited! so many events coming up.

(i just realized lately my blog posts always contain the line: I AM VERY EXCITED! hahaha.)

Firstly there's the bajillion french movies i want to catch at Alliance Francaise. $8 for cinematography worth 7 blockbusters combine, i don't mind. and THEN there is BALLET UNDER THE STARS! i must go. missed it 2 years in a row liao. :( and THEN there is WOMAD which i've also missed for 2 years. AND AND AND THEY ARE SCREENING MOVIES AT FCP! WAHHHHHH. i missed it too. for, yes you guessed it, 2 years. looks like my life was on hold for 2 years. well, its going to get a kickstart ASAP!

i haven't travelled for so long that i've now been bitten by a SERIOUS travel bug. so serious i am going to sign- up for the ISI Card. not ICI paint hor. its a student travel thing. i lazy to explain. go google.

i am also happy to annouce that with the timetable builder kindly provided by the NUS Registrar (which i didn't know exist until this sem, thank you), i have my timetable! WAHHHH. but i'm not the most well- prepared student apparently. someone i know who got 4.3 last sem decided he needed to buck and has started buying readings for the modules he plan to take. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kancheong spider to the max can. skali you get outbidded how? waste your holidays mugging for it only. siaoliao.

so anyway with the delightful timetable builder (that i have so kindly linked up for all of you in case you, like me, didn't know such a programme existed), i have figured out lectures and tutorials. i will have backbreaking backtoback classes on thursdays every even week but on odd weeks, my days are pretty easy peasy. and whoopee, THREE EXAMS ONLY! and FUN modules. problem is my exams end 6th december. which might cause problems with regards to melbourne trip.

and with regards to melbourne trip; i am now in a funk cuz i realize melb tennis open is next year, 15- 28 jan. ARGHHHHHH. wouldn't it be toooooooo much to go there twice in 2 months? its not like its freaking cheap la. BUT ARGHHHHHHHHH MELBOURNE OPEN I WANT TO WATCH!

wahlao. so drama. hadizzie i hope you read this soon and let me know when your semester ends! is 6th dec onwards too late? like say, a flight on the 7th. i saw your sem ends 24th november but please lor, my first paper is on 28th. haha. exam results is 8th dec (YES I AM STALKING YOU MWAHAHAHA) so are you staying till then? email me or sth la. :D

farhana and me realized every tom, dick, harry and his brothers' clan and football team is going to melbourne uni (specifically!) to study. WTH?

and we were tempted to be air stewardess for emirates to earn a quick buck. like slog a few years, save up (well, try), quit, then do whatever we want. then we decided we can't do it cuz must wear thick make- up (and high heels farhana! we forgot the high heels!) and she rightfully pointed out, "we'd bump into each other and fall all over the place!" typical fiza+farhana.

oh well, it was a nice dreamy though while it last.

okay back to my melbourne open crisis. so anyway now that i've discovered cheapo flights, i want to go EVERYWHERE! new york, new york! izati, confirmed okay! even if its just the two of us. xmas/ new year in new york is something i DON'T want to delay any further. blame it on all those Home Alone movies.

so okay 2.41 a.m., match starting soon, i'm starving, i shall go make my nutella-banana sandwich. SEDAP GILE I TELL YOU.

i want to own a sandwich shop. i will put sand+cement+water between 2 slices of toast. SANDwich! literally! HAHAHA! i learnt that from Little Rascal by the way. one of my favouritest videos (old school!) from childhood. second was Tom & Jerry's Great Adventures! i like sia. watch 5 times straight also never mind. last time like damn funny. maybe i won't think so now but who knows.

okay enough yammering. argentina/holland match coming up. SU-WEET-AH.

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

oooooooooooh lalala ooooooooooh lalala

going to BOOK CAFE! FINALLY! after 3 years of waiting, forgetting, remembering but without company, i am finally headed there. :\ well at least i hope we find it and don't get sidetracked. i am so excited!

PORTUGAL MATCH TONIGHT WOOT WOOT!

OH. and excuse me har, boys, when i say Portugal don't respond with a EEI WHY PLEASE LA HE IS NOT THAT HANDSOME HE SUCK! cuz i don't know what you're talking about. and if i go HUH?!!? don't tell me CRISTIANO RONALDO SUCKS LA HE'S NOT THAT GOOD! cuz i will tell you, umm, i don't LIKE him. i like PORTUGAL, the TEAM. AND i like carvalho/ figo/ deco, not RONALDO. AND if we're talking about looks, gimme nuno gomes or simao over mat lookalike ronaldo, anyday.

yes, cuz not all women hate soccer and not all women watch it for the men. and while i'm at it, boys with girlfriends, get OFF the girls' case. a friend of mine blogged RULES FOR WOMEN during World Cup season. STOP THINKING THAT FOOTBALL IS A TESTERONE DOMINATED SCENE! and stop thinking that those who don't like/ watch soccer would not understand your obsessive needs for undisturbed viewing of matches.

boys are so stupid like that.

BOYS ARE SMELLY!

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

still here

had a lovely day. one of those days where on your walk home the night market nearby plays soft, happy music, like a soundtrack for your day. when you get warm, fuzzy feelings in your stomach. the kind that makes you smile to yourself the whole night.

met farhana at 4.30 p.m. and we headed to Toast for some light munch. i didn't want to spoil my dinner, so i had clam chowder with yummy buttered toast and she had chocolate truffle. ice lemon tea, too, of course.

see that smile? we've always loved our food.

light tea i call it. and over that, we updated each other on the latest happenings. farhana is one of the four i can tell absolutely EVERYTHING to. like things that might sound horrible to other people, i can tell her cuz i know she won't judge me. so all the deep dark secrets, everything that others won't know, she knows. and she told me about hers. by the end of it all telling our emotionally draining experiences left us quite refreshed. i guess its good to offload sometimes. and i pointed out how when we left secondary school, we were so bright- eyed and chirpy and young, so ready to take on the world. and now only 5 years on we've been through everything else BUT what we expected life would be then. but we're still fine, we still wake up smiling. i think we're lucky to have each other. :)

then went to far east for some window shopping. she bought earrings for herself and two bangles for her friend. 3 for $10 outside pacific plaza. don't you just LOVE sales period? ahh. tried on random stuff, laughed, then met hafiz lim. turkish dinner as desired. whoopee! no peejay CLAN cuz some people ditched us at the last minute! *eyes a certain indian missus* hoo hoo. farhana joined us, and in so doing, hafiz lim yimin found someone new to bully. -_- that boy is such a dink.

dink.

lots of yammering over dinner way after food was finished. then watsons for farhana to get stuff, then mccafe for coffee and chatter. argued about everything from world cup to bad singing to bad hair (guess WHO'S? hmm hmm hmm?) to whiny bands. endless laughter, easy banter, everything friendship should be.

and then i got a call! FROM MELBOURNE! it was so nice to hear from dizzie again after so so so so loooooooooong. chatted for a bit, updated him on my life, etc. lovely.

then on the train ride back shamini, an old pal from secondary school track days, called, saying she was leaving for dubai TOMORROW to start her stewardess job. :(( and as happy as i was for her new career path, i felt sad that another one was leaving the roost. we seldom met but this now rules out even the ocassional bump- in- town moments. i guess i'm comforted just knowing my friends are in the same country as me. selfish i guess. why can't i just make that call for that coffee date? but too late for that, i'd just try to make it to the airport at midnight tomorrow. for old times' sake.

it feels like everybody's moving, leaving. and sometimes i feel like just grabbing everyone i love and hold them close so that no harm can face them, so that they can never leave. but i guess that's impossible. let's face it, even i will be leaving singapore for my post- grad. so yea. i guess its all about making the best out of what i have.

i texted suresh to tell him the happy/sad news. and he said, don't be sad my dear... i'm still here.

and i guess that best summarise today.

when dizzie called, just to tell me he's alive, he's fine, and that he's still here. he's a phone call, an sms, an email away.

when shamini called to tell me she's leaving. to say i'm going, but i'll still be here.

when i meet old friends like the two today, and we can talk like there's no tomorrow, and when i know i can call on them anytime, cuz after all this time, they're still here.

and i want to smile and laugh and cry and thank God all at the same time. i am so blessed in so many different ways. tonight i felt like i was teetering on the edge of perfection, with all the knots unravelled and all the happiness in my hands. and no, i don't want to take a step further. this is a life more blessed than i deserve. a life more giving than i have ever given.

i've gotten the best out of everything. the best out of my mum, of suresh, of friends, of life, of blessings, of absolutely everything. and if before i fear to receive so much joy only to have it taken away, i now revel in it and thank God for the gifts, and hope it never goes away.

and i could not ask for more.

old friends are yay friends!

meeting banana

at 4 then the peejay clan

at 6. whoopee!

and i think i'm having waffles today. its another cold wet day. imagine a good warm waffle, moistened by syrup and whipped cream... ahh... today's gelare half price waffles day, yay!

and then huge chunky chicken in yummy sauce and bread for dinner! YOWZA.

sometimes i can't decide what i love more; people or food. so i'm glad i can do both at the same time. haha.

Monday, June 19, 2006

its a sunny yellow, banana day!

DO THE COW CALYPSO, BANANA WAY!

anyway far from a sunny day, it was a cold windy day, wetwetwet. so wintry. felt like autumn. i love autumn in new york! not the best of movies but i'm a sucker for that. plus its richard gere and winona ryder. i like.

so anyway i woke up a lil' too late so hvee lunch became clementi lunch. just the same we had a brilliant time! i heart mr. prata!

on a cold cold day, nothing taste better than plain prata with hothot sambal.

suresh wanted to order maggi prata (GO TO MR PRATA!), but he decided against it. i think we're still old- fashioned prata eaters. i still don't eat banana prata. but i might try their italian/ french/ japanese/ whatever else prata. stylo milo all. in the end he had egg prata with sambaR.

we went a little daring with drinks. okay i did. he got milo dinosaur after the bad one at mind cafe, and i got longan spin!

which came PINK! i was so shocked. i drank this pink thing and it tasted like longan! but its pink! goodness. majick, i tell you.

i tend to get overexcited over the smallest things, yes. nydia pointed out yesterday that i pretty much can go crazy on anything. cheese+ crackers, chocolate cakes, cupcakes, muffins, cookies, ice- cream, prata, tom yam... the list is endless. enough to say then, that i go crazy over food on a regular basis. oh well.

i thought this was true.

suresh wanted me to meet him for lunch there again but i would be too sleepy. plus i have anatolia plans with the peejay clan. so i guess we'd make it wednesday k? and i'll try something funky and let you guys know how its like.

aahh nothing makes me happier than GOOD cheap food. reason for caps? check prev post re. bird shit.

after that was cab back to school for his work and my meeting. i got my OG yay! and bintan trip plans are finalised, yay! yay yay yay!

bummed around after meeting cuz suresh finished at 6. lo and behold, ended up with a book. why must arts co- op be open on school holidays and sell such cheap books!? its a conspiracy. but anyhoos, i got a book so yea. read it i shall. by the time i met suresh i was 1/5th through it. violently agressive reader, i am.

i shall save it for bintan. *sits on book*

hahahahaha okay i know its gross but a funny thought just crossed my head. i wonder if anyone has ever had such a LETHAL FART that it burned a hole, or at least left burn marks. HAHAHA FIERCE SIAAAA FART UNTIL GOT HOLE!

ahem anyway.

then after that i met him and we went holland vee! WHEE! but i didn't eat brekos cuz my craving had transformed into a calamari craving. so off to thai express! i had calamari and he had green curry. had mango with sticky rice after that, yum yum. battery died then so sorry, no pics. :D

so all in all, though i am now sleepy and not watching the soccer match, i am happy and filled to the brim with good food. and its still a lovely cold night. ahhh.

its 4.41 a.m. in the morning and far from focusing on soccer, i am too excited for tomorrow to sleep or watch soccer proper.

weird innit?

yet i find myself here. wee hours of the morning, 10 months since we got together, and sleepless the night before, like its still the first date.

as Jimi Hendrix once said, Wild thing, you make my heart sing.

Sunday, June 18, 2006

easy peasy

Japanesey? BORINGGGGGGGG. i fell asleep for almost half an hour watching Japs and Croats play what i term, void deck soccer. mats can play more riveting soccer than that.

enough missed chances to build a pyramid on. makes sense, no? never mind.

so today... today was a nothing day. woke up, wrote my article, surf a lil', watched The Incredibles on Disney Channel (A LIL TOO LATE and missed edna mode's bit, ARGH!), yammer online then soccer. which was... aiyerrr. annoying.

as of now best matches i can recall is argentina/ S&M, spain/ukraine, portugal/ angola, germany/ costa rica, australia/ japan. hmm yeah. nicest goal might possibly be deco's rocket in the portugal- iran one. but then again, the argentina match had a bajillion nice goals.

so anyway i am craving for a hot fudge sundae so later on i'd get it, just before the brazil match. ooooooooh hot fudge sundae mmmmmmmm. a genius a long time ago decided to combine ice- cream and chocolate, and i haven't looked back since.

i am also craving for that kebab doner i had yesterday. now i know how some of you feel when you look at pictures of food on my blog. i look at that picture of me with my mouth full of delightful kebab and clutching that huge ass doner and i want to SLAP that bitch AND GRAB THE DAMN DONER!

sadly that bitch is me. so i shall just eat it next time i'm in town. tuesday! who wants to go out with me on tuesday and eat anatolia ANGKAT TANGANNNNNN! umm, raise your hand. ANA TO LIA ANA TO LIA ANA TO LIA. i am aaaaaaaaaaaaall for GOOD cheap food. yes, first must be good. if bird shit cheap also, you want to eat meh, no right.

tomorrow cannot cuz got USC Camp OGLs meeting (OGLs, ogles, is that why i ended up with a freshie? haha) from 2- 5ish. most likely going holland vee for lunch with suresh first then he goes back to work and i go for meeting. meet again thereafter. yes in case you don't know, suresh works 5 days a week, in NUS. i tell you i will be shit bored by the time school starts if i did that.

ooh which reminds me, i should plan my ISM if i want to clear them fast. hmm hmm. will look into that soon. i think i want to do something along youths/ racially defined cliques. research time!

brazil match later better be a cracker, i'm sick of boring games. well yesterday night wasn't boring but it was stupid. 3 red cards and i wondered if we would even finish the match. skali become 7- a- side, then they play half court how? fortunately they stopped being general idiots and tried to play soccer. but damage was done and the score held at 1- 1. oh well. at least we have a REAL group of death now.

in other news, suresh's best friend is back! jeng jeng jeng! i've got competition! time for me to hunt my best friend down. HAHA i had a typo there and i typed brest friend. BREAST FRIEND IS A BEST FRIEND INDEED! farhanaaaaaaaaaaaaaa mana kauuuuuuuuuuu we must go out! OH YES!

okay if there's ANY gan eng seng people reading this, in particular azri/ farhan/ hadi/ farhana, i met irwan on friday! HE IS STILL AS BITCHY OHMYGOD. hahaha. i talked to him for so long until my mee hongkong kembang. haha. so yes anyway he is working now while waiting for his ns to start in DECEMBER so if we want to go out ramai- ramai altogether like one big gan eng seng babuseng family, let me know and i'll plan it and let him and anyone else who's working know so that you aaaaaall can get a day off, okay?

wah finger cramp type that one. so long sia.

i just realized i am not in touch, or at least not on regular speaking terms with anyone from my primary school. hmm. secondary school there's alot, jc also. but not primary school. haha. guess i wasn't very friendly.

mmm i am looking at breko's website now. i hope we get to lunch there tomorrow. i am craving for a good yummy sandwich.

ish i want to eat toast also lei. wah how like that. so many places to go, no money!

i need a sugar daddy, pronto. must he be old, though? can he be young and cute and rich? better right like that. haha. okay i don't know what i'm talking about anymore. i shall shower up and grab my sundae IN A JIFFY!

JIFFY JIFFY JIFFY HWEE!

isn't jiff a dishwashing liquid?

macam ye- ye je aku ni (like i know i like that).

okay la bye i want my ice- cream.

you know you're extremely lazy when you are starving but instead of making food, you make this.

why? because the laptop is nearer than the fridge. -_-

Saturday, June 17, 2006

smart mat

an oxymoron, but that got me pretty high points at Upwords. double word! WORD UP.

well i'll be writing the review soon but suffice to say its a pretty fun thing to do on lazy days, especially if you're sick of the same ol'. i think me and suresh might go back regularly. its pretty fun. the food is not bad, though suresh said the milo dinosaur was incomparable to Al Ameen. my coke float was fine so point to note: do no order drinks you usually order at coffee shops, cuz clearly it won't taste as nice. get their fancy smancy shit. ESPECIALLY if you took the package for 2, which is $20 for 2 hrs of play, 2 drinks of your choice, 1 snack + 1 tidbit. we got springrolls which is the most filling on the menu i think, followed by maybe fries. for tidbits we got the potato chips which was just average, a lil' flavourless. go for the black pepper ones i guess. might be better.

but MORE importantly, they have a WIDE array of games AND the sofas are very comfy. after the game you can pay $2.50 per hour (additional) or just order more food, bum. for a saturday, it wasn't too crowded so it was quite a nice getaway not too far from town.

i'll give it 3.5/ 5. i like it.

and I BEAT SURESH! WOOT WOOT! hahaha. his spelling sucks. luny? dooms? whatthe... haha. anyway the final score was close, he pipped me by a point, but i won cuz i only had one tile left. a Q. -_- 1 Q, 1 X, 1 Z, and i got it all. he had B and H. ladida.

to show you what a tough competitor i am (HURHUR), look at him trying to figure out words...

concentrate until like that. even resorted to tactics like FEEDING ME SPRINGROLL SO I CANNOT SEE THE BOARD! HUMPH.

hahahaha.

as you can tell, i have newfound fascination with picture editing.

post- game...

took a walk down and i got my white hairband! FINALLY. now i got it in thin, and thick. whoopee. the new fringe has given rise to multiple hair accessories. tsktsk. window shopped at heeren, taka, wisma, then i was starved raving mad so we went to anatolia @ far east where i had a chicken doner sandwich and a pepsi for FIVE BUCKS. WHAT THE HELL. its like the 80s man.

i'm happy cuz, umm, well my mouth is full of good food and he's happy cuz his kid is so CUTE LAAAA.

anyway that's probably the best value for money meal around town. really. bread = carbo, meat = protein. you're covered! no wonder turkish guys are so hot. haha ok irrelevant.

but since we're at it...

ish. HEMSEM HEMSEM HEMSEM CANNNNNNNNNNNNNNN.

why turkey never qualify this year. TSK. cuz got no ilhan that's why! sighhhh. its been 4 years but i still want to marry him for that 1st minute goal against korea.

in other news, portugal are through, yay! winners of Group D, i would think, unless they lose to Mexico next week. i hope they don't cuz if they do 1, they face argentina who seem incredibly strong like mighty mouse and 2, the match will be played when i'm on holiday at bintan, which might or might not have cable/ show World Cup matches. so yeap.

later got Italy USA. kick some american ass, why doncha.

okay must focus on msning the nehneh wait he cranky cranky stamp feet froths at mouth burst into bubbles then i must find new boyfriend liao. very hard okay. boyfriends market now very small. HAHA.

okaybye.

very nice T- shirt online store. CLICKETY CLICK! and while you're at it, vote for my slogans if you like em'. thankee! click on score designs, and look at the right- hand side for slogans you can rate. :))

long day and now i'm watching soccer. details later. bye!

up words? up yours!

besides the fact that we're bored of the same ol', same ol', we're also to broke to be reaping the joys of the Great Singapore Sale.

therefore, we're off to Mindcafe for some Upwords (no scrabble :\) and maybe Boggle. whee! can i possibly sneak in a little dictionary without suresh's notice? hehehe.

AND i have to write a review for it in USP's next magazine so what the hey! kill THREE birds with one stone. i get stronger everyday, goodness.

might be catching the game with the peejay clan later, see how that goes. weekends. love.

Friday, June 16, 2006

watching argentina play soccer is like a wet dream come true. multiple orgasms, through and through.

i knew my baby messi would do it. hell yeah. as of now, teams i don't MIND winning the Cup are; Portugal, Spain, Argentina, Brazil (no choice la hor) and Ecuador. haha. except for the last, i forsee the aforementioned 4 teams in the semis. BOWHIZZAAAAAAAA.

soccer is sex with 11 men. why AREN'T women watching?

hey, hey, hey, its a beautiful day

couldn't sleep after the match so did much surfing and planning. i even got my time table for school done! then hafiz lim texted me and we made lunch plans and i immediately went to sleep at 9.30 a.m. goodness.

woke up at 1 a cranky, groggy child. got ready and met him an hour later than we were supposed to. haha. far east for lunch, walk about far east, borders, topman, then starbucks. world cup discussion, relationships, naivete, etc.

train ride home was fun and WE got chatted up by ang moh. but he was right, it is like a funeral parlour at times, those train rides.

now i'm back, blogging, then the nehneh will be coming over to catch the Argentina/ S&M match. whoopee!

tomorrow's a saturday. *wiggles eyebrows*

Thursday, June 15, 2006

eye- opener

have a look HERE. click page 2 as well cuz there's more.

extremely scary. piqued my curiousity to learn more bout the country, but i definitely won't consider visiting it anytime soon. what if i break a rule unknowingly? and no, i don't wanna bow to that huge chunk of bronze. no offence.

all that said i don't think its purely a result of communism. by- product, surely, but not directly caused by communism. why? cuz Cuba is communist too but they have such a vibrant and colourful lifestyle that its been said visitors have even forgotten they were in a communist state. but that's probably because they're not under a one- man dictatorship communism. oh well.

but just click the link, will ya. it really is informative. i would love to chatter more on communism but honestly, my knowledge is nothing fantastic. but i'm glad i saw what i saw. :)

look, ma!

its Santa!

christmas came early today.

:))))) ended up following him to queensway since he so wanted to buy his jersey. to his credit, its been almost a week since World Cup started so not bad, quite strong resistance. he bought the portugal home kids XL and i got the portugal away kids S. yay!

who say wishes don't come true?

also got to satisfy my long john silver combo 1 craving. so all is good. shall go watch Ecuador game now. they're a goal up! danggg these africans. they're so full of surprises.

BTW if you're a fan of any of the African countries or any other countries with Puma jerseys, don't waste your money. the material is the same used for an umbrella/ a cheap Giordano windbreaker/ etc, but it costs more than the Dri- Fit Nike jerseys. totally not worth it. i doubt that's what the players are wearing though cuz suresh says that material can cause abrasion under the arms. imagine those poor soccer players in the sweltering heat that is germany's, and then finish game got bleeding armpits. WAHLAOEH.

so yes, get an adidas (very expensive, the ones we saw, cuz authentic players' kit) or Nike jersey if you must. they have a very low- cut spanish jersey for women. haha. if i wear my boobs will be dangling out for the world to see lor. so wrong the cutting.

enough jersey talk, soccer doth await. one day to weekend, yay!

dangling

woke up early to horrible news. a sibling of a friend passed on. but little else is known and we're all left to wonder at what happened, and what could have been.

i lay awake for a bit, overawed by another loss, another passing, another life whiffed away unknowingly. asking questions. then i realized i will never find the answers in my head so i should just go back to sleep. and i can't. you just can't go back to sleep. and its not even someone closely related. but death, no matter the distance, reverberates in me and still brings back that distant echo which never died since years ago.

death scares me. it scares me to no end. the loss, the grief, the pain, everything is so overwhelming, i don't anyone to ever have to go through it. but now a friend does, and it makes me sad. i cancelled plans for the evening and we also cancelled saturday's picnic. its the least we can do. and besides, i can't imagine going on with life knowing a life was just taken away.

the guilt. the guilt of going on living while others don't. the guilt of enjoying life's bounties in endless, copious amount, which others can't. the simple guilt of having a loved one still, while others mourn. the guilt.

death reminds me again and again just how it is. no matter what you think life is, a precious crystal ball you clutch in your hands, bird with wings you set loose and fly free, whether you treasure it, ruin it, love it or spoil it, life can be taken away from you just like that. life can whiffed away as and when, for no rhyme or reason. the line between life and death is sometimes but a moment.

and that scares me. the frailty of humanity, of mortality. mere mortals. that's what they always say, isn't it? mere. we're but humans. merely.

for the friend of mine, we might not be close but i am still deeply sorry for your loss. i hope you know we're all here for you. in your own time; let us be there.

and as for life, i can only hope it takes me on for just that one more day, and one more day, and one more day.

inallilahi- wa inallilahi rojiun.

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

come on everybody, i say now let's play a game!

i bet you i can make a rhyme, out of my innermost pains...

NOBODY LOVES MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
I DON'T HAVE A JERSEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

and yes. that is my lovely rhyme.

so if you love me,

buy me.

well not ME but THAT. buy me THAT.

i want i want i want. i want portugal away jersey. WHY ISN'T ANYONE GETTING ME THE PORTUGAL AWAY JERSEY!?!?

humphhhh.

well in other news i had dinner with my mum at thai express where we BOTH had the BBQ seafood platter which is HUGE and a side dish of calamari. yum.

then we walked about and got pants, shoes, books and food. then it was home for a riveting Spain match. riveting in a good way, not the harlan coben way. HURHUR.

yes as you can tell i'm still bitter. suresh says if i was disappointed by coben then i shouldn't even read da vinci code. LIKE WHAT THE HEYYYY. its that bad?!?! then what's the big deal!!? humanity puzzles me so.

anyway tomorrow is erwin+ coffee and hafiz lim+ birthday gift shopping for the birthday kiddos of this saturday's picnic. PICKNICK. lalala.

okay la i want to do other things. REMEMBER, if you love me, buy me jersey.

okaychao.

MTV killed the radio star

just woke up about an hour ago. i slept at 7 cuz after the brazil match i deemed it imperative to finish reading the book suresh loaned me yesterday.

yeap. a book a day keeps the sleep away.

anyway the book was good, for sure. riveting. hence why i couldn't put it down. but i've already noticed the harlan coben pattern and once i do, it'll be hard not to be able to guess my way through the next book of his. so one more shot for mr. coben, or you're out.

he basically casts a web as wide as possible, entangling as many as possible for something so minute. and he always has a final twist on the last page which has now become predictable over 2 books. he draws in the net at random, never on vein at a time, so reader, presumably, gets confused. but i'm one of those who will remember characters so whenever i see a correlation i will flip back to the page where he/ she was first mentioned and yadayada. so by the end of the book, which was good, i am not taking that away- i ended feeling very frustrated; like all along i knew (or at least had a sneaking suspicion of) the route from A to B but mr. coben decided to take me for a ride and went past CDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ and THEN going back to B.

very annoyed, i am.

so yes the book is great, riveting, cannot- be- put- down; but note, i couldn't put it down cuz from the start i saw point B and i wanted to just GET THERE a.s.a.p. hence i couldn't SLEEP until i've gotten there.

and therefore, harlan coben's tell no one is fantastic, if you're the sort who enjoy being taken on a mysterious, thrilling, literary ride. I DON'T. which is why i'll always prefer connelly's. you can never see point B from the start and you just follow the protagonist through the journey from A to B. but connelly don't intentionally take you on a twisted rollercoaster ride.

so if you ask me do i reccomend the book? i say yes. the twists were midly intelligent though at some point it felt demeaning, like he didn't think his readers wouldn't be able to guess through some. is the book interesting? yes, of course.

but did i like it? no i didn't. aside from everything else i've mentioned above, mr. coben did another thing which he does often- play with feelings. he has a thing for bringing back the dead in the most bizarre manners possible and i guess maybe that just hits home more than it should.

he articulates the feelings of protagonist and 'dead' loved one very well so you get absorbed and possibly, emotionally involved. and all the pangs and hurt and pain really get to you. and so when there's the happy ending for the protagonist, you finis the book feeling quite emotionally drained.

and the vein of which the story was written revolved around something that i hold dear and close; truth.

there was so many lies by so many different people that i think some of them didn't even know anymore that its a lie. and i worry that if people just keep lying and lying they will never know truth.

i think lies no matter how small, always has the power of coming back and exploding like Hiroshima in your face. lies scare me cuz i never can tell the amount of pain it can cause.

and that is why i didn't like the book. cuz its becoming predictable, cuz it touched a sore point of dead loved ones, and it made me more disillusioned of the society we live in.

i'll think twice before the next coben.

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

yummy yummy yummy i got love in my tummy

togo lost to korea. NYEH.

had pasta dinner at cineleisure. marinara! i like seafood. but i don't like clams. they're sandy. but add a good dashing of chilli flakes and everything will taste nice. mmm.

had 3 rounds of air hockey and 1 round of daytona. suresh say i drive like a crazy woman. hahaha.

after that we got ICE- CREAM! from bakin' boys. FINALLY i get my hazelnut rocher. ITS VERY VERY VERY NICE. ferrero rocher in ice- cream version. oh orgasms.

then we ate ice- cream, walked to wisma for some window shopping then it was train ride home. we might be catching a match together one of these days. so exciting! :D:D:D

guess who was caught withdrawing money? haha.

i'll go read my book that suresh has kindly loaned to me while waiting for the french match. tonight is a FANTASTIC night for football. have i mentioned that already?

oh well.

nights!

when bored, bully boyfriend

ITS A BIRD! NO, ITS A PLANE! NO ITSSSSSSSSSSSS...

SUPARRRRRMANNN WITH A WEDGIE!

hurhur. meeting him for dinner later. thai express thai express whee whee whee! *bounces out of the window*

so last night was another good night of soccer. Australia defeated Japan with 3 late goals to Japan's early goal. Czech Rep SHOWED EM' YANKEES where they belong with 3 goals- 2 BRILLIANT shots by Tomas Rosicky. it makes me sick in the stomach to think he is playing for Arsenal next season. gah. Last match of the night was of course, the Great Azzuris who did not disappoint but to their credit, Ghana played a good match. they were fantastic contenders and the 2- 0 final score did not reflect that. i thought they deserved at least a goal. they worked hard.

but what can i say, with ~~hotties~~ players like that the Italians were bound to kick- ass. too bad Toni never scored. that's one player i wouldn't mind seeing shirtless. who cares bout' the yellow card.

did someone ask about TONIGHT!??! yes TONIGHT! well we start off boringly with Korea and Togo, which is why i have dinner plans. HURHUR. definitely giving that one a miss. after THAT, its France Vs Switz and Brazil Vs Croatia. OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH LALALA!

i'm a French fan for sentimental reasons. France 98 was the first World Cup i recall watching. i might have watched 94' but i guess i was too young to remember anything. so i saw France lifted the World Cup and hence begun my infatuation. i remembered writing in my diary, "david trezeguet." and he is, still, one of my favourite players.

david who, you say?

david trezeguet. sighhhh. such dreamy looks.

by the end of Group Stages i shall have an awards show. haha. well i'll think about it.

of course, by World Cup 2002 i was all grown up and wiser, and i knew better. i was a fan of samba soccer, and though he's prone to theatrics, i was quite a big Rivaldo fan. too bad he's not playing this time. he was good, albeit prone to lunging. nonetheless, this team is a good team and i hope they go all the way again.

my dream final would be Portugal- Brazil. i'd wear a Portugese jersey and a Brazil cap. haha.

and for the record, i don't like teams like Japan, Korea, Saudi, Iran and USA. go play something ELSE. i just don't like their style. i don't think they deserve to be playing at this level yet. what's the point of playing? you're just making up the numbers. it'll be better to have teams like Turkey, Greece even. and Senegal, so that the maplek will be happy. but oh well.

meeting him at 7, meaning i leave by 6. which means get ready by 5. time- check: 4.11 p.m.

think i got time for a nap? haha.

Monday, June 12, 2006

on the road to mandalay

both my mum and boyfriend have ceased being surprised when they call me at 1ish and hear a bleary, "hello?"

people, i am LIVING THE LIFE from 9 P.M. - 5 A.M. whence shall i sleep if not noon?

so yesterday was PORTUGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAL. i am a portugal fan, can you tell?

too many rhetoric questions, this post. stop, i shall. hurhur.

okay i'm just happy la. can't a girl be happy and not have to explain herself? harumph. okay i know no one asked me to explain myself but i'm home alone and i'm not a huge fan of monologues so i'm going to pretend my readers are a responsive audience, OKAY?!

good now that that is out of the way. yes. as suresh have kindly pointed out i'm becoming quite the night creature. you can call me at 4 a.m. and i will be all chirpy and awake, singing songs and gasping at goals- to- be. call me at 12 p.m. and i'll cuss the living daylights out of you.

today i have a bizarre craving for a snowfight. however since that shall not be easily attained, i will settle for a Hot Fudge Sundae from Macs later this evening. i got an ice- cream date! hoo hoo!

snow, sundae, potayyyto, potarrrto.

another thing to be excited about is picnic! this saturdayyy heyheyhey! haven't met the peejay clan in quite a bit so am looking forward to that. hope more would come. NAZRI! COME! i would ask people like nazreen, imran etc. along if i can. SO EXCITING!

have i mentioned how much i love this holidays? this time round i'm doing none of that pushcart/ cheap labour shazazz, no exhausting activities. i'm LIVIN' IT UP! yeah so i have less income. then i just spend less la. besides come july, work will start so this is a good break as any i would get before work+school starts.

wow and let's not forget NEXT WEEKEND! why? cuz that's BINTAN trip! with USP people. :)) saw pics of the place we're staying at, and the beach looks... LOOOOVE.

of course soon after that will be rag practices (my FAVOURITE july activity, haha!), chiang mai trip, USC Camp (OGL again, but i won't get lucky this time round la, i'll pass the freshies to those who need em' more, haha), then checking- in to PGP (shoutout- anyone else going PGP this sem?), then RAG DAY itself, then modules bidding and SCHOOL!

not really looking forward to THAT bit but hey. everything else before sounds raddddd. time flies. to think a month and 10 days ago exams just ended. phew. this life is catching up on me!

what i would really LOVE to do is spend a month in India. Bangalore- Dharamsala- Mumbai- Kashmir- Delhi- GOA! well maybe not exactly in THAT order, gotta work out the geography but yeah. i would really LOVE to do that. and of course i conveniently have an indian boyfriend. :D backpacking, anyone else?

but i don't think it'll be this december holidays cuz i've promised that part of my life (HURHUR) to dizzie. this december i shall keep my promise and GO TO MELBOURNE. and finally do all the stupid things i've wanted to do. which is actually, just shop at zimmerman. haha. blame fashion avenue!

then there's also new york. which i am quite hopefully targetting for december 2007. imagine Christmas in New York. imagine Central Park. HOLY MOLY BATMAN! i think i might pass out just standing before NYU. is it possible to have crush on a building? i think i have a crush on NYU.

so unless i decide to do special sem (which is highly unlikely) next May- July holidays, i guess India shall be nicely slotted into there. which means Jan- May paychecks go to that! i think planning to travel is the BEST way to resist shopping. and i should seriously consider selling off stuff. i have too much.

for all this i have to say, god bless budget airlines who have made travelling possible for someone like me. :D

and i wanna go on a Euro backpacking trip for my 25th birthday! whee!

i wanna design birthday invites for my 21st but thing is i don't even know WHAT is happening on my 21st. hahaha. i am still foolishly excited for my 21st for NO apparent reason. i really don't know why. i don't remember being this excite for a party since i was 12! that said, i won't be disappointed if pretty much nothing happens cuz i've come to learnt that i am more blessed than most and i have more than enough at hand, here. :)

all i want for my 21st is a new dress, my mum, and my maplek. feel free to join in the party! hurhur.

okay now i will go take out the prawns from the fridge so that mum can make me some noooodles when she comes home. bye!

Sunday, June 11, 2006

with my head in my hands i see you cry

back from partyyyy and woot! holland defeated S&M. no surprises there. as for tennis, Federer won first set 6 to 1 then Nadal won second set 6 to 1. which means its still anybody's game. shall catch some of that later. am iffy about Mexico- Iran cuz well... I'm rooting for Angola & Portugal for this group. so yeap.

party was nice! catered food was yummy and we had 2 rounds of fried rice and a round of mee hoon. yum. and lots of curry puffs. we're epok- epok freaks, btw. sardine for me, potato for him. 3 for $1 most of the time- it makes us quite the bajet couple.

across the bungalow where Razie's party was held was Changi Yatch Club and a Boardwalk. so we went and look- see. quite nice place. and night air was cool and breezy. lovely.

here's a snail we met along our walk.

the drive in saw us going past a few scary- looking abandoned houses (some up for rent, !!!). huge huge mansions. for rent. scary as hell. cuz the place is so dark and all the overgrown stuff... yeech. i'm a scaredy- cat like that. i was jumping a few times. in the CAR. -_-

OH OKAY! nadal won 3rd set 6 -4. WAHWAH so exciting!

anyway we went up this secluded road that led us to the two secluded empty houses along Hendon Road. its listed in the Changi Point Map we saw. along with Old Changi Hospital.

so we've decided that he shall look up Changi areas so next time we can look around! in the day of course. see. i kepo but scared. very difficult combo.

but ya the two houses look very scaryyyy. especially since it was late at night and the place is darkly lit. two HUGE houses, totally empty and abandoned. i didn't even dare take a picture cuz... dunno la. didn't want to cause unwanted problems, if any. i'm just being cautious! next time if we go in the day i take pictures show you.

well ABOUT the party. hahaha. here's the birthday girl!

and this is her pretty pretty sister.

and this is BATMAN.

HAHAHAHA.

this?

is Yun Nam Haircare Solution advertisement. TRY IT! IT WORKS! LOOK AT ALL THAT HAIRRR!

okay la. i want to change up, get comfy, heat up some pizza (woot woot more food!) and watch soccer/ tennis. and i think i shall shower. i feel... weird. i hate freaking myself out la. but Changi at night does that to me. hmm hmm.

oh and yes, this is from byebye hafiz day.

one more thing; in the last post, i clearly meant 'stoning on the rocking HORSE', not rocking CHAIR. i'm so dingdongy sometimes. but only sometimes. :D

sometimes it seems, you're not with me

i love that pic! so cute right the girl! picture courtesy of vintage photos' LJ. i lazy to link up for now cuz i must get ready for PUUUUUURTTTYYY!

that's party. for razinah. 21st. at Changi Beach Club. everyone else has turned 21 BUT MEEEEEEEE!

oh no wait. HAFIZ LIM haven't. hahaha that december FOOL!

ah okay. i should get ready. i love the girl! she so cute! stoning on a rocking chair! i'd so do that.

fell asleep watching Kim Possible. hmm. more soccer tonight hwee hwee hwee!

okaybye.

Day 2

intelligent conversation at 3 a.m., while watching Argentina- Ivory Coast.

*camera pans to spectators*
fiza: eh the two of them look like they can be soccer players themselves!
suresh: ya that's what i thought too!
fiza: hmm... he looks like mara...
suresh: maradona!
fiza: YA!

today i opened soccernet.com and...

Diego Maradona savours the final whistle in Hamburg.

rrrrrrrrrrrrrright.

well to our defence we didn't see his pass around his neck. besides, its MARADONA. he should be watching it from like a more... classy, atas place. NEVERMIND.

goes to show really, at 3 a.m., anything can happen.

Saturday, June 10, 2006

World Cup Highlights

FANTASTIC opening match from Germany & Costa Rica; final score 4 -2 to the home team. but really fantastic teams and i'd say look out for Lahm of Germany. and yes, that Wanchope guy IS good.
also brilliant match- Poland versus Ecuador. i was rooting for Ecuador and they did not dissapoint. 0- 2, a fantastic tap- in by man of the match, Delgado. i quite like Hurtado too. i think i'm liking Ecuador already!
true to my belief, England served up some BORING ASS SOCCER (not even football! haha!) and beat Paraguay by a goal. ONE GOAL. OWN GOAL. from a beckham cross deflected off paraguay's captain. in the 5th minute or so. imagine the pain which was the other 85 minutes. GAHHHHH. did someone say this England side has a chance to 'take the cup home'? buy one mug from souvenir store and bring home can. you're a bloody waste of time. absolutely BORING BORING BORING soccer, zilch creativity and WHAT chances?

just off the tangent a lil', i'm quite aversed to Singaporeans who support England for these reasons;

we watch the English Premier League so we know most of the England players;
we were colonized by the feckin' Brits.

i tell you these are the two STUPIDEST reasons to support a team. FIRSTLY just because Starhub is neo- colonized doesn't mean you have to be too, okay? SOCCER EXISTS BEYOND ESPN AND EPL so get a grip y'all.

and secondly these Brits came here thinking they're civilised and we're not and hence decide they shall HELP us become CIVILISED cuz we're too stupid and slow to do it all by ourselves and we GLORIFY this!??!!? we LOVE and ADORE them for thinking we're dumbasses? pui.

aside from that if you support England purely for their umm, talent? looks? whatever?, go ahead. you might be blind but i don't discriminate against the disabled so yea. support England for whatever reasons but the above two, okay? that is such a cock reason to support a team.

i think i've mentioned before how i'm a little anti- establishment. so this might be that. but whatever. people who tell me THIS ENGLAND TEAM CAN MAKE IT TO THE FINALS!/ THEY WILL BRING THE CUP HOME! makes me violently aggravated and i just want to smash their heads into the TV and feed their carcasses to those cocksuckers at ESPN.

PHEW.

now that was quite a rant.

really la. watch how England play and HONESTLY tell me they can WIN this World Cup? HUH?!!?

i think i should buy that "The Thinking Fan's Guide to The World Cup" and force feed the content to England fans cuz they're obviously not thinking.

in more depressing news (but WHAT could be more depressing than 90 minutes of England soccer?), hafiz hath departed. :( lemme know when you reach Melb!

now i await delightful soccer by Sweden, Trinidad & Tobago, Argentina and Ivory Coast.

okay and one last PUI! to england. and look what ESPN (the father of all English soccer cocksuckers) has to say.

England opened their World Cup campaign with an unspectacular 1-0 win over Paraguay in Frankfurt on Saturday.

HAHAHAHAHAHA.

so long, and goodbye!

not for long, but a sem is long without my trusty companion. :( farewell my favouritest friend in the world.

REMEMBER TO MISS ME! and you're not allowed to sing stupid songs with other girls there.
get an Aussie girlfriend if you want, but don't get an Aussie accent or i'll sit on you.
can you remind when is tutorial days, still? please?
BLOG BLOG BLOG! i want to know all about your life there. if not i send spy over then you know.
don't let ANYONE ELSE call you 'HAPIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIZ!" from metres away!
have fun, study hard and come back here and do fun modules with me!
oh yes, and DO look out for Zimmerman clothes for me. thank you!

:D I WILL MISS YOU ALOOOOOOOOOOOOOT! :(( don't want to say anymore wait i cry. later at airport don't laugh at me if i cry hor. :(( i suck with goodbyes. i know its temporary but i've spent all my NUS days with you and i can't imagine you not in it. AIYA SEE LAAAAAA I CRY ALREADY........

apiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiz. must miss me hor. i very sad already. :( LOVE YOU! come back soon. okay i know you just leaving... but ya. i hope to see you in december k? KEEP YOUR WEBCAM ON!

i hate goodbyes.

Friday, June 09, 2006

excuse me while i drown myself in some indulgent, self- absorbed cussing and cheering and crying in front of the TV.

welcome World Cup, how i've misseth you.

entries might cease to hold much content beyond midnight tonight.

BRAZIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIL, LALALALALALALALALALA!

Thursday, June 08, 2006

i bet you think this song is about you

what's better than a hot boyfriend?

umm well nothing really. okay so what's ALMOST as good as a hot boyfriend?

a funny boyfriend. :D he got me a tee from outfitter girls; "Love means NOTHING to a tennis player."

how apt, with the french open and all. or how UN- apt, seeing its our 10th month. but what the hey, i love him just the same.

so he fetched me at my void deck and we were both decked in flea market buys! the tops and the shades. it got cloudy soon after so we didn't really wear em'. but he claims my shades are bigger than my smile. haha. now THAT'S a first. and i said, "OOH! a race for space on my face!"

what am i, if not a poet.

we wanted to grab pizza at The Pizza Place down at Raffles City but the entire stretch was under renovation. so we made do with Cedele bakery depot. pretty nice! i wanted to try the chocolate- orange cupcake but i figured the sandwich will be pretty heavy. so i had the tuna salad on ciabatta and he had a quiche. and we got the vanilla sponge cake with raspberry jam. yum.

what's an anniversary without cake...

and fiza's delightful eating habits.

after that he made us take a walk down to the place where we had our first "talk". :)) the cafe was closed but it was very sweet of you to think of that. it was nice to just sit on the stoop outside the cafe and talk for abit. pleasantly surprised. so thank you.

after resting for abit we decided to walk down to Plaza Singapura to check if they have air hockey tables at their arcade. turned out they didn't. so we window- shopped for abit, and he got me the tee. then we went back and played 2 rounds of daytona. i am a violently agressive driver and i never use the brakes. and i somehow always crash into the wall all by lonesome self, without anyone having to bang into me. hoo well.

some people are not meant to drive, but be driven. ;) yes, and i am that person.

after that round of arcade we wandered around Barang Barang then it was time for him to meet his mum for his parents' wedding anniversary dinner. yesyes its a day of anniversaries! we had gotten a card from raffles that was pretty cute... it wobbles. umm ya.

train ride down with the usual game of pool that i declared "exhausting". keep in mind the game is played by pressing buttons "5", "6" and "4". yeah. tiring!

so yeap. a walk home where i flopped my shawl on my head to not get wet from the slight drizzle. after flopping the entire piece of cloth on my head i asked him, "do you think the police will catch me?" "haha no, but IMH might."

i think its very important to have someone in your life who thinks making you laugh and smile is important. doesn't matter who he/ she is, a mum, a friend, a sister, but if you have one, you don't need much else. i don't need much else. :)

so we did the first C of anniversaries; which is cake. then we did the 2nd C while waiting for the train. yeap, camwhore. enjoy, me lads.

the normal, happy couple series.

the normal, fiza- suresh series.

there's more where that came from but i'll be done for now. peanut butter oreos and milk doth await, and so does tennis. and rain = pink fleece pajamas. whoopee! snuggle into my sofa and read something. ahh.

i've had a lovely lovely day. so now i am going to burst into sunshiney rays and blind the world. and then maybe i'd eat the other half of the sandwich from cedele. yeap. toodles!

its been 303 days. :)

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

a good night for TV

Men's Q- finals on Channel 22 and Singapore Idol on 5. but umm, 7 girls, and only 1 who can sing? gee.

they should just have 10 finalists then get straight to it since there's probably only 10 who CAN really sing anyway. i loved it when ken said, "when you are up there singing and realizing your dreams, do you realize you are antagonizing the rest of the world?" hahahahaha like how more snarky can you get? ken must really hate her.

and uh, i am really NOT comfy with all this "naughty girl" business going on cuz all of them have this super pretty/ sweet face and they go all naughty and i go all WHUHHHHHH.

right okay. so back to tennis. its so much more interesting than watching people try to sing. and for the record, Nadal's through. i forsee a Nadal- Federer final. and i HOPE, a Justine Henn- Hardene Vs Random Russian women's final.

can you tell? i don't like em' russian players. but i'd give the current 17 year old Vaidisova a break cuz to beat Mauresmo AND a Williams at that age IS something. so good on ya, kiddo.

so Fiza's prediction for the French Open Finals at the moment is Henn- Hardenne/ Vaidisova for Womens' and Federer/ Nadal for Mens'. i want Henn- Hardenne to win, but i'm fine with either men winning la.

speaking of which i think i would want a 'sports' vacation one day. World Cup 2010 maybe? it'll be in SOUTH AFRICA which is droooooooooooooooooooooool AND maybe after that we'd drop by a nearby continent (HAHAH) and watch a Tennis Tournament. and who is this imaginary 'we'? WE la. whoever the other person is. cuz go alone not fun mah. so anyone up for it!?

still got 4 years anyway so we can rilek one corner first and save money okay. hahahaha. but wah, i want sia. World Cup + __________ Open. preferably Clay Court. okay la Melb Open also can. oooooooh so exciting!

okay enough talking. time to watch history in the making. Can ALL the Top 4 seeded men make it to the Semis? we shall see.

okaybye!

p.s.: oops forgot to say. nehneh thank you for coming to my void deck for half an hour to eat 3 curry puffs, drink big gulp and complain about work. :D i love you.

mark of intelligence

you know there is something wrong with the education system when...

*4 teenagers enter train, a girl and 3 guys*

*girl and guy listens to MP3 player*

guy: hey is this in accoustic (a.koos.tick)?
girl: HAHAAHAHHAA
guy: huh?
girl: its ACOWSTICK la not ACCOUSTIC!
guy: no laaaa its accoustic!
girl: hello! who got A2 for O Level English? hmm? hmm??

-______________________________-

well obviously not YOU, lil' girl.

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

i don't like wee hours of the morning cuz that's when my brain is in overdrive and i scare myself silly imagining crazy situations that will never happen in real life but makes me very very sad anyway. and sometimes if you think about it, WHAT will never happen? anything can.

irrational fear is the worst of the lot. fear is already a pain but when its irrational, its just that. no rationale, no logic. hence nothing can soothe it, nothing can rid you of the fear. so every night you think of the same thing over and over again and because its so irrational, telling yourself its irrational fear doesn't do anything.

even the best fall down sometimes

sometimes i don't know what i'm more afraid of losing; love, life, or pride.

Monday, June 05, 2006

there's a danger in loving somebody too much

ah what a lovely monday. met 2 boys from the past! haha. faizal from chua chu kang, when i went to collect my letters from the old place, and erwin from secondary school, when we met for dinner and some fathers' day shopping.

tired feet, as always. has it ever been any different?

but fun just the same. it was odd to meet faizal whom i last saw a year and a half ago, the day before i moved out of chua chu kang. he looks exactly the same and yet, we're not the same. :) i guess its for the best. as much as i loved that guy, some people you just grow out of. and its no longer the same anymore. or maybe i speak too soon? but i really think the bond we had is lost. we're such different people now that its so hard to reconcile how different we are. our lives are headed in such diverse paths.

which makes me retrospective. when i first knew faizal i was all of 14. i didn't even know if i was going university. education was just this bus i was on and i had no idea i had to choose stops, or alight, for that matter. i just rode on, i guess. i got lucky more than once.

from that point on till i was 20 we shared little, but we shared the big stuff. like dreams. i wanted poly, he wanted jc. we ended up swapping. i wanted to drop out of jc, he told me to stay. he ended up dropping out. then i finally got into NUS... and he started working sales. its funny how we had such different plans then, and do such different things now.

now he's in the army. and in between there's more drama that shall remain untold. such is life, isn't it? when i look back to those nights we shared over fan choy and peach tea, i smile cuz i know we both wanted so much from so little. the naivety of youth is so tender and it makes you all warm and fuzzy inside i guess, to know you were once that.

there's no covering up. the awkward silences, the exchange in different languages. the awkward words said to try to blend in... into what i don't know. into fake cameraderie? maybe. but i know we didn't have the easy banter we used to share. might be too much to expect, given the distance that has grown between us, but i always think space between friends are physical, not emotional. no matter the distance, knots unravel itself and kinks get smoothened out in seconds.

but the knots and kinks remain and i guess the friendship is no longer the way it was. of course we're still friends, we'd still talk, but i think we both know we lost something. and funnily enough, it doesn't make me sad.

maybe he was a phase. maybe he was part of a childhood, teenhood, that i grew out of. and now when i try to fit him back into my life, there is no space. he doesn't fit in. he stands out jarringly, the awkward piece for a different puzzle. he will always be that guy, that friend, that person, from that time. but he cannot be the guy now.

and maybe why it doesn't really make me sad is because... i know its because we grew up. its not because we hate each other, or don't like each other anymore. we do different things, want different things. and its fine. its just a different type of friendship now i guess. i don't think i see ourselves talking and laughing over the same things we used to. and maybe that's because we don't do it anymore. the things we used to do.

ah well. such is life. and i've learnt to accept that. not all friends stay. and not all who stay, stay the same. i've come to learn to accept him for who he is, and him, me. we were always different. but friendship, like love, often comes with a fizzle, and for us, that fizzle is gone. but that's okay. we'd be fine. that's what friends are for.

How come we can't talk the way we used to do

Nothing seems to be the same

Have we forgotten all the things we knew

Was it you or I who changed

Way We Used To Be; Jim Croce

Sunday, June 04, 2006

flea&easy

lalala lovelovelove. had fun with saramarabobara and the nehneh. alot of roadworks being done along Great World City and general Kim Seng area, meaning lots of HOT roads with newly set TAR. my POOR $10 school bazaar rubber slippers! WERE MELTING! so i had to do a chicken dance of sorts to get across the road. must run with legs lifted up high high. look dumb but slippers are the love of my life so ya.

kate orang sayang selipar timang- timangkan. HAHAHHAA.

okay i don't even know how to translate that. umm, if you love you slippers, umm, okay Bhanot's Malay- English Dictionary says timang = to dandle; to caress; to rock (child). so yes. if you love your slippers, dandle them.

and ya i didn't want my rubber slippers to melt into the road then i am forever WELDED into the road! FOREVER! how liddat?!?!

so after some merry dancing across hot roads, we reached zouk. wah damn packed! but damn fun. and damn smelly. within 10 minutes i got a balenciaga lookalike for $20. :D its gigantic, the way i like my bags to be. perfect for travel and school, so yay!

got myself a green mango long- sleeved shirt for $5, brand new with tag. a skirt for $8, brand new with tag too. then shades for $12.50. i LOVE my shades.

this is called besar gedabak shades, a.k.a. giant shades.

it makes me look like a bug. i like!

nehneh also got shades for same price. hemsem mensem!

machiam matrix wannabe lor.

this is his stash. $21 worth of clothes. that's $7 a piece! woot! $5 cute tee that says Break Free and has clouds all over, $6 black and white striped polo and !!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!! $10, TEN DOLLAR, AUNTHENTIC ARNOLD PALMER NEVER BEEN WORN green and blue striped polo!!! ARNOLD PALMER LEIIIIIIIIII.

so yes we're both happy. i like what sara got but it was not my style. an old school batwing top with embroidered flowers. in pink. see? pink. hahaha. it was going for $15 and she got it for $10.

i even managed to buy my mum lime green flats. super cute okay. $5! sigh.

i love flea markets. now for the GREAT singapore sale (that isn't all too great YET) and CHIANG MAI! wacaaaaaaaaaa!

i think i quite like jobless holidays. :))

and this morning someone woke up to a recording of Extreme's More Than Words. hehe.

so all in all, a merry sunday it has been. tomorrow= AWARE meeting + coffee with erwin + some errands. busy busy.

and BTW portugal away jersey damn nice. i WANT. nehneh you should buy also. it made the ENTIRE portugal team, subs included, look hot. i think i shall call it the magic jersey. oooh and WOOT WOOT! 5 days to world cup liao!!!! WAH LAO I AM GOING TO HYPERVENTILATE!

i shall print my World Cup Chart soon. yay!

oh and the Crazy Frog techno song is stuck in my head. it basically goees, "DING DING DING DING DINGDINGDING DINGDING DING DING DINGDINGDINGDING" over and over again. easy peasy.

okay that's all. i am a happy happy girl. thanks to sara for the company, albeit short but it was good to meet again. meet up soon for my shades yang terceceh inside your bag! yea i left my peach tea and shades in her bag la. hahaha. but got new shades already so nehmind i can wait. love my new shades!

lovelovelove.

i am off to the zooooooooooooooUK flea market!

:)

hope to be back with great buys. toodlepips!

your grandfather's flip- flops!

aiyo i very hungry. want to heat up lasagne too lazy. but i need to take my medication. nehneh laaaaaaaaaa. i hate medicines.

okay so i am already sleepy. is this because of antibiotics? i don't know also. i am also quite tired. i think cuz i've been traipsing around the northern region of singapore for a bit.

3.15 p.m. meet suresh at admiralty to go town. bought berms for him and his dad then it was 2 rounds of air hockey at cineleisure arcade. bunch of chao ah beng young punks were standing around watching us and that was super not fun. i refuse to play air hockey on weekends! its like that guy who refused to run on a sunday. who was he?

we proceeded to NYDC for mudpie.

this is mudpie.

*waiter comes with mudpie*
fiza: WHOOOOHH!
waiter: ????
fiza & suresh: hahahahaha.
fiza: i almost pocketed the cue ball!
waiter: right.

WHOOHHHHH!

i WHOHH! cuz i REALLY almost pocketed the cue ball. YES i was playing virtual billiard with suresh while waiting for the mudpie. i think i scared the shit out of that poor mat. oh well.

then when we asked for bill suresh realized he didn't have enough cash so he go withdraw money while i sat there and wait. and wait. and wait. cuz i didn't know where he go! he left for the bill and never came back! so what i do?

i leave the place.

hahahahaha.

then i was walking halfway i saw him queuing at the ATM. then he gestured violently for me to "GO BACK! GO BACK!" hahaha okay lor i go back lorrrrrrr. so kancheong only.

then i wait wait wait then he pay then we chao chin chao.

ah crap now i want to drink chin chow. very nice lei.

this is mudmess.

wah today i wear the Xtreme Eyelash mascara shit then my eyes damn irritating. lucky i never cut off my eyelashes. that's it man. no more mascara. now i know what they mean by don't perfect an already perfect thing. HAHAHAH got anyone ever say that or not? got laaaaa right. sure got one.

okay then we go back woodlands cuz he bought movie tickets for his parents then he had to pass it to them. don't ask. then we went to YAK BISHHHHHHHHH! bishan, for thai express.

fiza: umm can i have some chilli?
waiter: umm chilli padi is it?
fiza: umm ya the normal one you usually have, the one that's usually here *points to spot on table*, right here.
waiter: ah ya chilli padi.

HAHAHA now all waiters think i am a freak. :D duncha wish your customers were freaks like meeeeee. new song, by the pussywhat doors. OKAY ANYWAY.

pussy is so vulgar. tsk.

played pool in train rides and i became quite, umm, vocal?

fiza: *in death metal rocker voice* you cannot pocket that baalll... it is not yours... if you do it it shall forever haunt youuuu...

apparently this works.

*suresh pockets ball*
fiza: how dare you, you streaky bacon! you fried duck!

as you can tell, its been a rough day. i believe i deserve my rest after entertaining myself so well the entire day.

this is clean- shaven indian.

i'll see you when you get there. if you ever get there. see you when you get there.

guess the song and win a tank of oxygen. hurhur.

see so cool right?! i want to become spy.

okay bye i sleep now.

Saturday, June 03, 2006

shalalalalalala shaboom, shaboom

so here's the lowdown (WORD.) on my tooth. the same old tooth that got the root canal treatment, has to undergo ANOTHER root canal treatment cuz apparently something screwed up and the amalgam is leaking and basically, the shit it was supposed to stop didn't stop. but if i go private, it'll be $1200 at least. and NO, i am not going to spend my NUS Bursary Award on my tooth. i have sworn OFF NTUC Denticare for eternity. so next best option is polyclinics and Medisave. we'll work it out. but yes, i forsee myself marrying a dentist to save myself from all this dental woes. suresh, is it too late to swap faculties?

and here's the photo from the party i went few weekends back. Sin's 21st!

sin is the lady in blue. i just realized, we're a pretty colourful bunch that night. well the girls at least.

oh yes so as it turned out i did not get the job at USP so its might as well that we got the financial assistance. and i've applied for some other shtick but i'm kinda resigned to the fact that i shall remain jobless till i return from chiang mai. and i can't really say i dread that. if i'm gonna be working from july onwards anyway, i might as well enjoy some for now.

and can i just say the weather has been a pain lately? its blistering hot and it makes me lazy and gives me migraines. gah.

though that means it'll be a good time to head down to the beach. hmm hmm. maybe i should ask the minah sisterhood. been awhile since we hit the waters.

stayed up till 5 a.m. yesterday. my body clock is clearly bezoinked. just the same, it meant i got to watch some cheerleading competition on ESPN. hahaha. i never realized how these cheerleaders have to hold a certain face when cheering. like a group on the left will have the mouth- open- in- shock look, the one on the right will look super- chirpy- and- smiley, and yada yada. god it must hurt the jaws.

ouuh and since i've done a Top 10 (or was it 15? or 20? who cares) Hottest Soccer Players, i'd figure its only fair to give an ode to the French Open i'm so addicted to and do a Top 5 Hottest Tennis Players.

at #5 is a young and, i believe, up and coming dude, Gael Monfils. he's probably not very good- looking upclose but he's charismatic AND he's got 6- packs. AND he winks at the camera. hahaha.

at #4 we have Rafael Nadal. good player, nice arms. a bit too beefy for my liking, hence the spot.

at #3, who else but the Federer Express.

at #2 is not- so- brilliant player, but he damn hot okay. Andy Roddick. HEEELLOOO.

and of course la, #1, who else. my one and only Marcos Baghdatis. hot as hell okay. here he is in all his scruffy and teethy goodness!

okay and here's a lesson to all girlfriends: after you post many many pictures of hot men on your blog, must always remember to do this:-

and here i present you the hottest man in the world (God forgive me for i have sinned but this is of absolute necessity);

ah okay. see? now all bases covered. :D don't complain its small ah! i say you hottest man in the world liao!

okay la i want to shower (yes again) cuz i'm sweating just sitting still. CRAZY i tell you! this is CRAZY weather!

okay bye.

Friday, June 02, 2006

i hate periods, period.

and i got a toothache on the same tooth. previous dentist did a botch job on this one, and i need ANOTHER root canal treatment. goddamn.

i am quite okay la. but being sick and all that is making me a little miserable so let me mope for abit, and i'll be back with more intelligent (or not) stuff for you.

Thursday, June 01, 2006

to say i'm kinda tired is an understatement cuz as it turned out, i got my cramps today too. so its been just generic lying around for the whole day.

then i come online and see chaos in the tagboard, so i shall address each of you individually.

maria: no, you may not eat the hamster. firstly, its not mine. secondly, its only 8 cm long. makan pun tak kenyang. umm, if you eat also not very filling. and yea, i think you'll get MAJOR furball. :D

nydia: time and again i remind you interners/ workers not to whine about having nothing to do cuz hello! you're PAID to do nothing! -_-

miss adi: contrary to what hafiz suggests, that pose with the kaya toast and in fact MOST of his poses, are all devised by suresh himself. i guess i got lucky (or not) and just got myself a boyfriend as crazy as me.

hafiz: beat and bully your boyfriend to make him do other things la! not POSE for photos! beat and bully him to buy you things and polish your toenails, etc.

nana: 1, far east level 5. this very cute mamak look like mr bean one! he very nice. go go! and his secondhands are mostly in good condish. and as for toast, well... :D i didn't even know they close. but better luck next time! it really rocks my titties.

and BTW everyone, there's this new cupcake place. CLICK HERE! prepare to drool. don't believe?

WACAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

i love.

now i will rest more by watching marcos baghdatis on super sports. he is a hot tennis player man. and i love project runway! daniel v is so hot.

okay la. too tired. i hate losing blood. pui.

firstly i am glad to annouce my blog is no longer in any foreign language.

i am however, the bearer of bad news. i've been awake for the past umm, day? and now i am going for breakfast with my mum. while i feel fresh and awake and chirpy as a tweety (its 5 dammit, leave me be), i know when i get home i'll be morbidly drained and begging for mercy. or silenced to my doom. at the end of it all...

i'll probably look like this.

i feel like THAT already.

i'm just a fool, a fool in love

i disagree that love makes you do stupid things.

i think love makes you do happy, fun things, like surprising your boyfriend at work during lunch.

after lunch was gail's place for some hamster lovin' and magazines- reading and web- surfing.

meet elmo!

after that was harbourfront hawker with the nehneh for dinner. mee soto with lots of chilli! that made me choke halfway eating! almost squirted noodles onto nehneh's thosai okay! damn funny! then we hahahahaha then we eat.

after eating we walked over to harbourfront mall and walked around...

to make space for these.

i think we're addicted to the routine of thosai/ mee soto followed by kaya toasts after. OHMYGOD! NO WAY! (ala the new irritating talking smileys)

yeap so that was my wednesday. and i asked the nehneh what else i should write, and he said i should write, "you love nehneh." so yes, i love nehneh.

i wanna go catch some tennis now as i always do, and hopefully finish this RIVETING michael connelly i'm reading. yup.

its midweek, whoopee!

(though its irrelevant since i'm on holiday, but yeah)