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I go by the moniker Fiza.
I am solitary by choice, not circumstances.
I have friends, I'm not lonely.
I have love, I do have a heart.
I can be cold, I am made to be stronger than most.
I can be quiet, I was born to be the only child.
I can be funny and loud, I was taught to always have fun.
I can be anything I want to be. Only because I can.




Bituwin - Blogskin
Edited by Yours Truly.
Blog Title is E.B. White's famous words, rephrased.
Tuesday, April 27, 2004

running away.

i am leaving for Malaysia alone tomorrow at noon. just running away from familiarity and leaving the primitive and suffocating circumstances of home. will probably be home next week.

faizal and hafiz. two names that will be ringing in my head throughout my journey there. hopefully that mess clears up.

law, comm studies and arts & soc. sci. three courses that will be decided upon during my getaway.

nus and ntu. two universities that will be decided on there as well.

like a pendulum swinging, the ball keeps banging against a wall and echoes troubles.

personal life. studies. future. personal life. studies. future. personal life. studies. future. personal life. studies. future.

pendulum. swinging. swinging. swinging.

me.

running. running. running.

but not moving.

leave me, pain. leave me. go away hurt. go away sorrow. go away depression.

i want to welcome normalcy back. with open arms.

faizal. give me truth.

hafiz. give me time.

God. give me advice.

life. show me the light at the end of this endless tunnel.

Wednesday, April 21, 2004

an invitation to treat.

hush now my friends. i'm fine...

life's been hectic... scholarships tests, interviews.... tuitions...

but it's all good.

went through several rough patches i shan't mention here.

but i'm up & smiling. =)

i still love blogging. and all of you.

*hugs all around*

Thursday, April 01, 2004

hey there you.

well... it's been... hmm. days? ah well. why does it matter.

sometimes i wonder what matters. me? my family? him? must it be a person?

days passes by insignificantly. i wish i could explain it all but some things u keep to yourself.

i miss... i don't know. i miss the ORDERliness of life. i miss timetables & regular constant timeslots.

i want order. mechanic. rigid. regular. clockwork. no changes.

no changes.